yes this is indeed
a recession to the dark black of yesterday. but I guess
more reflective of current mood this instant, than of my general wellbeing =p
cryptic, but I like it that way heh.
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a quiet new year –
had a starkly
contrasting turn of the year, sharply distinct from the merrymaking of the
previous few years. not the first time that I’ve spend
away from my close circle of friends, but certainly the first time I spent it
in the solitude of my own room, with only the laptop for company, while soft
jazz hummed gently in the background, all a blur. no
new year messages sent out, save one, bothering only to reply politely the
greetings received, which weren’t forthcoming anyway – blame message lag. so while the rest of the world partied the night away, I spent
the early part of the evening giving tuition, and the rest of the evening
moping around getting my plans junked. perhaps it
would have been better if I’d slept through the entire thing; at least I’d have
woken up refreshed the next day.
early new year’s day
morning for once; I’ve spent the past few new year mornings just about getting
to sleep having just about gotten home. this time
round I find myself making my way to one of the most obscure corners of the
island. the lush green fields next to the station, dew
hanging heavily, told me that it would be a nice refreshing walk out of the
station. how farther from the truth could it have
been! the air hung still, the heat was stifling
despite there being no brilliant sun. the drizzling
rain only served to thicken the air with an asphyxiating wetness. thank goodness the shuttle bus trip was short; thank
goodness I had my trusty mobile beeping constantly with messages to keep me
company.
we reach, and I find
myself a nice lonely spot to think – and write. facing
the marina, the light breeze takes some time to be felt – after I’ve cooled
down enough. no more stifling heat, I’m far away from
the industrial heat of the city and residential areas, as far as ‘far’ can be
used in our country’s context. no more hanging
humidity, the steady patter of rain mixed with the slosh of the waves and the
deep whirring of engines. ship engines. this is the beginning of my new year, a quiet and peaceful
beginning.
happy new year, dejectium.
dejectium out
0925hrs gmt +8