27 minutes 07 seconds
just needed to note that down… I’ve a feeling I’d even plan the whole
schedule sometime along the length of this entry.
think this was the most productive day I’ve had in a very very
long time. finished the entire macroeconomic section
of the bloody 770-page text. but it’s also one of the
most miserable days too I think. whole day spent
mugging. with reading the newspapers as recreation. which doesn’t amount to much recreation too anyway cos it’s still reading… but anyway I digress.
and it’s out of this productiveness that I find that I should reward myself
by blogging a little bit. ok
maybe more than a little bit.
sometimes I yearn for the canny (strangely, far from the opposite of uncanny)
nature of raon’s blog (and
it doesn’t mean from a can too). the witty sarcastic digs at society… which I interpret it to
be at least. then I think that too much parallateral similarities don’t exactly amount to much
originality, so I abandon that desire. not that I exactly
have the aptitude for that.
then I sometimes think of the euphemism-filled logs of grace (that wasn’t
meant to be an insult J).
but I somehow feel readers won’t be too pleased with
having to propel a staggering tome of lexicology while endeavouring to manoeuvre
the control device that directs the traffic inclination of the pointer on their
screens.
so I decide to stick to my sad style. a tad
arcane sometimes. but nevertheless my sanctum. (hey warcraft players: I used the
words arcane and sanctum consecutively in a meaningful sentence!!!)
I digress again. heh.
the week-long study break’s been rejuvenating to the soul. largely I guess. though still
injurious sometimes. last saturday
spent on parties, sunday spent on shifting out of
hostel. then come monday
(which happens to be exactly one week from the start of the exam). spent that day organising all my notes and figuring out what
I have to study. tuesday
spent studying out at parkway starbucks. which is actually a place with dung music. (I don’t wish to
use shit). ok shitty music. I mean, it’s good for
letting one’s frustrations go, but the last kind of music I need to hear when I’m
trying to concentrate on studying is rabid jazz (read boogie. boogie with lots
of growls and bloodcurdling screams as improvisation, however much they deserve
to be appreciated). add to that the emotional stress
of scampering competitively for the cushioned sofa seats that are in scarce
supply (can’t blame me for using economic terms: refer to 770-page textbook Taylor: Economics (2001)). overall quite an unnerving educational experience.
have always reiterated that I don’t study well outside. too
much distraction – the littlest noise distracts me. not
to mention that silky-haired girl with fabulous legs who walks in once in a
blue moon. but at least it’s better than doing nothing
at home. (maths: 0.0001 is still > 0)
and so I spend monday and tuesday.
anyway if you’re bored now you can leave; I just feel
that little bit of attitude. heh.
go elsewhere if you’re bored, cos
I’m going on to wednesday thursday
and friday.
spent wednesday afternoon watching my alma mater
college band rehearsing for their competition. must
say that they definitely have the pedigree, and quality to go on to rule the
college band scene. but work needs to be done on the
tidiness of the woodwinds. incorrigibly loud though. heh. then
had to fly off to tutor. and boy he does live damn
f***ing far away. took me
one and a half hours, ended up half-an-hour late. and
that’s another draining day. (ooh I didn’t mention any
studying right? well I didn’t). ooh… but I met her friend on the bus there. don’t even know her name, but we exchanged smiles. and then the person beside her got off the bus. so had not much of choice but to sit down beside her friend
and exchange small talk. turned out she’s quite
friendly and managed to talk quite a bit. heh.
chance to score points with her friends. bastard me.
thursday spent studying. more out of guilt cos I didn’t do anything on wednesday.
and so off I went to singpost
coffee bean to study. much nicer music. soft jazz, conducive to studying. stayed
there till about
then suddenly night came, around 2230. a call from
a good friend. boyfriend problems. went
out to meet her at east coast park. where she wanted
to drink. splurged over fifty bucks on drinks again. haiz. san
miguel’s not bad though. talked
for ages, then walked her home. reached home around
0300. conked out on bed after a quick shower.
there goes my plan to wake up early the next morning. woke
up around
and then it’s today! most productive. brought on by the feeling of panic as the exams draw nearer I
guess. and around 6 plus the friend messaged again,
having worse problems with her boyfriend. but then I realised
I hadn’t the time left. very guiltily had to say I couldn’t
make it. but I really really
wanted to be there. ego defense
mechanism then set in. self-resolution. I told myself she had to solve the
problems sometime, with or without me around. it’d
probably be better for her to make her own decisions, and enable herself to
grow stronger with each conflict resolution. pah. excuses. I’m not psyching myself successfully cos I still feel guilty. need
help.
and so I’m here. after a run.
here’s the schedule! J
-
four laps of the
neighbourhood park: 27 minutes 07 seconds (today
-
aimed timing for four
laps: 25 minutes approx
4.5 km
-
upon achievement of
four laps in 25 minutes: 8 laps in 50 minutes (max allowable 60 min) approx 9.0 km
-
upon achievement of 8
laps in 50 minutes: 12 laps in 90 minutes max approx
13.5 km
-
upon achievement of 12 laps in 90 minutes: 16 laps in 120 minutes (2 hours)
max. approx 18.0
km
-
then good to go for half-marathon! (to be achieved by september) approx
21.0 km
hope to be able to make this target. the feeling of
finishing a half marathon definitely doesn’t match that of a full marathon, but
I’d dare say it’s enough achievement for someone who struggled to finish his
2.4 in 16 minutes in college.
okie. for those who reached here I’m sorry to have
bored you. but yeah, the word parallateral doesn’t exist. I made
it up.
dejectium out
2003
hrs gmt +8