after the high of chijmes I thought I’d have more
time on my hands. but it seems stuff are still piling
up. I’m still seriously lacking in time. I need more than 24 hours a day. and add to that the lack of sleep I’ve been going through. 5
to 6 hours ain’t enough to keep my high-energy life going.
I’m real glad I’ve managed to survive
that gruelling schedule for the past two weeks, but for this week I’m stuck
into a lot of work, tuition, and band meetings again. and
I foresee a week of late nights again. monday
– work, then band, tuesday – work, wednesday – tuition, thursday –
band, friday – tuition. on
the tuition side right now I’ve 3 students, and one of them just asked for a
twice-per-week thing. and so I’ll have four sessions
per week. probably going to heave a huge sigh of
relief once he finishes his o levels. I really enjoy teaching him, but I’m
starting to think I don’t have enough time for so many students, on top of my
regular work at ocr. I’ll
try to get through this week again and then take it from there.
what worries me is that I’m going into the third week of school already. and still haven’t made much headway into my “project nerd” –
to study like mad. in fact I think I’m lagging behind
in readings and stuff, and tutorials are starting. better
get my ass to start reading soon. conrad
and company, here I come!
probably one of the bigger concerns in my life now is this friend who just broke
up. dunno why, but seems like I’ve quite a few friends
breaking up these days, and I think it’s not going to do any of their exams any
good. all I can say is: we can’t let such things take
over our life. I know it’s a huge blow and it’s almost impossible to put into
the back of your mind, but we’re not going to let that little f***er spoil our futures. deep inside
we know that he’s not going to feature in any further part of our lives
anymore, so why be so bothered about him that it affects our lives? carry on with what must be done. work
towards exams, get the results, then go explore that bright future out there. you have such good qualities – it won’t be hard for you to
find someone who cares more about you in future. but
for now, let’s get down to business – to survive this great little setback. and grow – grow big on character. resilient.
stronger.
actually I don’t know if she read this, but if she does, I just want to say that
I care too. stop the tears. good
that they flowed. but they must stop sometime. and I think one day is long enough. get
on with life. I’ll help make that task easier, but you must stay strong
yourself too.
on another note, listening to stefanie sun’s yu jian now, the
main theme song for the yet-released movie walk
left walk right. or is it turn left turn right? I don’t know – too confused with the
translations. but it’s really very nice. very un-stefanie sun, but a nice
tune. simple and melodic. go
buy her latest album, and enjoy. heh.
even my grandma recognises her whenever she sees her
on tv now. cool. she’s made it big =p
kind of late, gotta make sure I stay awake
sufficiently this week. it’s actually quite cool that I can sleep immediately
when I board a bus cos I’m so dead beat, but I end up
pissed when I realise there’s no seats. hope there’s
seats on the bus tomr. i actually appreciate the finer things in life now! –
sleeping on a bus. haha.
take care everyone!
dejectium out
25
august 2003
0049
hrs gmt +8