11.05 pm           anw ur email...

                        sounds particularly directed to me sia... ;-)

 

11.06 pm           wic one? letting go?

                        no lah... directed to xl oso...

 

11.07 pm           =p... "also"

                        she still not ok ah? i dun dare to ask liao....

 

11.08 pm           no lah... she's q ok....

                        aiyah... i mean no harm lah

 

11.08 pm           haha... dun worry i'm ok... else i won't be talking to u now =p

 

11.10 pm            glad u r fine... =)

 

 

guess that more or less symbolizes a return to normalcy for the two of us. some more stuff that I couldn’t get myself to tell her. that I wasn’t ready to face her yet before this. so even though I was online almost 24 hours a day, I was always invisible on icq. even when she made herself visible to me. wasn’t ready to see her around. wasn’t ready to talk to her. so much so that I shut down icq whenever I saw her online.

 

with this conversation (and the other parts preceding and after this part), I guess, set the tone back to normal. symbolized a lot of stuff. that we could return to the former state of affairs. guess this afternoon’s ecstatic sms informing me about her getting into her desired course played a huge part. managed to get myself to resolve that knot, and satisfy myself that, hey, she’s the one who contacted me first.

 

much happy stuff happened today. more-than-satisfactory results, meeting up with my roommate after a long while, and now this. cool. think this day should be given a rating of 11/10. heh.

 

but spent quite a lot of time consoling friends on the net after they got their results. turned out quite a few of them didn’t get what they desired. couldn’t bring myself to tell them how I did, so I just told them I was satisfied. in a way hard to show my ecstasy without sounding arrogant or not being able to empathize. but guess my screams and shouts in the afternoon alone at home was enough for me to express my elation. still, though, hope my friends would be able to get over this quickly and resume their lives.

 

 

dejectium out

29 may 2003

0539 hrs gmt +8

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