Love, Me Collin
Raye
--lyrics begin--
I read a note my grandma wrote, back in 1923
my grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed
it once to me
he said “boy you might not understand
but a long long time ago
granny’s daddy didn’t like me none
but I loved your grandma so
we had this crazy plan to meet
and run away together
get married in the first town we came to
and live forever
but nailed to the tree where we were supposed
to meet instead
I found this letter, and here is what it said
if you get there before I do
don’t give up on me
I’ll meet you when my chores are through
I don’t know how long I’ll be
but I’m not gonna let you down
darlin’ wait and see
and between now and then, till I see you again
I’ll be lovin’ you,
Love, me
I read those words just hours before my grandma
passed away
in the doorway of the church granny and grandpa
start to pray
I know I’d never seen him cry in all my fifteen
years
but as he said these words to her, his eyes
filled up with tears
If you get there before I do
don’t give up on me
I’ll meet you when my chores are through
I don’t know how long I’ll be
but I’m not gonna let you down
darlin’ wait and see
and between now and then, till I see you again
I’ll be lovin’ you,
Love, me
--lyrics end—
simple, sweet and sad. great song this is.
suddenly I’ve become a collin raye fan overnight. and guess who introduced me
to his song? love, me… what a song for sweet couples this can be
just days after she got attached with him, I
found this song left in my pager voicemail. yes, pager. and know why I keep it?
cos she doesn’t have a handphone to sms me with. and she’s the only one who
pages me now.
listened to it, found that it was a very very
nice song… was trying to find the title of the song, the singer, etc,
unsuccessful for a few weeks… till one day I found one of my platoon mates
playing that on his cd… and another too. immediately I dashed over like crazy…
and what’s the title? Love, me.
the familiar helplessness swept over me again…
what is she trying to do? trying to be funny? exam stress getting to her head?
maybe I read too much into song titles… tried to dismiss, but can’t help
feeling a bit happy, yet knowing this happiness is futile…
two weeks ago I received another song… some
Chinese love song… same feeling. two days after that was “this I promise you”.
same feeling… but the last song had me thinking…… is she trying to be funny?
the day after that she paged me. called my
handphone when I didn’t respond.
“can you give me tuition?”
???
obviously I said yes. maybe there’s something
not going right between the two of them and she’s trying to use me to spite
him?
evil thought. no, she’s not so bad as to do that. even if she were, I would
perhaps have willingly been used, stupid as I were. maybe it’s just the harnessing
of my talents (yeah right). maybe just an innocent plea. let’s leave it at
that.
but tuition at my home? what would people say
about her if they knew? if they don’t know the exact happenings? her friends
live near my home… and would people say I’m trying to break them up? I don’t
know, I really don’t know.
I’ll just wait till I see her this weekend.
after my field camp. 4 back-to-back missions lasting 12 hours each. without
rest in between. lotsa fighting and running in full combat gear. perhaps we’re
gearing for war. what’s terrible will be the ban of handphones and any other
means of contact for four days. but at least there’s something to look forward
to this weekend.
seeing her
with mixed feelings
dejectium out
17 sept 2001
1210 hrs GMT
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