Hide Away

Author: Ashley McCubbin

Characters: Jeff Gordon/Dale Earnhardt Jr.

POV: Jeff Gordon

Series: Super G & Junebug

Rating: PG

Song: Hide Away by Hilary Duff

I sit alone in the dark pondering thoughts well I could be helping Dale with Karsyn & Kennedy. Yet only one thought dominates my mind. Is he cheating on me with Martin? And if so, y didn't he just admit it? He'd understand that cheating on me is worse then telling me straight up due to Brooke. But anyways, maybe I should end it all due to my second thoughts. If I can't clearly trust him then how can I dare be with him? I know - because I want to be able to love and care for him just like we have till now. Till the time Kelley got killed & Martin went into depression thanks to Sherry. Well here goes nothing.

"What are you doing?" He asks as he walks in the bedsroom watching me pack my bags.

"Packing." I answer quietly. I didn't want him to notice till the note.

"Why?" I looked at him in the eyes. If I say a word all will be broken and that is not my objective.

"I'm leaving because I can't fully trust you. I'm sorry." I walk by him holding my tears back. This is so not my day.

"Jeff." I keep walking despite his calls. I can't just say it or turn around.

I get to the door when I realize maybe I'm making a mistake. Maybe I'm purely over reacting. I look back at Dale and see his tears.

"Jeff, just trust me and forget about those second thoughts," he begs. "I love you so much Jeff."

"I can't and I'm sorry." is all I can say. I know that convicing myself but that is impossible at this point. "Goodbye girls." Karsyn and Kennedy look up at me. Too bad they don't understand.

"Bye Jeff." They say. I then leave shutting the door behind me. The tears now begin to fall as it is all over at this point. There is no turning back now.

Why didn't he just admit he had sex with Martin? I mean, Kevin knows what happened. Why does he have to hide it away? I want these things not to be true due to our love and friendship. But I guess that is not impossible. But as I think one thought, I don't want him to hide away.

"Dale, call me," I start. "I know what happened with Martin. Maybe I will forgive you if you tell me what happened." I hang up and look out the window. Maybe, just maybe it'll work out.

I don't know my destination or dream after our break-up. Yet one person comes to me: Jimmie Johnson. He lets me stay at his house for the night.

"Thank you," I say looking in his eyes.

"Your welcome." he replies. "See you in the morning." He walks away and I watch him. How'd I get so lucky?

When we were sitting together clariety was here but is lost when I got neither - Dale & Jimmie. Yet of course that was before this happened. Somehow I got to keep my faith and believe he'll call. If he truely loves me I know he'll call. I guess I got to trust him somehow then to call. Hopefully he will.

Maybe I'm truley losing my only true love. But maybe I'm okay wih this due to the chance I may have at Jimmie.

At Daytona, a month after it happened, I turn around just randomly and see him standing there. I try to look under the surface but can't. There is nothing to be seen. He starts to walk away. This can't happen to us.

"Don't run Dale," I beg making him turn to face me. "Don't hide from me. Tell me the truth." He walks closer to me. I hold my breath. What does he want?

"I did it with Martin but not on purpose," he begins. "You'll probably never forgive me." He begins to walk away. I need to make him believe.

"Maybe I will." He turns and I see a slight look of hope. "Maybe I will if you tell what happened." He walks over and sits on the tire near my leg. I turn to face him.

"He was full of pain due to love. I just felt so sorry and kept going to see him to convince him it'd be ok. One night he just kissed me and due to my sadness I fell for him. I swear I'd never do it again." I pull him into a hug as he cries. I'm just glad to have my baby back."

THE END