Shinya face was burning.
Die slaps me! He slaps me?
Die
look at the frighten drummer, realizing what he had just done to the man. He
wanted to comfort Shinya, wanted to apologize to him but just as he wanted to
stretch out his hand to touch the drummer, Shinya moved away, looking scared.
“
Shinya I’m sorry…” Shinya moved away again when Die wanted to touch him. “
Shinya…”
Shinya was keeping his head down. “ Go away…” Shinya muttered
softly, afraid that Die might hit him again. “ Leave me alone.”
Die rubs his forehead, stand up and left the room, slamming the
door hard behind him. Leaving the crying drummer in the room.
Shinya was shaking somehow; he did not expect Die to slap him. “
Did I do something wrong again? What have I say just now?” Shinya muttered to
himself. “ Die was angry, I’ve make him angry?” Shinya slowly stands up and
walks to the drawer, opening it and took out his medicine. “ I must have
forgotten to eat medicine, I’ losing control again?” Shinya pour all his
medicine into his mouth.
Die just walk out of the kitchen with a can of beer in his hand
when he heard thing breaking inside the room. Afraid something might happen to
the drummer, he storm into the room and see the drummer holding onto his
throat, seem to be choke.
“ What have you eaten?” Die exclaimed and hit on the drummer back,
hoping Shinya would throw out the thing choke in his throat. “ Spilt it out…”
Shinya slowly throw out the medicine he had swallowed. “ I must
eat the medicine… I’m losing control, I’m making you angry.” Shinya speak
softly when he manages to talk. “ I must eat it.” Shinya was squatting on the
floor picking the medicine up.
“ Shinya don’t…” Die pulled the man up and hugs him tightly. “ I’m
sorry… I’m not angry with you.”
Die curse himself for what he had done to his lover. He was
feeling miserable now… remembering he had causes all this and about Toshiya,
which he had just know from Kaoru the bassist was still bother by their pass
relationship.
“ Shinya I’m really sorry… for everything.”
“ Die you’re not angry with me?”
“ No… really.”
“ Really?”
Shinya smiled, hugging his lover. Die stroke his lover hair, thinking
maybe the drummer condition is getting worse? Shinya was crying at one moment
and smiling as if nothing had happened the very next moment. Die was starting
to get worried.
The next morning, Kyo was awake ‘early’ though it already late. Kaoru
had just hanged up the phone, was shrieking from the other side of the phone at
Kyo for being late and asking about Toshiya wondering why the two had not go
for practices.
Kyo hanged up the phone and walks to Toshiya room, wanted to wake
the bassist when he heard sound of breaking glass inside the room. Worried, Kyo
storm into the room without knocking.
“ What happened?” Kyo exclaimed. “ Toshiya…”
Broken glasses were shattered around the floor and Toshiya was
standing in front of the broken mirror. Kyo look at his friend, his heart was
beating fast, the first time he felt frighten about his bandmate. Toshiya was
looking aimlessly at the broken mirror.
“ Toshiya… what happened… are you alright?” Kyo asked worried,
wondering should he call Kaoru to come over.
Toshiya did not move nor say a thing.
“ Toshiya…?”
Kyo was being alert looking at Toshiya, prepare for anything that
would happen the next moment. Slowly, Toshiya turn around and look at Kyo. Kyo
froze, could not even utter a word.
“ Kyo what happened to my face?” Toshiya asked with shaking voice.
Kyo stare at Toshiya face not knowing what to say. The cut was
indeed bad, the wound was bleeding; properly Toshiya had scratched it earlier
on. Toshiya must been scare by his own look and had broke the mirror, Kyo
guessed.
“ Will this wound disappear Kyo?” Toshiya asked again.
“ Come here.” Kyo walk toward the bassist and pulled him out of
the room. “ Sit down here.” Kyo order and Toshiya obeying listen to the man.
Kyo come back with some new cotton and lotion that the doctor had
gave to Toshiya. Kyo carefully apply the lotion and medicine on the bassist
face and cover it up with the new cotton.
“ Don’t pulled it off again, be careful.” Kyo said seriously. “
Aright, get change now, we’re late for practice.” Kyo continue, wanted to get
the bassist out of the house so that Toshiya would not have so much time to
think of his wound.
Kyo was worried. The cut on Toshiya face was not very good. Will it
leave a scar? Toshiya weren’t acting normal just now too… thing would be awful
if… Kyo sighed.
Kyo and Toshiya finally arrival in the studio an hour later and
practice immediately start without a question being ask. Kyo seem to be the
only person who is really practicing. All the others were totally bother by
their personal affair.
During the break time, Die and Kaoru was talking about Shinya
condition which both are concern of. Die had just brought Shinya to check up
this morning.
“ You mean he swallowed all his medicine?” Kaoru was shocked when
Die told him. “ What the doctor had said?”
“ Shinya mental condition was getting slightly more serious. Maybe
after what happened yesterday, I shouldn’t have slapped him.” Die frown.
“ He still need his medicine everyday and we should not excite him
too much…” Kaoru was thinking what he should do to help his bandmate. “ Maybe
except for practices, we don’t let him see Toshiya too often?”
“ Kaoru… it’s not possible. We’re a band…”
Die and Kaoru was thinking, considering what is the better way to
help Shinya when Kyo approaches them and tell them what happened to Toshiya
earlier on at home.
“ He WHAT!?” Kaoru exclaimed, nowadays his bandmate really giving
him heart attack.
Die nearly jumps down the building, cursing. “ Everything was all because of me. What can
I do to make up for all this?” Die muttered, squatting onto the floor.
Kyo sighed.
Kaoru rubs his forehead.
The band is ruining…
“ Maybe I should have a talk with Toshiya…” Die said suddenly.
“ What can it help?” Kaoru seem to disagree. “ What do you want to
tell him?”
“ I must at least apologize for hurting him…”
“ Just let him do so.” Kyo approve to Die. “ You know Toshiya somehow
quite listen to what Die said.”
Kaoru was slightly jealous on what Kyo had said, wondering why
should Toshiya listen to what Die say, because they were lover huh? Kaoru
sulked.
Toshiya sit dazing on his bed. Kyo had clear up the glasses on the
floor and had give a stupid excuse to let Toshiya keep his door open in case
anything happened. Toshiya understand what Kyo was trying to do, just obey and
keep his door open.
Few minutes later, Kyo walks pass the bassist room again. The
vocalist had been doing so every few minutes and it was really irritating
Toshiya.
“ Kyo!” Toshiya called this time. “ Come in, won’t you?”
Kyo grin and walk into the room, taking a sit beside Toshiya. “
Are you alright?” He asks concern.
“ I must have scared you this morning huh?” Toshiya asked. “ Don’t
worry, I was just kind of scare by the wound that make me lose my sense. I’m
alright now.”
Kyo believed. The bassist was talking as usual now. “ Don’t worry,
it will heal but make sure you don’t scratch it again.” Kyo warned.
“ I know…”
They kept quiet.
“ What happened to you and Kaoru?” Kyo asked out of the sudden. “
Quarrel?”
Toshiya shake his head. “ Worse than that, only lover quarrel
isn’t it?” Toshiya give a giggle.
Kyo let Toshiya rest his head on his lap and Toshiya starts
telling Kyo about his problem with Kaoru. “ I didn’t know what should I do.”
Toshiya asked after he ended.
“ It’s obvious that you love him, just give him a chance to make
up for what he had done.” Kyo gave his thought. “ Why make life miserable for
Kaoru and yourself?”
“ But I’m…”
“ Give him a chance Toshiya, I’m sure you two will be happy
together. Kaoru love you.”
Toshiya did not speak again, his mind was starting to accept what
Kyo had say, maybe he should make himself less miserable, maybe he should
accept Kaoru… he can’t just let Die bothering him forever. Die had Shinya now
and Kaoru was waiting for him… Kaoru love me…
“ Should I huh?” Toshiya asked suddenly but no reply came from the
man.
Kyo was already fast asleep. Toshiya smiled, looking at Kyo.
Thinking back, Kyo was always with him whenever he had problem, Kyo cares a lot
for him. Toshiya stands up and lightly put Kyo to sleep on his bed. He places
the blanket around the sleeping man. “ If it was you that I’m in love with…”
Toshiya muttered to himself and laugh, thinking about he and Kyo as lover.
“ Goodnight.” Toshiya whispered and place a kiss on Kyo forehead.
Part
20
The
practices ended earlier as Toshiya would be going to the clinic to remove and
have a little check up on his face. Toshiya and Kaoru had not been talking to
one another since that day where Toshiya rejected Kaoru, or might as well said
it was Toshiya who was avoiding the guitarist.
“ Kaoru.” Toshiya called, as he approaches the older man as soon
as the practice end.
Kaoru nearly drop his guitar, was overjoyed by hearing his name
being called by the bassist. He don’t even mind if Toshiya going to punch him
hard on the face after he reply.
“ Yes?” Kaoru answered, trying to be calm.
“ Can you accompany me to the clinic, later?” Toshiya asked with a
little blushed on his face.
Kaoru thought he had heard the wrong thing. Did I hear wrongly,
Toshiya asking me to accompany him? Kaoru nearly jumped up, his heart almost
pop out from his body. “ Of… of… of course, I’m free… no I mean I’m willing… no
I… go with you.” Kaoru was overjoyed.
Kyo giggled. Toshiya finally take his advised. This is a good
chance to ask Kaoru to accompany him huh… Kyo was laughing to himself. Knowing
that these two days, Toshiya was trying to find a way to talk to Kaoru, wanted
to tell Kaoru that he was willing to accept him.
“ Well at least they finally together.” Kyo muttered.
“ Huh? What you saying?” Toshiya asked, thinking that Kyo was
talking to him when he walk back to collect his belonging and hears Kyo
muttering.
“ Oh… nothing. Just enjoy your date.” Kyo grin.
Toshiya face reddens and throws the small cushion where he managed
to grab from somewhere, directly at Kyo face.
“ Can we leave now?” Kaoru asked anxiously, blushing.
Toshiya nod and followed behind Kaoru, left the studio together.
As soon as the door was close, a smiling Die approaches Kyo, half guessed
correctly that Toshiya had decides to accept.
“ They finally together?” Die was smiling all the way.
“ Not until Toshiya tell Kaoru? You know Kaoru was kind of idiot
when come to this type of love thing.” Kyo reply, agreed by Die and both laugh
together like idiot.
Unknown to Die, Shinya was staring at him. In Shinya mind, Die was
just anxious to know whether Toshiya had accepted Kaoru, does he still stand a
chance to win the bassist back? Maybe Die would leave him when he recovered?
Shinya suddenly think of this.
Just killed that bitch…!
The breaking sound of Shinya drumstick alert Die.
The doctor carefully removed the cotton on Toshiya face. Kaoru see
the healing mark of the wound, the mark was quite light and the doctor had
confirm to them that the mark will disappeared soon but Toshiya must still
applied lotion everyday to prevent infection.
Kaoru notice that Toshiya mood was high today, properly because
the wound did not left down any scar. Anyway, as long as the bassist is happy,
Kaoru would be happy too.
“ Kaoru, let’s have dinner together?” Toshiya asked suddenly.
“ Sure…”
Kaoru was already contented enough that Toshiya is willing to talk
to him again but he never expect Toshiya would suddenly clutch his hand onto
his while they walk out of the restaurant.
“ Toshiya?” Kaoru surprised.
“ I have to apply the lotion everyday…Mmm… you willing to do it for
me huh?”
“ Of course if you want.” Kaoru answered directly still not quite
understand what Toshiya was trying to say.
“ Accompany me for dinner everyday?”
“ Of course if you want.”
Toshiya pouted.
“ If you have another chance, will you still leave me back in the
hotel?”
Kaoru was stun at the moment wondering why the bassist saying this
thing again. “ Toshiya I’m sorry but you must hear my explanation…”
Toshiya had enough of this love idiot. “ IF IT WAS NOW WILL YOU
STILL LEAVE ME BACK?”
“ NO of course I won’t!” Kaoru answered directly thinking that he
had anger the bassist again. “ I promised!”
“ Okay, then you be my lover from now on!” Toshiya said, blushed.
Kaoru was stun wondering did he hear wrongly. Toshiya is willing
to be my lover? He accepted me? Kaoru heart was beating faster and faster. He
could not control his lip from spreading wide… HE ACCEPTS ME!!
“ What are you doing? I leaving without you if you don’t catch up
huh.” Toshiya shouted at Kaoru who was still standing still outside the
restaurant.
“ Totchi wait! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!” Kaoru exclaimed and run
after his lover.
Next morning.
“ Oh Die, I never thought I have teach such a bad child. Never even
call to tell that he’s not coming home.” Kyo was giggling. “ Where have you
been huh?” Kyo continue, looking at Toshiya, acting to be some sort of angry
father.
Both Kaoru and Toshiya blushed. They never expect the others had
already arrival in the studio so early especially Kyo.
Knowing that his lover was shy, Kaoru give a cough hint to the
others that practices going to start, don’t make him shout. This is very first
time he was extremely happy as his position as the leader in the band… able to
make use of it.
Die was the first one to felt happy for them. Maybe Shinya would
feel better after knowing Toshiya and Kaoru was together. Shinya won’t have to
guess on him and Toshiya.
During the break, Toshiya approaches Die. Shinya was looking at
them, smile to Toshiya when Toshiya look at him. Die saw everything, thinks
that Shinya would not mind since he know about Kaoru and Toshiya. Anyway, they
were just talking in front of him.
“ This is the remix, just add your part.” Toshiya said and pass a
piece of paper to Die.
“ Okay.” Die simply replies. “ Oh yes… you and Kaoru… all the best
to both of you!” Die suddenly remembers. “ And I’m really sorry about pushing
you, I’ll explained to you everything if there’s a chance.” Die
apologized. “ I’m just sorry about
everything I’ve done.”
Toshiya smiled to Die. “ Well everything had passed, forget it! We
still friend right, but don’t you dared to hurt my face again.” Toshiya pretend
to be warning Die. “ Don’t you dare to destroy my beauty!” Toshiya added.
Die stared at the bassist whom stared back, both broke into
laughter.
Die suddenly seems to remember of the drummer, afraid that Shinya
might starts to think wild about him and Toshiya again but the drummer was
still smiling to him when Die look at him.
“ Toshiya!” To Die surprise, Shinya call the bassist. “ Can I have
a look at the other remix? I wish to change some of my part.” Shinya continue
saying while walking to Toshiya.
Shinya seem quiet good today, willing to talk to Toshiya and was
concentrating on his work. Kaoru and Kyo continue doing their work, believing
that Shinya will get well soon as he don’t need to worry too much about Die and
Toshiya now. Maybe he had loosen his mental the moment he know Kaoru and
Toshiya was together?
“ Which remix?” Toshiya asked wanted to find the piece the drummer
wanted.
“ That one…” Shinya answered in a low tone.
“ Which…” Toshiya wanted to ask again when he notice something
reflected his eyes.
“ This one!” Shinya smiled, holding onto Toshiya. “ This piece.”
Die was all the while watching over his lover, saw what had
happened. He drops the piece of paper in his hand that the bassist had given
him. No voice coming out of him even though he wanted to shout.
“ Go to hell!” Shinya
whispered at the bassist ear.
Die wanted to stand up, but his leg could move. He wanted to shout
for the other attention but no voice came out.
“ Shin… Shinya… why?” Toshiya ask, voice-getting weak.
Shinya starts to laugh. Slowly he removes the knife from Toshiya
stomach, Toshiya slowly sink to the ground, hand still clutching onto the
drummer shirt. Shinya laughter was getting hysterical attracting Kaoru and Kyo
attention.
Kaoru saw the most horrify sight in his life. “ Toshiya…” He voice
nearly breakdown.
“ What the fuck!” Kyo exclaimed and rush to the bassist.
Toshiya was lying on the floor, blood starts to stain his shirt
and dripping to the ground. Kaoru and Kyo rush to the bassist side, one trying
to stop the bleeding and the other one calling for an ambulance. Die was still
sitting stun, unmoved. Shinya was laughing all the way.
Part 21(end)
Kaoru and Kyo were waiting nervously outside the emergency room
for Toshiya. The bassist had been inside the room for a few hours. Die was
accompanying Shinya who had been retained by the police.
“ Is Toshiya alright?” Kaoru rush to the doctor immediately, as
soon as the doctor came out of the emergency room.
The doctor explained to them that Toshiya stab was not really very
deep but he had lose lots of blood and a blood transaction had been carry out
on him. All the bassist need now was to get more rest and will recover soon in
most likely a month time.
After hearing what the doctor had said, Kaoru finally set his mind
down. His heart had seem to be digging it way out of Kaoru body every second
Kaoru wait outside the emergency room for the doctor to come out. He was so
afraid that something might happened to his lover, Toshiya weren’t moving at
all when they sent him to the hospital.
Kyo left Kaoru behind to take care of the bassist as the doctor
only allow one person to stay in the room. Anyway one of them would have to go
to the police station to inform Die about the bassist condition and to see
how’s the drummer.
Kaoru quietly enter the ward where his lover was in. He saw
Toshiya lying motionless on the bed, his heart start beating fast again, afraid
that something is wrong with the bassist. It was until he felt Toshiya was
still breathing that he finally rest a bit but was still alert for whatever
going to happened.
Kaoru sits on the chair beside his lover, holding onto Toshiya
hand, looking tenderly at the bassist. He strokes the soft hair of his lover
and felt Toshiya moving a little. It was so great that Toshiya is still alive. Kaoru
felt like crying, maybe because he had let go of the worry that his lover going
to leave him.
“ I’m so scared… you weren’t moving at all just now. I was so
scared that you going to leave me…” Kaoru whisper to the sleeping man and a
tear dropped onto the bassist hand that Kaoru was holding onto.
Kaoru rest his head beside his lover. Now he could not stops the
tears from coming out… Kaoru never cry so much ever since he grown up.
Shinya had recovered his sense after taking the medicine that the
doctor gave him. He was being lock inside a small room; only a bed was inside
the room. Shinya was sitting on the floor, bending his leg and hugging it. He
felt so cold, so frighten inside the room alone.
“ Die… where are you?” Shinya cried. “ What have I done…? They
said I injured someone…?”
The door opens up, a policeman and Die was standing there looking
at Shinya. Shinya saw his lover and run to him, hugging Die tightly and began
to cry. “ What have I done?” Shinya muttered between his sobbing.
The policeman locks the door and left the two alone.
“ Shinya…” Die didn’t know what should he say now, looking at his
lover, he felt pain in his heart.
“ Did I injure someone?” Shinya asked, somehow starts to recall
what he had do. “ Toshiya?” Shinya voice was shaking, knowing the person he had
injure is most properly to be the bassist.
Die nod.
“ What have I done to him?” Shinya virtually breakdown when he
know he is right.
Die guide his lover to sit on the bed. “ You stab Toshiya on the
stomach…” Die decides to tell his lover the truth; anyway Shinya would get to
know sooner or later.
Shinya did not utter a word. He was looking blankly at his lover;
his eyes were redden and tears drip down uncontrollably. The drummer was
trembling when Die embraces him.
“ Die… just sent me to any mental hospital, just lock me up… I
don’t want to hurt anyone again…”
What
should I do, Shinya? I cause all this… Toshiya and you are both the victim… it
my entire fault.
Die was crying, the first time Shinya see his lover crying.
Die slowly walks back to the hall, Shinya had to be retain until
the investigation ended and would properly be sent to mental hospital if he’s
find guilt of injuring someone.
“ Die!”
“ Kyo… How is Toshiya?” Die immediately asks when he sees the man.
Kyo tells the guitarist about Toshiya condition and Die finally
set part of his mind. At least Toshiya was doing all right, he thinks. He would
never forgive himself if something bad happened to the bassist; Shinya would
never forgive himself too and would be guilty in his entire life. Kaoru would
hate the drummer and Die too… everything would ended if Toshiya really
die.
Toshiya wakes up the next morning and see Kaoru sleeping with his
hand still holding onto the bassist. Kaoru move slightly during his sleep and
was awake immediately when he felt Toshiya moving. He look at his lover,
worried at first but Toshiya was smiling at him that make him relax.
“ What are you smiling at?” Kaoru pouted, knowing the bassist was
properly smiling at him.
“ You sleeping like a child.” Toshiya giggle a bit but the pain on
his stomach ended his giggle.
Kaoru was anxious when he sees his lover in pain again. He wanted
to call for the doctor but Toshiya stopped him. Kaoru felt more painful than
his lover when he sees Toshiya suffering. How he wishes the pain that Toshiya
had suffer was on him and not his lover.
“ Kaoru?” Toshiya called when he sees the sadness in his lover. “
I’m doing fine, really…” Toshiya trying to console his lover, just then someone
knock on the door.
“ Mr. Hara Toshimasa?” One of the policeman asked when they enter.
“ We like to talk to you about…”
“ You can come out now, your charge had been cancel.” The policeman
said to Shinya when he opens the door.
Shinya follow the policeman and come to a hall where he sees Die
and Kyo waiting for him. Die was signing some document before the police return
Shinya belonging to him and they left the police station together.
“ What happened? Why did they release me?” Shinya ask once they
walk out of the place.
“ Toshiya had cancel the charge against you, he had told the
police that it was just an accident.” Kyo explained.
Die had not say a thing to the drummer; all he did was holding his
lover hand tightly, somehow Shinya could feel Die hand was shaking. Die was
glad that both Shinya and Toshiya were going to be fine, he was most thankful
to the bassist for not charging his lover.
This morning, Die had go to the hospital when he know that the
bassist was awake, he wanted to beg Toshiya to cancel his charge against Shinya
but he didn’t because it will be unfair to the bassist. No matter what going to
happen, Die had prepared to accept it. Die was overjoyed when Kaoru called him
and tells him to fetch the drummer.
“ Where are we going?” Shinya asked when they enter the car.
“ To the hospital…” Kyo reply and they were quiet for the rest of
the journey.
I
know I must visit Toshiya, I must apologize to him but he’s already kind enough
for not charging me, will he willing to see my face again? I nearly killed him…
Shinya was clutching onto his pant.
They reach outside the wardroom and hear laughing sound from
inside the room. Die knock onto the room and open it, it was also his first
time visiting the bassist since the incident happen. Shinya follow quietly
behind the other two men. Toshiya still have the smile on his face when he sees
them but Kaoru smile faded when he sees Shinya.
“ Seem that you doing fine huh.” Kyo notice the sudden strange
atmosphere, was trying to change it.
Toshiya giggled. “ Of course, I’m going to recover soon. Kaoru
promised to accompany me to Disneyland.” Toshiya also notice it.
“ Disneyland?”
Kaoru face reddens. The others were trying to keep their laughter.
Their stern leader visiting Disneyland, it must be a big joke. Kyo finally
laugh out, unable to bear it.
“ I glad you’re fine.” Die stops the laughter in the room.
Toshiya glance at the man then laugh when he sees how serious Die
looks. “ I won’t die so easily.” Toshiya slap himself immediately after he
finish saying as he sees how uncomfortable the drummer look.
“ Shinya, sorry I didn’t mean it.” Toshiya apologize, knowing the
drummer mind a lot.
Shinya shake his head vigorously; finally bring up his gut to
speak out. Shinya take a step forward but then stop when he sees the protecting
look on Kaoru face, he understand it is usual for Kaoru to do so because he had
just hurt the man he love. Just as he was going to continue talking, Toshiya
cut into his word.
“ Come here.” Toshiya said pointing to the bed, asking the drummer
to sits there.
Toshiya understand what Kaoru was worried about but it was also
the best time to make up with the drummer. Toshiya didn’t want the drummer to
be avoiding him for the rest of his life. It was now that the bassist finally
understands why Shinya had stab him. He had heard from Kaoru and was also
concern about the drummer condition.
Shinya didn’t do so at first but after a few insisting from the
bassist, he obediently sits beside Toshiya. Kaoru was still staring
protectively at his lover. Die just pray nothing would go wrong again, anyway
Shinya condition was good recently after he know what he had done to the
bassist, he had been doing fine in controlling his mood.
Shinya apologized as soon as he sits down and didn’t dare to look
into the bassist eyes. Toshiya did not blame Shinya at all, he was just feeling
sad for the drummer of his mental condition and hope he will get well soon. But
he must let Shinya set his mind first, the main problem is not going to let
Shinya think there still something between him and Die.
“ Oh Shin-chan… I’m going to blame you for my entire life unless
you agreed to have a complete treatment huh?” Toshiya nearly shock all the
others at first. “ Die said you should go to USA for better treatment, we’ll
wait for you to come back and our band need completely ‘good condition’
peoples. I need sometime to recover too…”
“ I will go if you really willing to forgive me.” Shinya
exclaimed, would do whatever the bassist want him to as long as the bassist
forgive him.
Die laughed. He didn’t know Toshiya words work so efficiently.
“ Mmm… and about Die and me.” Toshiya continued, Die and Shinya
wondered what the bassist trying to say. “ You see Shinya, Die dumped me for
you. He loves you, you should put in more believe in him. Die and me would never be together again.”
Toshiya was speaking seriously at this moment.
“ Yes Shinya! Toshiya and me are just friend…. Mmm good friend,
more likely a brother to me.” Die added.
“ Anyway, I have KaoKao now. I won’t even give this asshole a
chance…” Toshiya grin and stick his tongues out a Die. “ Oh he just doesn’t
match my beauty!” Toshiya was trying to make stern drummer laugh.
“ Heh! What asshole!” Die screech.
“ You an asshole!” Toshiya simply reply pointing the red head, Kyo
and Kaoru agreed. “ See Shinya, you must consider again. Find another lover.”
“ Hey! You guys ganging up against me.”
“ And some more…” Toshiya whispered something at the drummer ear.
Die frown, wondering what the bassist is telling his lover. To the
others surprise, Shinya finally laughed after hearing what Toshiya say to him.
“ Really?” Shinya was smiling, asking for further confirmation of
what the bassist told him.
Toshiya nodded and both laughing all the way together. “ See, I
ask you to consider another lover. How about Kyo?” Toshiya muttered between his
laughter.
“ Don’t listen to him Shinya.” Die was looking at his lover with
puppy eyes. “ What did he said?”
“ SECRET!!” Shinya and Toshiya say together.
Die pouted.
The wardroom was filled with all sort of noise until a nurse came
in and…
Few days later, Dir en Grey announced that they would be stopping
all activity for one year – personally reason!
~ Shinya and Die.
Went to USA together for Shinya treatment. Die still very much
bother by what Toshiya had told his lover; Shinya was still keeping it as
secret, not willing to tell Die.
In there rented house in USA, at night when they were going to
sleep.
“ What did Toshiya actually tell you?” Die was still asking,
poking at his lover back.
“ Maybe I should really consider of another lover if you want to
keep on asking?” Shinya warned, partly already irritated by Die.
“ Oh Shinya…”
Shinya giggled, remembering of what Toshiya had told him suddenly.
~ Kyo and Gackt
Very loving… Mmm still arguing over their position matter. Kyo
wants to be the ‘man’ at least once but Gackt refused, always ended up
quarreling but will make up the very next day and history repeat again. Maybe
because of this a third party coming up between them…
“ I WANT TO XXX YOU!!” Kyo exclaimed.
“ No…” Gackt -- =p
~ Kaoru and Toshiya
Superglue! One word to describe, always sticking together. Toshiya
had moved into Kaoru apartment and was now enjoying their’ honeymoon’, not
caring of the others death or alive.
Toshiya recovered fully in two months time. They start writing new
song, preparing for Dir en Grey to form back, Toshiya was complaining about
Kaoru workaholic again. (He’s is! Now then you know huh? ^__^)
Toshiya is going on solo after Kyo and Kaoru. (That’s what I pray
for… Totchi is going solo. @___@ I like to hear him sing!)
“ Heard that Shinya and Die get married in USA?”
“ Really?”
“ It does recognize there, man get marry.”
Toshiya eyes redden. Kaoru getting panic… “ Aright, we do the same!” Kaoru was trying
to comfort his lover.
“ Wah… you’re not romantic at all! You don’t even propose to me.”
Toshiya was crying and ran out of the room.
“ Totchi?”
Well, few days after that, Kaoru and Toshiya appeared in front of
Die and Shinya rented house in USA.
~~~
One year later.
Dir en Grey come back together and held their concert in Tokyo
dome. (I must write this! Dir en Grey
will always be together!)
Ø
The End.
[5/7/02]
Let’s go to America!
~ Deep, deep special 3
Someone was continually pressing the doorbell. Die curse, pulling his
heavy body down from the bed and drag himself to the door at the first floor.
His lover was still sleeping soundly, not caring about the doorbell. It had
been six months since they had come to America for Shinya treatment and the
drummer condition was recovering fast.
“ Coming!” Die yelled, cursing the person pressing the bell.
Die yawn as he opens the door, his eyes widen suddenly when he see
Kaoru and Toshiya standing outside. Kaoru was the one pressing the bell and Toshiya
was smiling all the way, properly was overjoyed that he was in America.
“ Good Morning! Time to get up!” Toshiya exclaimed. “ Where’s
Shinya?”
“ Do you know what time is it?” Die yawned again.
Toshiya was already nowhere to be seen when Die turn around after
locking the door. Kaoru sighed, knowing that his lover was just too excited.
Die didn’t care anyway, he drag himself to the sofa and fall asleep soon.
Toshiya ran upstairs and finds the drummer sleeping soundly. He
wanted to give him a surprise, slowly enter the room and jump onto the bed.
“ Shinya!” Toshiya exclaimed. “ Wake up and welcome me!”
Shinya open his eyes wide thinking some disastrous strike. His
eyes brighten up when he sees the bassist, they hold each other hand like little
kids and call out each other name. Kaoru was standing outside the room,
sweatdrop, wondering when the two had become such good friend.
Die awake suddenly, Shinya had just getting better from his mental
condition, what if the bassist excite him again. Die doesn’t want thing to get
worse again and what the hell is Kaoru and Toshiya doing in USA? Die rush
upstairs to his room and see Kaoru standing outside the room.
“ When did you arrival? Why didn’t you give us a call? Why…”
Shinya was busy asking the bassist who was busy answering; both did not care
about their lover who is standing outside the room looking at them in surprise.
Shinya and Toshiya was chatting all the way, not bothering about
Die and Kaoru, until they both fall asleep together on the bed.
The next morning, they were having breakfast together when Toshiya
suddenly ask the drummer about Die and him register for married in USA. Shinya
drop the newspaper in his hand, blushed.
“ He actually came for this.” Kaoru simply explained.
Toshiya pinch his lover, making a face to him. “ That’s mean you
DO not come for this?” Toshiya pouted. “ You didn’t even propose to me… you
didn’t even give me a ring or anything… I know now! You don’t love me!” Toshiya
was still upset over Kaoru being so unromantic.
“ Toshiya, it not like that.” Kaoru trying to comfort his lover
who gets upset by what he had say. “ I buy you anything you want.”
“ Don’t touch me! It not the matter of what I want, it the matter
of what you going to buy for me.” Toshiya pretend to cry. “ Shinya let’s go
shopping, Kaoru going to pay for everything I buy since he’s so generous to buy
whatever thing I want.”
Before Kaoru can react, Toshiya had already pulled Shinya out of
the house. Die laugh, knowing that Kaoru is going to be broke this time.
Toshiya and Shinya were carrying bags and bags of thing within an
hour of shopping. They were now sitting down resting and having a cups of
coffee, chatting.
“ So you and Die really get register married?”
“ Actually it all because he was being bothers by the thing you
told me. He was afraid that I really want to find another lover so he drag me
to register for married.”
“ But you did agreed didn’t you or he can’t force you either.”
Toshiya giggled.
Shinya take a slip of coffee.
“ Did you tell Die what I have tells you?”
Shinya shakes his head, putting down his cups of coffee. “ I can’t
possibly let him know that you said his is not as good as Kaoru when come to
sex.” Shinya laugh.
Toshiya broke out laughing.
“ Aren’t you Toshiya of Dir en Grey?” Someone asked, approaching
them.
Toshiya looked up and sees a good-looking man was talking to them.
It was quiet strange that someone would eventually recognize them in America
and this man was speaking good Japanese. So he’s some kind of fan from Japan?
“ Yes, I’m am and you are?” Toshiya politely reply, giving his
gorgeous smile, not wanting to lose to the man.
“ I’m Taka.” The man smiled back to Toshiya. “ I’m the vocalist of
La’cryma Christi.”
Toshiya finally recognize the man. He politely stand up and bow to
the man and they exchange their greeting. They were showing out their most
attracting smile all the way, properly not wanted to lose to either one.
“ You are Shinya-chan, if I’m not wrong.” Taka turns and greets
Shinya.
“ Nice to meet you.” Shinya reply.
“ It great to meet two beauty here.” Taka gives another charming
smiled. “ What’re you two doing here?”
The three sat down and starts chatting, glad to meet someone who
shared the same interest in America. Taka was actually on holiday here and was
doing some shopping when he sees Toshiya whom he really admires.
Toshiya and Taka seem to have a comment topic and was enjoying
each other company. Since Toshiya was still mad at Kaoru for being so
unromantic, he decides to keep his new make friend accompany the next few
days.
Kaoru didn’t know where his lover was going or with who for the
first two day. All he knows was the bassist properly angry with him was trying
to ignore him.
The third day, Kaoru was getting frustrated for being ignored by
his lover. They come here for holiday and should be enjoying their shopping
trip or whatever together and not Toshiya going out alone.
Kaoru was rolling all over the sofa, sighing all time. Toshiya had
gone out early in the morning, Shinya and Die had just came home from the
drummer treatment and he was the only one who had been doing noting for the
three day.
“ Totchi where are you.” Kaoru grumble.
Die look at his friend, kind of irritate by his grumbling. He
didn’t know Kaoru was someone like that; all he knows was the stern leader of
Dir en Grey who is always serious and a workaholic.
“ Do you know whom Toshiya with?” Die asks, as he pulls Shinya into
the kitchen, not wanting Kaoru to overheard them.
“ We just make a new friend, I think Toshiya is with him now.”
Shinya was busy packing the can food they had bought. “ Taka, the vocalist of
La’cryma.”
“ Taka? Your friend too… What kind of person is he… he look like a
flirt.” Die was getting anxious.
“ Hey! I’m right here standing in front of you. I didn’t go out
with him.” Shinya was annoyed for Die getting so easy panic recently. “ Anyway
he’s more interested in Toshiya.” Shinya added, wanted to let Die calm down.
Kaoru was standing behind them, had overheard the last part of Die
and Shinya conversation. (Since when did he appear ^__^; Like a ghost) “ What interest in Toshiya? Who?” Kaoru was
shrieking.
Die and Shinya covered their ear. It’s the same powerful Dir en
Grey nor leader, Kaoru special shriek.
Toshiya enter the room he shared with Kaoru. His lover was
sleeping, Toshiya thought, as Kaoru was covering his head with the blanket.
Toshiya quietly put down his belonging and went into the bathroom.
Kaoru remove the blanket and sits up from the bed. Looking at the
time, it was quite late now and his lover had just come back. Remembering that
his lover was actually out with another guy make Kaoru furious and jealous.
Toshiya gulped when he came out of the bathroom and saw Kaoru
still awake. The older man was staring at him when he walks around him.
“ Where have you been?” Kaoru asked suddenly.
“ None of your business.”
Kaoru get really annoyed this time. He pulled the bassist onto the
bed and harshly grip onto the bassist hand holding it up above the bassist
head. “ What do you mean by none of my business!”
“ Let go of me.” Toshiya yelled, trying to struggle off Kaoru
grip. “ It hurt!”
“ Tell me! Where have been? Who are you with?” Kaoru insist of
knowing the answer from his lover, didn’t know that his sudden action had
frighten the bassist.
“ I with my friend, we have been staying at his friend pub all the
while.”
“ The whole day?”
Toshiya nod. Kaoru let go of his grip when Toshiya starts to cry,
just realizing how fierce he was to his lover earlier. Kaoru bend down, placing
a kiss on his lover. “ Sorry…” He whispered at Toshiya ear, embracing the
bassist.
“ You were so fierce…”
“ I’m sorry Totchi, I’m just getting jealous…” Kaoru explained.
“ Jealous?” Toshiya was surprise that Kaoru was actually jealous
over him.
Kaoru face reddens. “ Can’t I?” He gently lift up Toshiya chin
kiss it, and again until he reach Toshiya lips.
Kaoru deepen their kiss, gently guide Toshiya to lie down on the
bed and move on top of the bassist. Toshiya grasp onto his lover hair as Kaoru
start to move his hand around Toshiya body, stopping at the nipple, pinching it
slightly. Toshiya gave out a sound moan but cover his mouth afraid that Die and
Shinya might hers him.
“ I love you…” Kaoru murmur and he move his kiss down the bassist
beautiful body.
Toshiya was trying to control his voice but Kaoru pull Toshiya
hand away. “ I want to hear your voice…” Kaoru whispered. Toshiya blush.
Kaoru hand moves to Toshiya length and start to stroke it, another
hand reach the bassist opening, inserting into the bassist, and slowly widening
the hole.
“ Ah… Kaoru…” Toshiya cried.
Kaoru manhood had already harden, he hint Toshiya and the bassist
obediently spread out his leg allowing his lover to move between him. Kaoru
lift the bassist leg up and position himself, waiting for Toshiya to be ready.
“ I love you Totchi…” Kaoru bend down, kissing Toshiya before he
trust into his lover.
Toshiya cried out when his lover trust into him, but the pain turn
into pleasure as the trust was getting faster and faster. Toshiya finger was
digging onto Kaoru back, leaving down nail mark and pain for Kaoru but he did not
care, knowing that the pain his lover was having was more than his.
“ Kaoru… Kao… Ah…”
“ Totchi…”
They were calling at each other name, excited, until they finally
reach their climax. “ I love you… Totchi… love you.” Kaoru cried before ending
his last trust and lay flat on his lover, both grasping for air.
After a while, Kaoru move beside his lover, letting Toshiya head
to rest on his shoulder. He embraces his lover waist bringing Toshiya near him
and places a kiss on the bassist forehead before they fall asleep.
“ I think they are doing fine.” Die grin, talking to his lover.
Shinya agreed, face still blushing. They had been standing outside
Kaoru and Toshiya room from the very moment Toshiya went into the room. They
were afraid that Kaoru and Toshiya might get into a fight but after hearing
those moaning sound, they don’t think their friend were fighting.
“ Let’s go back to sleep.” Shinya whisper, pulling Die with him
not wanting to alert Kaoru and Toshiya.
“ Sleep?” Die exclaimed softly. “ You can still sleep… after
hearing those…”
“ I want to SLEEP!” Shinya reply directly, knowing what his lover
want.
“ Oh Shinya… please huh?” Die pled.
Shinya ignored his lover and went back into his room. Few minutes
later, Shinya was throwing Die out of the room. You guys should guess what
happened huh. ^__^
“ Good morning.” Kaoru say when Toshiya wakes up.
Toshiya smiled to his lover and greet him back. Just then he seem
to remember something, making him sitting up of the bed instantly. Kaoru was surprise
by his lover, following the bassist sitting up on the bed.
“ What’s wrong?” Kaoru asked concern.
“ I’ve left my handphone with Taka.”
Kaoru frown.
“ You see, I need my phone back… I need to meet him up.” Toshiya
explaining to his lover hoping that the man would not get angry (jealous)
again.
“ I buy you a new one?” Kaoru pouted, not so willing to let his
lover meet up with that whatever Taka.
“ Kaoru!” Toshiya pretend to be angry. “ All my friend contact
number is IN MY PHONE MEMORY!!!” The bassist exclaimed.
Kaoru had no choice since he did not want to upset or quarrel with
his lover again. “ I go with you then.” Kaoru insisted.
Toshiya chuckle, didn’t know his lover can become such a jealous
man…
They went downstairs and found Die was still sleeping on the sofa,
wondering what going on with their friend. (Die won’t get thrown out if you two
weren’t so LOVING yesterday night!! ^__^;) Shinya was preparing breakfast in
the kitchen. They had their breakfast before they went to meet ‘Kaoru rival’
Taka.
Someone was waving to Toshiya when they walk to the café. Toshiya
waved back, smiling. Kaoru pouted. Kaoru had been staring at the person when
his figure appears in front of Kaoru. Kaoru was looking stern all the way when
they walk toward the person.
“ Good morning Totchi.” Taka greeted. “ And this is…” Taka was
referring to Kaoru although he already knows who Kaoru is.
Totchi? You dared to call him Totchi… in front of me!
Kaoru curse the man. Toshiya sweatdrop.
“ Good morning. This is Kaoru.” Toshiya introduces the two
‘atrocious’ looking man.
“
Oh you are the GREAT leader of Dir en Grey, you just look so DIFFERENT from the
stage.” Taka says sarcastically.
“
So you are the bassist or no… drummer? Mmm whatever of what band huh?” Kaoru
purposely act, as he did not know where Taka is from.
Toshiya
laugh nervously.
“
Nice to meet you.” Both Taka and Kaoru say together, shaking their hand, which
was actually squeezing each other hand. Still having their professional smile
on their face.
“
Ta… Taka-san… can I have my phone back?”
Taka
and Kaoru finally let go of their hand, both rubbing their now burning pain
hand behind their back, still having their smiled on the face.
“
Of course you can have it back Totchi.” Taka slightly steps in front of Kaoru
covering the man.
Totchi!
Call him that again…
Kaoru
was glaring at Taka as Toshiya take his phone from Taka.
“
Since you have got your phone back, let’s go now.” Kaoru pulled his lover with
him, not even letting the bassist have any time to thanks or say goodbye to
Taka. “ Sorry… eh what your name… oh never mind whatever, Totchi and I going to
catch a movie.” Kaoru deliberately say.
Taka
grin, an idea strikes him. “ Oh a movie? How about letting me joining in, I
love movie.” Taka pretended. “ Sure you would not mind Totchi huh?” Taka know
that Toshiya would agreed cause the bassist won’t really let him be alone since
he already ask.
Toshiya
smiled nervously, look at his lover and Taka. The two men was obviously glaring
at each other now. “ Well… what do you say Kaoru?” Toshiya asked, sweatdrop.
Kaoru:
$@#&&$%
Taka:
OH hohohohoho >__<
Toshiya
and Kaoru trip ended in one week. Toshiya was enormously mad at his lover, as
Kaoru had totally forgotten about their main purpose of coming to America.
Their last night in America, Toshiya have to remind him about their purpose of
coming but Kaoru did not even go and get a ring or anything for Toshiya or at
least propose to the bassist, which was driving Toshiya crazy.
Toshiya
was staying in Shinya room the last night in America, crying the whole
night. “ Wah… Shinya… I know he don’t
love me at all!” Toshiya was complaining the whole night.
In
Kaoru room, Die had kick his friend to sleep on the floor for causing him to be
kick out of his room and had to listen to the sobbing and complaining the whole
night.
“
Totchi…?” Kaoru: ^__^;;; “ I did love you….!”
On
the plane, Toshiya still refuse to talk to Kaoru. Kaoru was thinking hard to
ask for the bassist forgiveness when someone appears in front of them with a
bouquet of flower in his hand.
“
Totchi! I know you’ll be returning to Japan so I had bought the same flight
ticket.” Taka was smiling at the bassist who looks surprise. “ This flower is
for you! This the only thing I brought back with me other than my wallet.”
Kaoru
was still trying to look from behind the bouquet of flower.
“
You’re so romantic… Taka thank you, I love this flower.” Toshiya cried.
Toshiya
was sitting in between the two men. During the whole flight, Toshiya had been
chatting with Taka, ignoring his lover.
“
Totchi…?” Kaoru would sometime pulled his lover sleeve but Toshiya pull away,
still angry with him.
Toshiya:
HUH >_< maybe it not Shinya who should change another lover!
Kaoru:
;__;
The End
(Deep, deep special 4)
Kyo skip along the corridor heading to the studio, humming some
tune as he goes along until he reach the studio door. He heard some noise
inside, Kyo puzzle for a while; there should not be anyone around at this time.
He moved his ear nearer listening to the other side of the door. “ Stop it…
Kao… ah… don’t Kaoru stop it…” Some giggling sound was heard before Kyo
recognize the voice was from Toshiya.
Kyo smirk, guessing correctly what his friend was doing inside the
studio. An evil grin appeared on the vocalist face, having thought of some evil
idea. Kyo waited outside the studio for some time until he was sure enough that
his friend was getting ‘HIGH’ inside and he bump into the studio.
“ TOSHIYA!! YOU”RE BACK FROM USA!” Kyo exclaimed.
Toshiya
and Kaoru were dumbfounded for a while staring at Kyo in shocked. Kyo was
sniggering all the way, seeing the expression on his friend face. “ Ohh… you
still look so sexy!” Kyo chuckled. “ Your butt look nice…”
Kaoru frown as he quickly gets off his lover, putting on his
shirt. His member was still in semi harden condition and Toshiya was still…
well o_______< but they could not continue with their vocalist around. Kaoru
curse… just as something came into his mind. “ He sees your naked body before?”
Kaoru anxiously ask his lover.
Toshiya pouted not bothering to answer this question, instead he
turn to Kyo and glared at the man. “ IT HAD BEEN 2 MONTH SINCE I’M BACK FROM
USA!!” Toshiya shriek.
Kyo and Kaoru cover their ear, shock by their bassist voice. “ I
didn’t know you have a high pitch voice!” Kaoru slowly put down his hand when
he knows his lover had tranquil down. Kyo agreed with the older man. “ Maybe
you should be the vocalist.” The vocalist was still grinning.
The bassist glared at the two men.
Kyo was sitting on the chair with his leg up on the table waiting
for his two friends, rocking the chair as he whistle a new melody. Half an hour
later, Kaoru and Toshiya returns to the studio after they go to the toilet
respectively, finishing whatever ‘unfinished job’ of their. “ What’re you guys
doing here today?” Kyo stops his whistling.
Kaoru gather the papers on the table, still putting a frown on his
face. “ To remix this new song.” The guitarist passes the paper and a demo tape
to the vocalist. “ I want to record it as soon as Die and Shinya is back.”
“ You’ve filled in the lyrics?” The vocalist look at their leader
with watery eyes as the demo tape was play. “ You’re snatching away my job.”
Kyo stood up and run to the bassist.
Kaoru ignored the shorter man knowing clearly he was just putting
on an act. Toshiya was giggling as Kyo jump onto him and the two ended up lying
on the floor with Kyo on top. Another evil grin was spotted on the short man. “
What a prefect position.” Kyo starts to unbutton the bassist shirt.
“ Oh please don’t, let go of me my lord.” Toshiya was laughing all
the way as he continue to act with Kyo. “ Help KaoKao, he’s going to rape me!”
Kaoru ignored his two crazy bandmate, trying to concentrate on his
work. Knowing that his lover was not going to do anything, Toshiya pouted. “
Kaoru…” Toshiya trying to attract his lover attention again but was still being
ignored.
“ No fun!” Kyo finally give up knowing that Kaoru was not going to
do anything. “ Ahhhh…” The very next moment he yelled as Toshiya pulled him
back suddenly when he was getting up.
Attracted by the vocalist scream, Kaoru look back and sees his
lover and the vocalist was eventually kissing, which Kyo seem to be forced.
Kaoru frown even more, his lover was trying to get his attention but he had
ignored him, so was this revenge to him for ignoring the bassist? “ Toshiya…”
Kaoru tries to stops his lover action but was being ignored of course and what
make him angrier was that Kyo starts to seem rather enjoying.
Kaoru walks to them with shaking fist and he smacks Kyo on the
head. “ Enjoying huh!?”
“ Ouch! It not my fault!” Kyo protest, rubbing his head.
Toshiya giggled, his plan to get his lover attention had work.
Kaoru was now 100% jealous, the bassist knows clearly, watching as his lover
walking back to his seat.
“ Ne Totchi, are you free later?” Kyo was still rubbing his head.
“ There’s a place I wanted to go later, accompany me?”
Toshiya eyes brighten up. “ What place?” The bassist was curious
on what kind of wired place is Kyo bringing him to this time. “ Sure! I want to
go!” Toshiya looks at his lover to get response. “ Anyway you still have work
to do didn’t you KaoKao.”
Kaoru had been sticking close to his lover ever since the TAKA
incident, but now since Kyo was with him, the vocalist can watch over his lover
for him. “ Don’t come home too late and Kyo…”
“ I know! I know! Watch over Totchi for you, don’t let any SUSPECT
get near him.” Kyo cut off Kaoru sentence, had already guessed what the older
man was trying to tell him as it was not the first time he had been told that.
“ Bring you some supper.” Toshiya happily kiss his lover chin.
Kyo stops his car in front of a building. The bassist was
wondering why his friend had brought him to a place like this where there don’t
seem to have any ‘wired place’. Toshiya follows Kyo up the building, finding
the place look alike their studio; thinking was Kyo meeting Gackt here.
“ You’re meeting Gackt-san?”
Kyo shake his head, just then someone interrupt their
conversation. “ Kyo you are here!” An even shorter man was walking toward them;
smiling at Kyo but Toshiya notice a dagger-like glared was given to him within
a second from that man.
“ Let me introduces.” Kyo didn’t notice anything. “ This is Levin
and this is my bandmate Toshiya.”
“ Nice to meet you.” Toshiya said first.
“ TOTCHI!!!” The three men were shock by the sudden high pitch
shrieking whereby Levin already know whom the shrieking came from, sweatdrop.
“ Ta… Taka?” Toshiya was surprise to see him again.
“ I’m so happy to see you again, where’s your that Koi, Mmm…
forget his name.” Taka happily held onto the bassist hands.
“ Koi?” Levin asked. “ You have one?” The shortest man was smiling
at Toshiya now, knowing that Toshiya was not Kyo lover.
Toshiya smiled back and nod to Levin blushed, whereby his mind was
wondering now that what is wrong with Kyo and Gackt and this Levin was
obliviously have something for Kyo. Toshiya look at Kyo whom give him a silly
grin and the bassist smiled nervously himself too.
“ Ahem…nice to see you again Taka.” Kyo instantly grab Taka hand
away from the bassist. “ Ha… ha…”
“ I thought I just see you yesterday.” Taka sulked.
^__^;;
Toshiya and Kyo wave goodbye to the other two after they had their
dinner together. Levin and Taka were be heading back to their work place and
Kyo was sending the bassist safely back to Kaoru.
“ What all this?” Toshiya asked as soon as they enter the car. “
Gackt-san and you?”
Kyo starts the engine. “ That’s why I had asked you out today.”
The car drove off as Kyo starts telling the bassist what was going on between
Gackt, Levin and him.
“ What!? Just because Gackt refuse to let you take him?” Toshiya
was extremely surprise by Kyo. “ I know you always wanted to be the ‘man’ and
Levin let you do so, but you telling me that you actually love Gackt more after
you and Levin…?” Toshiya was getting upset, having remembered about his past
relation with Die and Shinya. “ This is not going to be good, believe me Kyo.
You would hurt them.”
“ But Gackt already know about it and he was so mad at me.” They
had reached Kaoru apartment by now. “ Levin know I love Gackt but he did not
mind if I love him or not, all he want is to stay with me.”
“ Please decide properly. Apologize to Gackt-san if you want to be
with him, I’m sure he would forgive you or if you decide to be with Levin then
tell Gackt-san.” Toshiya was a bit angry with the vocalist. “ Don’t take love
for granted.”
“ Toshiya you’re angry?”
“ I’m going back now, please think through who you love most.”
Toshiya get off the car. “ Kyo please don’t tell Kaoru that we had see Taka, I
don’t want him to get fret again.”
Kyo nodded.
Seeing the vanishing back of the bassist, Kyo sighed, Toshiya had
grown a lot. He was once a spoilt brat who does not care so much about others
as long as he is happy but now he would show concern for others especially his
love one. Well maybe he is still a spoil brat now but with a different
internal.
But what wrong with Kaoru knowing about Taka?
“ I’m home!” Toshiya enter the apartment and see Kaoru sitting on
the sofa with papers all around him. “ You have not finish your work?”
Kaoru smiled at his lover. “ I was trying to do something while
waiting for you. Have you enjoy yourself today?” Kaoru lead his lover to take a
sit beside him.
Toshiya stare at the loving Kaoru as tears starts forming in his
eyes. “ Wah KaoKao…. You always so good to me.” Toshiya embrace the older man
tightly.
“ What happened?” Kaoru was surprise with his lover sudden
outburst. “ Something is wrong?” Kaoru asked anxiously.
Toshiya shakes his head vigorously. “ Nothing, it just that I
realized how much I was being love by you. You love me huh? Do you huh?”
Toshiya is looking at his lover with puppy eyes for an answer.
“ Of course I love you Totchi, you always the first one in my
heart.” Kaoru kiss his lover on the forehead.
“ Wahhhhhhhhhhhhh…”
“ Shh… Shh… I always love you…. Don’t cry…” Kaoru pat his lover on
the back while hugging him, comforting the man.
Kyo stops his car, switching off the engine as he took out his
mobile. After thinking what Toshiya had reminded him, Kyo had make up his mind
who is the one he actually love. It may be cruel to the other person but it
would be fair to both of them like what Toshiya had said.
“ Hello?” Someone pick up the phone. “ Is that you Kyo?”
“ Hai.”
“ What’s up?”
“ Levin I have something to tell you.”
“ What is it? Shall we meet somewhere?”
“ …”
“ I’m sorry but after thinking through I…” Levin was cutting off
Kyo words.
“ You have decides to go back to your lover?” Levin voice was
shaking. “ Don’t even consider letting me stay with you even that I don’t
mind?”
“ I’m sorry Levin but it would be unfair to both of you if I
agreed to you.”
“ Why Kyo? You know I don’t mind…” Sobbing sound was heard. “ I
love you Kyo…”
“ I’m sorry Levin, really sorry about everything I done to you. I
would do anything to make up for you, forgive me.”
“ …”
“ Levin?”
“ It Okays Kyo, I understand. I’m also sorry for giving you so
much trouble.” Levin was trying to stop his voice from trembling, not wanting
to let Kyo blame too much on himself. “ Are we still friend then?”
“ Of course, you’ll always be my friend and I’ll do anything I can
for you.”
“ Thanks you.”
“ Levin are you really alright?”
“ Ya, I’ll be fine. Good night Kyo.”
“ Good Night…”
Kyo get down the car and went up the building where Gackt was
living. No matter what happened, Kyo wants to apologize to his lover, even if
Gackt would have beaten him up or anything.
Kyo press the bell several times when finally someone answered the
door. “ Gackt…” Kyo stopped as he sees the person who answers the door was not
his lover but was a woman.
“ Looking for Gackt?” The woman asked.
“ Never mind. I’ll come another day.” Kyo did not know what he was
saying, all he know now was his heart was aching and this may be what Levin was
feeling.
“ Who is it sis?( does Gackt-sama have a sister?)” Gackt appears
at the door. “ Kyo?” Surprise to see the vocalist.
Sis? His sister? So it was not his new girlfriend or what…
“ I’m leaving soon, come in.” The woman pulled Kyo inside the
house. “ You’re Gackt friend or lover.”
Kyo jaw nearly drops. “ Emm… I’m Kyo, Gackt…” Kyo politely
introduce himself.
“ He’s my lover…” Kyo and the woman stare at Gackt, surprise.
“ Oh I see. Okay I’m leaving now. Goodbye.” The woman blows a kiss
to both Kyo and Gackt as she close the door.
The door went close. Gackt and Kyo suddenly realize they are now
alone in the apartment, wondering what they should said to one another. “ Emm…”
They said together and stopped.
“ What you want to said?” Gackt asked.
Kyo lowered his head, staring on the floor. “ You still admit me
as your lover?”
Gackt move to the sofa, sitting down. He did not answer Kyo
question, making the later anxious. After a while, Kyo give up waiting
aimlessly and move to the sofa, taking a sit beside Gackt pulling the man face
facing him. “ I said I’m terribly sorry for what I have done! Can you forgive
me?” Kyo was looking serious and determined.
Gackt burst out laughing, couldn’t hold his laughter any longer.
He did not expect Kyo would do such a thing and the serious look on his lover
face was driving him crazy. Kyo pouted. “ Why are you laughing?”
Gackt was still laughing, maybe consider frantically now.
“ I have clearly told Levin that the one I love is you! I LOVE
YOU!! See! You can either beat me up to smooth your anger and forgive me or you
can just tell me that you don’t want me anymore and I would leave now!” Kyo was
blushing hard.
Gackt laughter was getting more and more >___<
“ Fine! I leave!” Kyo was getting mad at Gackt reaction.
“ Wait…” Gackt pulled the man back. “ I didn’t know you are so
straightforward…” Gackt was trying to control his laughter now. “ I was angry
with you of course but… but how could I still be angry with you in this
situation?” Gackt was still laughing.
“ Forgive me or forget it? Chose either one now.” Kyo poked at his
lover.
“ Huh? Threatening me now?” Gackt make a face and pulled Kyo
toward him suddenly. “ Let me teach you a lesson for betraying me, you will
never going to forget this.”
Kyo : t__t;
Gackt carry his lover up and throw him onto the bed when they
enter the room. Kyo yell in protest but his lover was already on top of him,
moving his hand up and down, removing every single piece of clothing on Kyo as
he place kissing on him. “ You will always be the ‘woman’!” Gackt whispered.
“ What?” Kyo exclaimed but was already too late to stop his lover.
“ Gackt…….”
Gackt : ^o^ I’m always the winner!
Kyo give up struggling, sighing as he let his lover do whatever he
wants since he was at wrong first. But deep inside Kyo, there was a voice
exclaiming “ I WANT TO BE THE MAN!”
The ringing sound from the phone had goes on for some time when
Toshiya lazily move from under his blanket to answer the call. Kaoru was in the
bathroom taking a shower after they had finish their ‘JOB’ earlier on. “ Who is
it?” Toshiya grumble.
“ It’s me.”
“ Kyo?” Toshiya was surprise to hear his friend voice. “ What up?”
“ Just to thanks you for your advice and maybe your anger earlier
on, if not I would still be trouble between Gackt and Levin.” Kyo yawn as he
said. “ Common… babe…” Another voice was heard.
“ You are with Gackt now huh?” Toshiya recognize the voice. “
Everything alright now? So fast?” The bassist giggled.
“ Yes… yes and all this had to thank you spoilt brat.”
“ Hey!” Toshiya sits up from the bed, protesting, as Kaoru walks
out from the bathroom smiling at him. “ Who is it?” Kaoru asked softly. “ It
that girly KYO.” The bassist purposely said out aloud for the vocalist to hear
it. Kaoru laugh, sitting on the bed now beside his lover.
“ Who is girly!?”
“ Oh nothing… I’m going to sleep now… bye.” Toshiya hangs up the
phone giggling, without waiting for the reply from Kyo, knowing that Kyo would
be extremely >__<.
“ You better watch out Totchi!” Kyo was fuming at the other side
of the phone.
“ Another round babe…” Gackt pulled his lover back onto the bed.
“ Hey, how many time do you want!?” Kyo (; __ ;)
Following by, Kyo had taken his revenge on the bassist as he
purposely led Taka to meet up with Toshiya, nearly causing another disaster
from Kaoru, whereby the incident had lead to Kaoru being more ‘STICK’ to his
lover.
----------------------
“ Can all of you make a simple introducing of yourself?” The
interviewer asks.
…
“ I’m the guitarist of Dir en Grey, Kaoru.”
“ I’m Kyo.”
“ I’m Toshiya, bassist of the band.”
“ Die here, nice to see you guys again.”
“ I’m Shinya, drummer of Dir en grey.”
“ Thanks for the introducing, let get to the topic. What would Dir
en Grey be doing now after resting for the whole year?”
“ We will be holding a concert!” Kaoru answered…
The End~
By Tsmrhara
[5/8/02]
[Moon
Child] Side story 5
Kaoru
moved around the room, a frown on his face as trying to find something to do
after he had finish with all the paperwork. He looks at the clock now ten in
the morning, Kaoru seat on the chair thumping his feet crossing his arm and
stare directly at the door since he really cannot find anything else to do. “ I
thought these guy would have grow up after so many thing had happened in the
band.” Kaoru start grumbling to himself as he looks at the clock again. “ Seem
that they are getting worse!”
Not
only that Kyo was late for practice, which he always used to be in the past.
Now even Shinya was late and not to mention of Die and Toshiya who had also
used to be late often but this time was indeed ridiculous for the whole band
other than himself to be late for the first practice after whole long year of
resting. He had regret not pulling Toshiya along with him in the morning just
because his lover beg him to let him sleep for a while and promised to be at
practice on time. Kaoru must be crazy to believe what Toshiya had said knowing
that his lover must still be on bed now.
“ Didn’t they know practice should start at eight?” Kaoru tap his
feet louder annoyed.
Kaoru don’t even bother to call them one by one now knowing it
still were not do any help after so many years of ‘experience’ as the leader.
He had Shinya to help him in the passed but now it seem that another problem
child had occur. Frowning, grumbling and finally moment later Kaoru heard some
noise; he glared at the door seeing who is the ‘earlier’ one.
“ Good morning.” Kaoru greeted sarcastically still sitting on the
chair facing the door.
Shinya and Die sweatdrop knowing how angry their leader is from
the man look. “ …Kao… Kaoru-san… good morning.” Shinya tries to greet back as
his heart was beating wildly. Die has a nervous grin on his face. “ You see
Kaoru, Shinya and I…” He tries to find some excused.
“ I really ‘GLAD’ you guy are here now.” Kaoru emphasize the word.
“ Keep your excused and get to work.”
Die and Shinya smiled awkwardly and move to the other side of the
room afraid that Kaoru might explode and struggler them. They see Kaoru still
staring at the door with crossed arm; maybe they were still being lucky not to
be the last one to arrival. “ If Kyo was last, he’s doom but if it Totchi then
it be alright.” Die whispered to his lover. Both men were quiet surprise that
there is still someone being later than they have.
“ What are we supposed to do now Die?” Shinya whispered looking
around to find that everything had been done.
“ Just sit, keep quiet and waited.”
Shinya nodded.
Footsteps were approaching the studio and the door swing open soon.
Die and Shinya give a “ AH,” noise when it was Toshiya at the door and a “oh”
referring to Kyo is doom this time. “ Toshiya…” Kaoru starts his nagging toward
the man but with a softer tune. The nagging soon stops with the bassist
reddening eyes glancing at Kaoru pleading. Its Toshiya tactics and he always
win.
“ Not fair.” Both Die and Shinya complain only to gain another
glared from the leader and a giggle from the bassist who get a knock on the
head from Kaoru. “ Don’t think you going to get away everytime.” But it also
did. Shinya, Die and Toshiya nodded in agreement.
Kyo arrival another hour later and meet with a very angry Kaoru
the moment he walks into the studio. Kyo could sense the anger in Kaoru but he
was also in a very damn bad mood today and was not going to start an argument
with Kaoru.” I’m sorry Kaoru but can you leave the scolding to another day?”
Kyo ignored the answer assuming Kaoru would follow what he says.
The other three men gathered at one side whispering. “ Wah new
tactic and far more superb than your Toshiya.” Shinya agreed with his lover. “
And it work!” Toshiya added when he see Kaoru moving back to his desk gathering
some file. “Kyokyo in a bad mood today even Kaoru don’t dare to poke him.”
Toshiya stands up and walks to his lover.
No practices for the day only some meeting within the members
about their new song. Kaoru showing the others song that he had wrote while Die
and Shinya was away and the groups give opinion on each song. Soon it was
called for a day.
“ KaoKao I think I going back to Kyo place tonight.” Toshiya
inform his lover when they were about to leave and Kaoru offer to send the two
men back since Kyo was not driving today.
The journey was a quiet one with Kyo and Toshiya sitting at the
back seat.
Toshiya follow closely behind Kyo while they get up the apartment.
A speechless Kyo was very abnormal to the bassist who knows something is wrong
with the vocalist and the reason possibly comes from Gackt. Kyo settle on the
sofa once he enters the house while Toshiya went to the kitchen to get them
some drinks.
“ Here.” He passed one can of beer to Kyo and sit beside him. “
What’s about this time?” He asked as soon.
Kyo sigh and sleep down onto the sofa resting his head on Toshiya
leg. Another hand of his was searching something on the table and come up to be
a magazine. Kyo flip to one of the page and show Toshiya. “ He’s flirting.” He
adds.
Toshiya quickly glance through the report and a trail of sweat
appears on his head. “ You mean this?” He tries to hold his laughter but seem
fail and a pouting Kyo give him a killer glare. “ Common Kyo, it’s just a
report.”
“ But it true isn’t it?”
Toshiya sweatdrop. He did not expect Kyo to be getting jealous
over the article; he smiled thinking how cute Kyo had become after he and Gackt
become lover.
“ I don’t even understand why he agreed to shot [Moon child] then
I realized because Hyde was also in.”
But it was after Gackt had agreed isn’t it?
“
See what Hyde said here.” Kyo pointed to one of the part. “ He says the moment
he opens his eye, he meet Gackt face and that stupid Gackt even say he wanted
to kiss Hyde.”
Mine… mine maybe Gackt-san was just joking.
“
He was flirting!” Kyo insisted.
Remember your Levin matter? Gackt-san have forgiven you
even it is a fact but now it was just an article saying all this and you get
upset over it?
“ I’ve called him and he say it was real that he felt like kissing
Hyde.”
“ WHAT?” He admits?
“ I ask him go to hell the moment I heard that and hanged up the
phone.”
He never explained? Mmm… Impossible. I think it’s you who
never listen to his call after that, am I right?
“
I think he have fall in love with that Hyde. That man was a beauty though I
really doesn’t want to admit it.”
Hmm… it true… But Kyo, Toshiya
paused and sounds serious. “I’m prettier!” Kyo nearly slip down the sofa.
Toshiya was laughing all the way satisfy that his joke has works.
See Kyo I believe Gackt-san have reason behind it, let him
explain before you set your conclusion okay. By the way I have gave him a call
just now, he’ll be over soon.
“You called him? When?”
Forget about when I call him. I’m leaving now and you
better clear your jealousy with Gackt-san.
“
What jealousy.” Kyo blushed.
The
next day in studio, Kyo have arrival on time but the others were earlier than
him. As soon as he enters the studio Kyo notice the other was giggling while
they look at him. “ What the hell are you guy giggling at?” He hate that
feeling properly guessed that they were saying something about him.
Die was the one speaking first. “ Ne Kyo we didn’t know our dear
Kyo baby would get jealous.” Die broke into laughter. “ Especially over a small
article…” The room was filled with laughter from the other.
Kyo frowned. “ Oh is it? But at least I didn’t stab anyone out of
jealousy.”
Silent hovered inside the studio. Shinya looked down on his drum
guilty, Toshiya sweatdrop, Kaoru glared angrily at the vocalist for mentioning
thing he shouldn’t have and Die was all over his Koi to see if the man okay.
Isn’t it the best to shut you guy up… Humph.
~~~
Does Gackt really want to kiss Hyde?
“ Yes, that stupid idiot had admitted.” But this time Kyo
wasn’t that angry in his tone, he was blushing instead.
Something more to it, am I right?
Kyo nodded. “ He say he missed me and see me in that Hyde
so he had the rush to kiss him at the moment.”
Hyde? You? Oh Gackt-san must be too tired recently and was
imagining thing.
“ What do you mean?” Kyo hiss.
You two were totally different kind. Get it? Okay if you
say ‘one always a beauty in his lover eyes’ this convince me that Gackt-san
think Hyde into you.
“ Totchi! Does that mean I’m ugly?”
Nope Kyokyo, you’re always cute in my eyes. Hahaha…
“ CUTE?” Kyo frowned. “ I rather choose to be ugly.”
~~
~End~
[8/06/03]
Note: The inspiration come from [Moon Child] article where I read the part Gackt trying to kiss Hyde then I start thinking what will Kyo react, I just want to write something about it and well it come up to this pointless fic. Hahaha…