i bent down,

knees shaky,

and picked up the pieces on the ground.

 

I tried to put them back together,

back to their original shape,

and they seemed to fit.

 

but the thin lines still show,

every fracture,

every scar,

especially that hole in the centre.

 

it looks ok now,

but a single tap,

is enough to send it whittling into

that multitude of pieces again.

 

and I’ll have to repeat that process?

and again?

 

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during lesson today, our common friend in the centre… argh let’s do it in the form of a play…

 

yj:        is that a scar or a bruise? (points at my knee)

 

me:     scar…

 

yj:        bruise underneath a scar?

 

me:     (louder) scar…

 

sq:       (laughs) he must say it such that it travels to me… haha… I gave him that scar lah…… (then goes on to explain how           and why)

 

me:     (thinking) there are more scars than that. scars that cannot be seen. mental, on the heart, everywhere…

            and me? I’ll only try to recover, hoping that, as everyone seems to say, “time heals all wounds”.

 

[exeunt]

 

dejectium out

12 nov 2003

2323 hrs gmt +8

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