time flies.

 

it’s been slightly more than a month since I last saw her. more than a month since she clarified stuff.

 

one thinks time heals. and one actually believes that. at least until the next time I see her.

 

I don’t know how I’d react if I see her again. will the pain all rise up to the fore all over again? more acute this time? I don’t know. but I really do want to meet up with her again at least this holidays, if not for anything, just to check out how she’s been. but from whatever limited info I get, I gather that she’s happily enjoying her holidays. glad to at least know that. well, guess I’ll not ask her out this hols after all, at least not on my initiative…

 

haven’t had the time to really ponder over these stuff because I’ve been kept busy with work (non-paid work at that). not really enjoying all the administrative shit I’m doing now, but at least it helps take my mind off things. and add another tuition, that makes it three now. will sort out the details. the latest one might even want two sessions per week, effectively making it four “average” students for me? that’ll be cool. full use of my time.

 

with tuition resuming, hopefully the income flow resumes as well. then I can finally catch two movies I really want to watch these hols – finding nemo and ju-on. nemo’s a big problem though… most people have watched it already. happens that I have this senior who hasn’t watched it (and wants to watch it too), but I don’t really know her that well, even though she’s really nice. so I don’t know if I should ask her to watch it with me. as for ju-on, hopefully I’ll get the dough in time to mass-watch it with lots and lots of people!

 

had an amazing makan session at another jazzy senior’s house. reached her home, it seemed like we entered the brunei forests. heh. lots of trees, albeit the fish tank. even more impressive was the deco. a mish-mash of amazing porcelain stuff exhibited on shelves, I feared sneezing, in case the decorations all came crashing to the floor. heh. and even more impressive was the huge mantelpiece that held at least fifteen trophies, all of which were for cooking competitions – all champions! guess you can just imagine the mouth-watering dishes her mum whipped up! then played some really stupid games that nevertheless were damn fun. heh.

 

reached home just in time to catch a large part of my sassy girl on tv. guess that’s what put me into this uber-reflective and wistful mood.

 

and of course grace’s blog with that passage about the protagonist not being able to love again for fear of hurt. and also reading mention of her in another blog – but that’s not the blogger’s fault =p.

 

got tuition in the morning, and then father’s day lunch right after that. promises to be a hectic week ahead. it’ll be better if it gets even busier – and I get paid =p

 

hope all’s well with her life. mine’s just about to get along fine too.

 

dejectium out

15 june 2003

0231 hrs gmt +8

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