Just that

By Tsmrhara

 

+ Warning!!! This is a super meaningless fics!!

 

 

He does not want to do it but he dare not disobey his lover. His heart was completely shattered by his lover. His lover was once a caring and loving person but thing changes now, harsh is the only word he can describe him.

 

“ Now suck!” Kaoru yell and pull Toshiya’s head to his erected manhood.

 

Toshiya follows what his lover had said. He hates to do this service but he knows that he had to obey Kaoru or he will be ended up beaten by him.

 

Kaoru grab Toshiya’s hair and pull him up against him. “ What are thinking about!” He yell and slap his lover across the face.

 

The older man pushes his lover onto the bed; spread Toshiya’s leg and thrust into him without warning. Each time he goes harder and harder ignoring his lover who is crying in pain.

 

“ Please, it’s painful… Kao.”

 

Another slap came from the older man; Toshiya was stunned and keeps quiet until his lover was done with it. He does not want to be beaten up again, his wound had not completely heal since the last time his lover had beat him up; it was just to painful to be forgotten, not the wound itself but Toshiya’s heart.

 

 

Toshiya wakes up after some time as he had lost consciousness earlier on due to the unbearable pain. He sits up from the bed moving slowly, he looked at the older man who was sleeping soundly; tears formed up around the corner of his eyes.

 

They asked me why I don’t leave him. I don’t know. They said I am ill-treating myself. I think so. I just can’t leave him. I love him more then loving myself. It’s the reason?

 

We are once the most loving couple among our friends. They envy us. They want to be like us. But it will be a history soon. It’s just too painful to leave you.

 

Toshiya sob quietly.

 

**

The phone rang, Kaoru stretch his hand to get it after he fail to ask his lover who was nowhere around to get it. He wonders where his lover had gone at this hour.

 

“ Moshi, moshi.”  He greet lazily.

 

His friend was on the other line sound argent. He does not understand what his friend is telling him but the only words that make him awake hit him through his mind.

 

Toshiya is being hit by a car.

 

What going on? Isn’t his lover sleeping right beside him just now? They had just make love; when had him gone out?

 

**

 

Die and Shinya was at the hospital when Kaoru arrive. They had been waiting for an hour since then. The nurses had been running in and out the room, more then five doctor was in the room but no one tells them how their friend was now.

 

“ What happened?” Kaoru asked while waiting.

 

“ He just ran out suddenly when the car drove by.”

 

Kaoru froze; doesn’t that mean that Toshiya was actually trying to kill himself?

 

“ He had called us earlier on asking us to meet him.” Shinya explain. “ It was rather rare you see so we meet him.”

 

“ But he keep on saying weird thing that make us uneasy when we meet.” Die continues. “ We thought that he is drunk and decide to sent him back.”

 

“ Yes. We were then walking along the roadside to get our car when he suddenly ran out of the road when he saw an incoming car.”

 

Kaoru looks at both of his friend. He knows why his lover does that. It is because of him, he had been treating him badly recently. Shinya know it too, so does Die but they did not blame him.

 

What if he dies?

 

**

 

The doctor came out of the room another hour later. He looks at the three of them; he shakes his head and apologizes to them.

 

“ Sorry, we have do our best but his injure was too serious.”

 

**

 

Kaoru stands in front of his lover’s tomb. One year had passed since the incident but he just could not forget about it. He regrets every single thing he had done to his lover that had cause his death but reproaching himself now does not make any sense.

 

Toshiya, I love you. My life now is just to live for you. 

 

**

 

“ Moshi, moshi.”

 

“ Kaoru, where are you now?” The person on the other line asks.

 

“ With Toshiya. Anyway, I’ll be right over soon.”

 

~

 

Shinya was waiting for Kaoru outside the conference room whereby Die was already in the room with Kyo. They were be meeting their new bassist today for their new band.

 

Kaoru had arrived shortly and the four of them waits for another half an hour before their manager came in with a person; a tall and beautiful person.

 

“ Nice to meet you! My name is Toshimasa Hara.”

 

Kaoru froze; Shinya and Die was stunned. This guy looks exactly like Toshiya!!

 

~

“ What should I call myself in short?” The new bassist asked. “ I can’t possibly call my full name.”

 

“ Toshiya!” Kaoru answer without second thought.

 

 

~ owari ~

 

 

 

Finish reading?? Anyone wants to kill me now? Let me tell u this, this fic is completely out of my thought. So I had warned anyone who wants to read it. The Kaoru’s lover Toshiya is actually suppose to be the real Toshiya but I just can’t kill Totchi! >_< SO>>>>>>>