Unimportant Without You
Author: Ashley M.
Characters: Amanda Church
POV: Amanda
Series: Gordon's Love Life
Rating: PG
Song: Duck & Run by 3 Doors Down
Lyrics written by: Brad Arnold
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To the world I'm important just
because I have nothing to give
To this world surrounded by a number of people, I am unimportant just because I am not with you anymore. Everybody wanted to talk about me, Amanda Church, because I was the girlfriend of NASCAR superstar Jeff Gordon. They all talked about how I looked around you and if it was true love. Well in my heart it was. Money can't buy me love; I want someone who'll make me happy w/o just giving me the credit card.
That's why I looked to Jeff. Everyone said he was the one. Plus I liked his personalilty; he became my dream goddess. Everyone wondered if I was like Ms. Brooke Sealy. No way would I be like her. I am not out to be perfect or break a man's heart espically when so many look up to him.
But here I stand without my dream goddess. No longer do people talk about me, Amanda Church. Only every once in awhile will u hear the words 'Amanda Church, ex-girlfriend to Jeff Gordon'. Nobody remembers me. The only time people want to talk to me is to see if I have any secrets to tell. I'm sorry but that's not my game. I am not going to play the media game like Brooke did. Many look up to Jeff and I don't want to hurt them. It's enough feeling the hurt I have in my own heart. The pain is deep and far down. Only few could unbury it; those are people who don't want me either. All I am not is some person alone in a huge world.
This world can turn me down
But I won't turn away, oh no
I won't turn around
Everyone can turn me down. They can erase my existance and know who I am. None of that bugs me; I will not allow them to destroy me. I am much stronger then I look; nothing can bring me down. My spirits will always stay high to the sky. Little words of complaints and disses don't hurt me; I won't turn away. I will remain here letting them say those words to me; they can have thier fun but it doesn't effect me.
I must have told you a thousands
times I am not running away
Despite my desperate pleads, they continue to say those words but I have yet to run away. Never will they chase me away; I will remain here where I am. I am a strong individual who knows how to survive tough times. Nothing small chases me away; so y do they continue? Because they think I will back down but I will not. I am not running, even if I'm unimportant w/o you.
THE END
