saturday night met up with some
old secondary school classmates for a birthday barbeque. I must say that it was
a really enjoyable, albeit short meet up after such a long time in which I
haven’t seen them. the humour
was pathetic at times, but it was nevertheless funny, and of course brought
back strong nostalgic feelings. on the way back, I was
thinking about my different groups of friends. the
type of humour my classmates appreciate (and I too, tremendously)
would doubtlessly be looked down upon as corny and lame by the band group. and the humour of the band group
would be viewed as cutting and sarcastic by the others. just
a weird thought that came to mind…
but as it turns out, I feel much more at ease and relaxed with
the class soccer guys. don’t know why, guess it’s a
hard to explain thing. spent much more time with them in secondary school,
spending almost four full years playing soccer on the (lousy) school field into
the twilight, stinking bus number 30 to high heaven, dashing out to pick up
balls booted wayyy above the fence, heck, even
guzzling down huge amounts of water from the canteen water cooler, those are
memories that fade, but are never erased from the memory.
then the other group, spent much more time with them through
the jc and post-jc periods,
from band stuff to weekend book-out hang-arounds to
playing warcraft. perhaps
it’s a subconscious avoidance mechanism because this group reminds me of
something I’m trying to forget now? I don’t know… but I strangely haven’t hung
around with this group for over three weeks already. perhaps
it’s because the lan shop’s patched warcraft’s facing lots of problems, perhaps I’m involved in
too many bands. heh. reminds me of that song… perhaps, perhaps, perhaps…
and now it turns out that the secondary school group’s much
more involved in warcraft, whereas the band group has
switched to mmorpg priston tale, which I too tried for a while. but as all mmorpgs go, I got bored
after doing the same levelling (ie
killing) day in, day out. preferred the
perennially-evolving strategies available by playing online warcraft
with people all over the globe. adding to that, the
expansion’s coming out in a week, so really looking forward to it.
realised this blog’s starting to reflect really mundane stuff, that’s
perhaps not really interesting any of these readers… I have not much of an idea
what to write about for now. the itch to go into
novella has worn off, but I’m still very much into singaporean
literature. so perhaps one day I’ll get inspired to
write some sad story again. but right now it’s mental
block, so I have no choice but to copy wholesale some lyrics that I appreciate
a lot again…
p/s: ooh… zhiwei, read your blog. are you ok already? think you need some rest, such a hectic run-around lifestly can’t be sustained forever. better
see a doctor if that happens again k? take care….
Sometimes love just ain’t enough
Original
by Vonda Shephard
Cover by Stefanie Sun (Start Album)
I don’t wanna lose you
I don’t wanna use you
Just to have somebody
by my side
And I don’t wanna hate you
I don’t wanna take you
But I don’t wanna be the one to cry
That don’t really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep
losing my place
And I keep seeing you
walk through that door
But there’s a danger in
loving somebody too much
And it’s sad when you
know it’s your heart you can’t trust
There’s a reason why
people don’t stay where they are
Baby sometimes love
just ain’t enough
Now I could never
change you
I don’t wanna blame you
Baby you don’t have to
take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just want to
have it all
It makes a sound like
thunder
It makes me feel like
rain
And like a fool who
will never see the truth
I keep thinking
something’s gonna change
But there’s a danger in
loving somebody too much
And it’s sad when you
know it’s your heart you can’t trust
There’s a reason why
people don’t stay where they are
Baby sometimes love
just ain’t enough
And there’s no way home
When it’s late at night and you’re all alone
Are there things that
you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside
you in your bed
There beside you where
I used to lay
And there’s a danger in
loving somebody too much
And it’s sad when you
know it’s your heart they can’t touch
There’s a reason why
people don’t stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes
love just ain’t enough
Baby sometimes love just ain’t enough.
dejectium out
0223 hrs gmt +8