funny how colours and fonts tend to look happier when u
feel happier. somehow the depressed feeling is no
longer there. probably the worst I can feel is that of
confusion, and hesitation, not knowing when I should make my feelings known.
went out with her on thursday,
went bugis and had lunch, then tried in vain to look
for a friend’s present. lousy excuse, but I’m really
happy she agreed to go with me. a friend mentioned he
sees something happening between the two of us soon, from the look in her eyes…
I really hope he’s correct.
can say that my relationship with her is on a high now I guess.
contact made everyday. she
suggested me listening to a very nice song she heard, from the mask of zorro. went to look for it,
downloaded it, and yep it’s damn nice… it’s called I want to spend my lifetime
loving you, by marc anthony and tina
arena. hmmz… how I wish I could
tell her that… haha.
oh man… just read through what I just wrote… realised my
language has become really plain and simple, devoid of all the big euphemisms I’ve
been using through my other entries.
white musk is heavenly. even more
so on her. I guess I might just surprise her on monday with a bottle of it for her. really glad she managed to get the module we’re both taking
together. more time to spend with her, more time to
allow her to develop her feelings.
noticed her timetable, and realised that she had one free day
too – wednesday. same here. heh. hope
to be able to spend more time together.
read a forwarded email from my friends. think
I’ll cut and paste it here… think it’s sort of true really. perhaps
it can give you some insights?
Love is like a waiting bus.When the bus came, you looked at it, and said to yourself,"eeeee......so full....cannot sit down one."So you said to yourself," I'll wait for the next one."And you let the bus go and waited for the second one. Then the second bus came and you looked at it and said,"eeeee......so old.....sure very uncomfortable."So you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus. After a while, another bus came. It's not crowded nor old, but you said yourself," eeeee...... no air con and the weather so warm. It is better to wait for the next one."
The sky started to get dark as it is getting late. You panicked and jumped onto the next oncoming bus.It is not much later that you found out that you had boarded the wrong bus!So you wasted your money and time for what you want! Even if an air-con bus came, can you ensure that the air-con bus won't break down or will the air con be too cold for you? So people wants to make sure that what you want is not wrong. But it wouldn't hurt to give other a chance. If you found the bus doesnt't suit you, just press the bell and get off the bus.
But wait.... There are occasions when you saw the bus you want coming and you flagged for it, but the driver drove past pretending not to see you. Think over it, love is just like waiting for the bus, and many chances are depending on you yourself. you might have seen this before, but I guess it sounds quite true… well, all I hope is for her to board this bus that has been waiting for her for five years already.
hoping to be able to spend more time with her in the coming days, weeks, months, and years… hope she’s happy now. happily sleeping.
dejectium out