By Tsmrhara
The echoes of the running footstep were getting louder and louder,
follow by a loud ‘BANG’ from the door and shrieking sound from people. The
other students who is staying at this hostel was already use to it.
This room was the most famous room in the student hostel. It is
well known by the ‘NOISE’ the room was giving out. Room 304!
“ Toshiya! Brother!” The two persons exclaim at the same time when
they bump into the room.
The person inside the room puts down the book he is reading,
taking down his glasses, he look at the direction towards the door where the
two people was standing. He narrowed his eyes making his eyebrow seem joining
together.
Putting on his spectacles again, he takes up his book. “ NO!” He
added before continuing reading his book.
The
two people pouted. “ Come on Toshiya, we have not even say what we wanted to
tell you.” The shorter guy said.
“ Ya brother, you should listen to what we wanted to tell you
first before you reject us and how you know you won’t like our idea?”
Toshiya puts down his book again, this time staring at the two
people. “ NO!”
“ Heh! Listen to us first, brother!” >__<
But before he could start his sentences, he was interrupt by his
brother. “ Can you tell me why are you here when you suppose to be attending
your extra class to make up for the test you had failed, Miyabi?”
Miyabi let out a nervous grin and looked at the shorter guy
seeking for help.
“ Don’t be so mean Toshiya, he should have some time to rest.”
Miyabi nod his head in agreement.
Toshiya starts to get impatient. “ What about you Kyo? Don’t you
need to works?
Kyo sweatdrop. (^^;) He could really know our schedule well don’t
him? Both Miyabi and Kyo thought and communicate with one another using their
eyes movement then both nodded with agreement.
“ Well, I’m applying leave, I’ve something more important now.”
Kyo explained.
Toshiya seem not interested in what Kyo’s going to tell him but he
was sure his brother and friend must be up to something that they must pled
from him, something that’s not good from his past experience.
“ Brother…do you still remember that song which you have composed
and had gone missing?” Miyabi asked.
Toshiya stared at his brother. “ You took it?”
Miyabi let out a silly expression and nod his head.
Toshiya return his brother a sweet smile. Miyabi starts turning pale.
Kyo starts rolling up his sleeve getting ready to hold back Toshiya before he
killed his own brother. They know Toshiya too well, if he smiles when he
supposed to be angry, something horrible will come up next.
“ Cool down! Cool down!” Kyo shriek.
Paused…
Paused…
Toshiya finally cool down and listened to what Kyo and his brother
going to tell him. Then again, he smiles at them.
They had take the song that Toshiya had composed to join in a
contest and it come up to be the winner. Now they will have a chance to meet
the famous pop star if Toshiya’s song is selected and to be used. It seem an
easy job by just letting the composer to meet the pop star but…
“ Brother, please go!”
“ NO!”
“ Please dear Totchi!” Kyo added. “ That’s our chance to meet Kaoru!”
“ NO!”
Miyabi and Kyo pleading had been completely decline by Toshiya!
The reason was because they had done something in the particular of Toshiya
when they submit the form.
“ Why must I DRESS UP like a WOMAN!?” Toshiya shrieked.
“ PLEASE!!”
“ NONONO!!” The echo of Toshiya yelling can be heard along the
corridor.
The day of meeting with the famous star Kaoru, Kyo and Miyabi
enter the record company with a wide smile on their face. Seem that their plan had
work on Toshiya; following behind them was a gorgeous woman dress in a sexy
tight leather clothing with light make-up but was enough to outstand any other
woman there.
“ Why must I do this!?” Toshiya muttered behind his brother and
Kyo.
“ You’re beautiful!” Kyo said follow by Miyabi. “ Kaoru will sure
use your song for his next single!”
Toshiya pouted.
Miyabi and Kyo were grinning like idiot.
“ That what Kaoru must be some kind of sex maniac!”
Miyabi and Kyo stared at Toshiya for insulting their idol but
dared not get mad at him.
“ Isn’t it truth!? Why must he only choose woman composer!”
Seem that what Toshiya had say does make sense. Miyabi and Kyo
slightly agreed with Toshiya but still they continue saying good remark of
their idol.
Few minutes later after they enter the conference room.
“ Good afternoon!”
A woman enters the room and greets the three of them who was in
the room. Behind the woman was a man with purple hair, wearing sunglasses. Miyabi
and Kyo’s eyes brighten up as soon as they see the man in purple hair. Toshiya
just glared at that man who seems so arrogant.
“ Kao…Kaoru!!” Miyabi and Kyo yelled. “ It’s really him!”
Happy tears were forming around Miyabi and Kyo’s eyes. It was the
first time they get to see their idol at such close distance. Toshiya sweatdrop
seeing the exaggerate reaction of his brother and Kyo. At this moment, Kaoru
takes down his sunglasses and stared at Toshiya.
“ You must be Toshiko!” Kaoru asked.
Toshiya glared at his brother and Kyo then return his sight to
Kaoru who was still waiting for his answer. “ Ya… yup I’m… Toshiko. Nice to
meet you.”
Miyabi and Kyo heart rested.
“ Nice to meet you, I’m Kaoru!”
That night when they returned to the hostel, the sound of throwing
chair, yelling, pleading can be heard from room 304.
The second time Toshiya gets to see Kaoru was on the day they were
discussing the new song that Toshiya had composed. The work went on smoothly,
Kaoru was friendly toward Toshiya and Toshiya opinion for Kaoru also improved.
The only thing that does not work well was that Kyo and Miyabi could not follow
Toshiya and was getting crazy.
The result of the song was good, it was sold over millions and
Toshiya had earned quite a sum of money from that. Toshiya in the other hand
had make clear to Kyo and Miyabi that this will be the first time but will also
be the last time.
“ Ohh… my photo with Kaoru…” Kyo muttering.
“ Kaoru Kaoru… Wah…” Miyabi follow Kyo.
Toshiya stare at them then walk out of the room leaving the two
mad man yelling and jumping inside the room.
“ Miyabi!”
“ Kyo!”
Both of them stop down and yell at each other name. Their eyes
contact and seem that they are up to something again. “ We will never give up
right!?” Both exclaim together.
Toshiya was still outside the room; he sigh while hearing what his
friend and brother was yelling. “ Well, as what I have guess, they will never
give up!”
Sweatdrop!!
AGAIN!!
“ PLEASE brother!”
“ Please Toshiya, I know you are always KIND!!”
“ NONONO!!!!!!” Toshiya yelled.
And there Toshiya was standing in front of the record company
dressing up like a woman, follow behind him was Kyo and Miyabi grinning for the
success plan they did for getting Toshiya to compose song for Kaoru again.
Toshiya enter the company unwillingly, Kyo and Miyabi smiling all
the way. Then horror strike Kyo and Miyabi!
“ Please would you two stop here and wait for Miss Toshiko in another
room.” The lady said to Kyo and Miyabi.
/ NO!!!/ Miyabi and Kyo was holding their head and are yelling
voicelessly! That mean after they put in so much effort to get Toshiya agree to
compose again but this time they don’t even have the chance to see their idol.
Miyabi and Kyo follow unwillingly after the lady and enter a room.
Toshiya suddenly felt like laughing at them but he remain silent.
Toshiya follow another lady to the room at the end.
“ Nice to see you again, Miss Toshiko.” The person greet as soon
as Toshiya enter the room.
“ Good afternoon!” Toshiya greet back to Kaoru.
The lady who brings Toshiya to the room leave the room, feeling
wired.
“ So how’s Kaoru’s reaction?” The other office ladies gather
around that lady and asked.
“ He was smiling at Miss Toshiko.”
“ WHAT!?” All of them yelled.
“ Wah… so unfair, he never smile to anyone one of us but now he’s
smiling at Miss Toshiko!!!” One of them cried.
“ How could Kaoru….”
Few hours later, Kaoru and Toshiya walks out of the room still
taking about the song. Toshiya eventually notice almost all the peoples in the
company was staring at him especially the ladies. Some even glared at Toshiya…
“ What’s going on??” Toshiya wonder.
“ Hmm… what you said?” Kaoru asked when he heard Toshiya
muttering.
“ No…” Toshiya notice again, this time the expression of the
ladies change to a friendly look when Kaoru look at them. “ Nothing!!” He
continues knowing what is going on finally.
They are just jealous about me… suddenly an evil idea reach
Toshiya’s mind, he gives a grin.
“ So how about changing this part…” Toshiya said suddenly and
clutch his hand onto Kaoru’s who let Toshiya do so.
“ MOU… !!! >__<” The reaction of the office ladies.
Toshiya… Grin! Grin! ^__^
They enter the lift and went downstairs. Leaving all those staring
and cursing behind the close door!
“ How about having dinner together?” Kaoru asked when they are in
the lift.
“ Sure but does it matter with another two monkey around?”
“ What monkey?”
Toshiya was referring to Miyabi and Kyo who was waiting for him in
the waiting room downstairs. Actually Toshiya wanted to leave them behind and
enjoy his dinner with Kaoru so later he can tease them but he give up the thought
knowing that they would try whatever they can to see Kaoru again. Thinking of
it, Toshiya give up the idea, he know he would be involve if they would to do
so.
“ What taking Toshiya so long?” Kyo was getting impatient and was
jumping around the room.
“ Kyo! Stop it! You look like a monkey!” Miyabi comment.
“ Yeah! I look like a monkey huh!?” Kyo sulk. “ I think you look
even more like one, one that is eating banana!”
Kyo referring to Miyabi who had almost finish the whole bunch of bananas
on the table.
“ WHAT!!!” >__<
Toshiya heard noise coming out of the room, he open it knowing
whose the owner of those voice. Inside the room was a mess, Miyabi was throwing
fruits at Kyo and Kyo was picking the fruits up throwing it back to Miyabi.
Toshiya narrow his eyes, standing at the door staring at his friend and brother
until Kaoru speak up.
“ What taking you so long?” Kaoru asked walking behind of Toshiya.
“ What the hell going on???” ^^;
“ KAORU??” Miyabi and Kyo stop their battle, now their eyes
burning with fire of joy.
“ Kaoru-san… let’s forget what I have ask earlier on, we better
have dinner ourselves.” Toshiya pulled Kaoru with him.
Miyabi look at Kyo, Kyo staring back to
Miyabi. Both figuring what Toshiya was talking about before they realize what
going on but there’s already no shadow of Kaoru and Toshiya.
“ WAH!!! DINNER WITH KAORU… TOSHIYA PLEASE WAIT!!!” Kyo and Miyabi
exclaimed. ;;__;;
Room 304.
Second song composes by Toshiya, again sold over millions. No reaction
from Toshiya only that he receives another sums of money. Wish he didn’t have
to do it again! Miyabi and Kyo… WE WANT TO SEE KAORU AGAIN!!
“ Toshiya Please!!”
“ NONONO!!”
Third song… everything turns up the same.
“ Totchi PLEASE!!”
“ NONONO!!!”
Fourth time…
Fifth time…
Until Toshiya starts making a name for himself in composing but
Miyabi and Kyo never have the chance to get closer to their idol.
So it goes on…
This day, Toshiya did not go to the record company to see Kaoru
instead he was asked by Kaoru to go to his house. It seems so used to as they
had known each other for about a year. Toshiya and Kaoru had become friend…
Toshiya was busy preparing for his exam, it was almost a month later
when he goes to Kaoru’s apartment. He press the bell, 3 mins later the door was
open, Kaoru was looking sleepy but his eyes brighten up when he saw Toshiya and
remember he was meeting ‘her’ today.
“ Good Morning!” Toshiya greet. “ I’ve brought you breakfast!”
Inside the apartment was definitely a mess. Clothes, empty cans,
litters, eaten instant noodles cup was laying everywhere around the house.
Toshiya felt his head getting giddy…
Kaoru let out a silly grin, stretching his head.
The house was totally different from the very first time Toshiya
had visit. The main reason was that there is always different women helping him
to clear up the mess but don’t know since when, Kaoru had all those woman
rejected because he know Toshiya will keep it for him, might as well said that
he wants only Toshiya to do it.
“ You should never let other woman to see this situation in your
house or it will break your image!” Toshiya said jokingly.
“ Then you will be the only woman…”
Kaoru was glancing at Toshiya with serious expression.
Silent…
It was brought over by Toshiya with his quick-witted joke…
Kaoru was serious…
The first time Toshiya realize how serious the matter had become…
also the first time he realize what is in his heart, why he willingly helping
Kaoru, why someone so stubborn like him would listen to his brother and Kyo
plead… everything seem so sudden but too late.
Room 304. The very first time it was so quiet with Kyo and Miyabi
around. They know Toshiya was unhappy, they did not dare to poke him neither
did they know why. Quietly, they left the room…
Toshiya was sitting at his bed ‘reading’ his book. He mind was recalling
what had happened in the past year, from the time he meet Kaoru until now. He
did not mind Kaoru knowing that he is a man if this would to happen before he
and Kaoru become friend but now…
Is this really what bothering Toshiya? Losing
a friend? Toshiya laugh, this two question he knows the answer well. Someone
like him would not mind losing a friend or two and that is what bothering
Toshiya…
Is it because Kaoru is more then a friend to
me?
Since Toshiya left just now, Kaoru was sitting
at the balcony thinking of Toshiya’s reaction when he mention about Toshiya
becoming his only woman. Kaoru was surprise when he first realize he had fallen
in love with a woman. It was his first time he really fall in love with a
woman. At first he was attracted by Toshiya’s appearance but later when they
get to know each other better, he was attract by Toshiya’s characteristic.
Toshiya was unlike other woman who only loves
Kaoru for his fame. Toshiya was the very first one who had been with him for so
long but only wants to be a friend of him. Maybe this is the main reason why
Toshiya attract Kaoru.
I will never let you go… never let someone I
love to leave me… Toshiko
2 months later.
Room 304.
Toshiya was busy packing his stuff. He will be
graduated in a month time and would have to move out of the hostel. Maybe it
was time for him to give up the job of composing, as he will be a working adult
soon. It be time for him to give up his childish act… that mean giving up
someone that had taken his heart…
They never contact since that time… Kaoru had
went oversea. He did call back but Toshiya refused to answer.
His handphone ring…
“ Hello?”
“ Miss Toshiko?” The person asked.
“ Hai!” Toshiya answer, knowing that the call
was from the record company.
That night, Toshiya was trying to compose the
last song he had promise the company but he could not write any. He was feeling
frustrated. Again he tears the paper and throws it aside. Papers were all
around the floor, Toshiya was laying in between the mess.
>Flashback<
Toshiya see Kaoru in the afternoon. Kaoru had
use the record company to call Toshiya asking him to go there. When he arrival,
he was brought to the room where Kaoru is in.
“ Toshiko.” He was greet by Kaoru immediately
he enter the room.
Kaoru was inside the room holding a bunch of
flower in his hand looking deeply at Toshiya.
“ What are you doing here?” Toshiya asked
anxiously.
“ Because you rejected my call…every time I
call you did not answer.”
Paused.
Toshiya wanted to leave the room but Kaoru
pulled him back. “ Wait!”
“ What do you want?” Toshiya exclaim.
“ I should be the one asking you!” Kaoru said
without letting go of Toshiya. “ Why are you avoiding me suddenly?”
The question had mute Toshiya.
“ I love you.” Kaoru said suddenly. “ I know
you could feel it!”
Toshiya laugh suddenly. Kaoru had said out the
thing that he had been trying to avoid.
I love you too I love you but I can’t!!! I’m a
man!
“ Toshiko?”
Half an hour later, the two of them was
sitting facing each other. Toshiya had reject Kaoru without telling him the
real reason. The only thing he tell Kaoru was that he hope that they were be
friend forever but they will never be lover…
The first time Kaoru eyes redden, he was
trying hard to stop his tear from dripping down… he know Toshiya mean what he
had said.
“ Sorry…” The last word Toshiya said before
leaving.
>End of flashback<
Another piece of paper was tear off the pad. Toshiya
remember the look on Kaoru’s face when he rejected him, he remember the
question that Kaoru keeps on asking… why Toshiko? Why don’t you accept my love?
Why… why… why…
He could not think of any song now. His heart
is not here… how could he compose anything now? Without love what can I write?
Toshiya finally moved to a rent apartment. He
had graduated from the university, few days later he will be working in a
trading company and that will start his new life. The only thing that is
connecting him to Kaoru was that he had not finish the composing.
From that day when he rejected Kaoru, he had
not see him. The only thing he know about him was the news and magazine
reporting him playing around with few singers and actors. He had been fooling
around…
Many time Toshiya keeps telling himself that
had nothing to do with him but still the news was hurting Toshiya like hell. He
know he had hurt Kaoru… he know the pain in Kaoru because…
I have the same feeling as you.
Christmas day. The first time Toshiya see
Kaoru appearing on television after so long.
I never thought just by seeing you on
television will hurt me…
Miyabi and Kyo were enjoying their idol singing. Toshiya was
sitting behind…
“ Brother?”
Miyabi happened to turn back and see Toshiya weeping. He was shock
so do Kyo as they never see Toshiya cry especially when there is someone
around. “ I love him…” Toshiya muttered.
Although it was soft but both Kyo and Miyabi hear it. Actually
they had feel it and it was partly their fault to bring Kaoru and Toshiya
together. Now that they had hurt Toshiya…
That night, after telling his brother and Kyo, he abruptly had the
inspiration for composing the last song for Kaoru. He finishes it within three
hours and name the song – Forbidden Love. It is a song that reflects Toshiya’s
heart.
A few weeks after the single ‘Forbidden love’ was release, Toshiya
receive a ticket to the concert of Kaoru.
The day of the concert, the fans were shouting madly waving their
hands and yelling at Kaoru’s name. All these were not in Kaoru’s eyes, all he
care is to see Toshiya, he knows Toshiya has the ticket, he was the one who
sent the ticket.
Half of the concert had passed; there is still no sight of
Toshiya.
One song after one, the concert was ending
soon. Kaoru’s heart faded… then he saw what he is looking for during the whole
concert. Someone standing in the front middle of the crowds, someone wearing a
pair of jean and a simple t-shirt showing his flat chest, without make-up and
absolutely like a man.
That person saw Kaoru staring at him, he smile to him then he walk
out of the crowds.
Finally Kaoru know the reason why Toshiko did not accept his love.
During the last song, Kaoru sing Forbidden love, now he totally
understands the feeling of this song.
Toshiya walks out of the hall, there were tears in his eyes,
everything end now. Kaoru know he’s a man and…
“ a woman manic like him won’t look for me anymore… hahaha”
Toshiya talk to himself, laughing.
>Owari<
Author Note: Thanks for reading this Fic… ^__^ Please give me some
feedback or at least know someone reading it!! (TSMR hears someone shouting
behind…)
VanillaMint: Heh! You promised me a Kaoru x Toshiya story but this
is not a happy ending!! Glared!!
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Ding Dong…
Toshiya opened the door and saw Kaoru standing outside his
apartment. Kaoru was sweating, seem that he had been rushing. Follow by was
voice from Miyabi and Kyo asking who’s outside.
“ It Kaoru!” Kaoru shouted outside the apartment.
Within second, Miyabi and Kyo was standing in front of Kaoru
staring with watery eyes at their idol. “ I’m free one day just for you two,
the term is that leave me alone with Toshiko now.”
“ SURE!!” Miyabi and Kyo answer directly and vanish.
Kaoru enter the apartment
after Toshiya. “ What you doing here?” Toshiya asked when they enter.
“ Looking for you!”
“ For what?”
“ To know you all over again!” Kaoru replied.
Toshiya sweatdrop. Kaoru already know that he is a man and why did
he want to know him all over again now? Moreover, this Kaoru look cheeky here
but at the same time, this Kaoru makes Toshiya heartbeats faster.
Toshiya look at Kaoru and he give up. “ My name is Toshiya Hara,
I’m a male and the rest is the same!” Toshiya reply unwillingly.
Kaoru hold Toshiya’s hand suddenly after Toshiya introduce
himself. This time the cheeky look disappear, replacing it was a serious look.
Toshiya felt himself blushing. “ Since only your name and sex was the only
thing that changes, I assume all other is the same in you including your love
for me?”
“ What make you think I’m in love with you!?” Toshiya said trying
to hind his crimson face.
“ Really? You don’t love me?”
Kaoru attack Toshiya lips suddenly. He kisses Toshiya, embracing
Toshiya tighter. That is the person he had been longing for so long and now
Toshiya will be his. Just as he was happily thinking of it, Toshiya pushed him
away.
“ I’m a man!” Toshiya making himself clear to Kaoru.
Kaoru felt relaxed as he thought Toshiya was rejecting him again.
He gives a grin and push Toshiya onto the sofa whispering to Toshiya before he
starts his invasion to Toshiya again. “ I also a man…”
Both of them melted in their passion kisses. The longing for one
another, and now everything had a start again. “ I love you!”
Miyabi and Kyo was standing downstairs of Toshiya’s apartment.
They were now freezing cold but was still bouncing happily around. “ Yeah, one
day tour with Kaoru!” Miyabi exclaim.
“ No, it should be staying at his apartment for the whole knowing
his everything!” Kyo argue.
“ No… it should be…”
“ NO! It should be...”
^__^;;
Back upstairs at Toshiya’s apartment.
They were both naked now, Kaoru was busy exploring his now lover’s
beautiful body but seem that Toshiya was more interested in knowing why Kaoru
still love him when he know that Toshiya is a man.
“ Why Kaoru?”
Kaoru wanted to enter into Toshiya but Toshiya just keep on
asking. “ Because my first lover was also a man.” Kaoru answer impatiently
hoping that this answer will satisfy his lover but…
“ HUH!!! >__< Don’t touch me!”
“ Toshiya!!??” >__^;;” Kaoru’s manhood was now in full length.
Toshiya pouted.
“ Toshiya!?”
Seem like Kaoru would have hard time to go again with this
stubborn lover!! ^__^
24/03/2002