Brotherly Love

By Tsmr

 

Part Five

 

I had sent Toshiya back after he had calm down; he has been keeping silent in the car, and had been staring outside the window all the while. I did not give him any respond since just now when he beg me not to pick any of the woman, all I did was comforting him when he cry and all he understand was that I am not angry with him.

 

I could not understand why all Toshiya cares about were not to anger me, everything that concern of me; he will always do his best for me. I am a selfish person, I hurt him one time follow by another but he never really get angry at me, moreover Toshiya always admit that he is the wrong one, and always putting the blame on himself.

 

Toshiya love me, and this is the only explanation I can think of why he had did so much for me. He will be a great lover, I understand clearly this fact, it the matter of what he is to me now. I treat him like my brother at first when I meet him until he told that he loves me but as a lover, I still treat him like my brother, the reason is, I had avoid his kiss, avoided every intimate action from him. I finally know what he is to me now from all this basis but then why did I get anxious that Toshiya will be angry when my mum talks about the matchmaking? Why did I feel the ache in my heart everytime he cries in front of me?

 

“ KAORU LOOK OUT!” Toshiya exclaim had alert me, just in time for me to stops the car before it bang into the tree. “ Kaoru are you okay?” Toshiya immediately look all over me to search for any injury when the car brakes.

 

I remain silent looking at Toshiya who is still anxiously looking all around me. “ Painful, very painful, here.” I slowly take his hand and place it on my left chest.”

 

“ Your heart?” Toshiya was about to burst out crying again but he did not this time. “ I sent you to the hospital.”

 

“ Toshiya…” I stop him. “ I’m alright.” Toshiya don’t seem to believe me.

 

 It truth that I am alright, my heart is painful because upon thinking of how Toshiya had treat me and how I had treated him in return, I was so ashamed of myself. It was really a great waste for him to have me as his lover. Did I really happen to make him happy once?

 

“ Are you really okay?” Toshiya touches my chest lightly.

 

I held his hand. “ Are you alright?” I whispered, glancing into his eyes. “ You have been making a fuss in me but are you okay too?” I began to check for his external injury and was relieve that there was none.

 

“ I’m alright.” I notice the slight blush on Toshiya face when he speaks.

 

After making sure that both of us was okay, we continue our way to Toshiya apartment. I stopped my car in front of the apartment when we reached. It was then that Toshiya finally look at me while he say goodbye to me. I did not know why when I suddenly grip his wrist when he was getting out, Toshiya take around and stare at me in surprised.

 

“ I won’t pick any of the girl and I would not go for the matchmaking, I promised.” I said to Toshiya as he seat back on the seat.

 

I know this is the answer he had been waiting for. I am not sure have I did something wrong at this moment when I say this but all I know was the happy and blissful look on Toshiya and the smile he gave to me, it make me happy too.

 

“ Thank you, Kaoru and good night.”

 

This silly man had been crying and laughing so many times just in one day and all this was because of me. “ Good night and don’t be late for practices tomorrow.” I nearly laugh out thinking of his changes of facial expression throughout the whole day.

 

Toshiya gives me a pout and make a face to me.

 

Maybe I should treat Toshiya as my lover and stop taking him as my brother. It was so unfair to Toshiya if I keep on finding my brother in him, I should let go now, I should cherish him before I regard, I know I should… “ Toshiya…” I stretch out my hand and held him closer to me, I place a kiss on him and he look totally surprise by my action, and was blushing now. “ Good night.” I whisper at his ear.

 

Toshiya did not mutter a word since then and he get off the car, walking directly back to his apartment. I was thinking that he might be too excited by my action. I was not feeling that happy, not knowing why.

 

 

 

“ You’re back, what took you so long?” Mum asked the moment I enter my apartment. The whole apartment seems to have been clean up by mum and it is done within this short while? She is really a housewife, I giggle as I think of it.

 

“ I’ve sent Toshiya back.”

 

Mum seems a bit of unusually excitement on her face. She walks out of the kitchen with two cups of coffee on her hand, handling one cup to me before she took a seat in front of me. I was thinking was she going to say about the matchmaking thing again and how I am going to tell her that I was not going to attend, but she had say something that I believe it shaken my heart again and properly changes my life…

 

“ Son, do you think Toshiya look like your brother?” I gaze at my mum an did not mutter anything since that.

 

The next morning, mum had returned home early since I had told her that I was not going to the matchmaking. I sent her to the train station before I go for the band practices.

 

On the way to practices, the question that mum ask me yesterday appear in my mind again, ~ do Toshiya look like my brother? I thought I had finally opens my heart to Toshiya. If mum did not mention it again, I will have accept the fate but after what she said I had then realize that I actually had not truly accept Toshiya because the moment I kiss him, I still avoid his lips.

 

I kiss him on his forehead… like my brother.

 

 

 

I opened the door of the studio unexpected of being hit by the ‘flying object’. The sound inside the room stops down, changing to a shriek and a familiar voice. “ Kaoru are you alright?” Toshiya run toward me, looking at my head where the object hit me.

 

“ This isn’t a playground.” I exclaimed, pushing Toshiya hand away intentionally. “ Let’s start practicing now!” I did not looked at Toshiya but I could imagine his hurt expression now.

 

Toshiya seem to be a worm inside my body, knowing what I am thinking. “ It okay Kaoru, I know it work time and you dislike the others to know about us.” Toshiya had whisper to me before he walks back to his position.

 

I really hated myself. Why did Toshiya still think for me now? Would you still do so if you know that I push your hand away deliberately and it is not because I do not like the others to know nor it is work time, it is because I felt uneasy! Torn between what you are to me again…

 

 

 

 

Part Six

 

Why do I have to be torn between the feeling of love and ‘kinship’? Why is it had to be Toshiya?

 

But… will I still love Toshiya if it weren’t that he feels like my brother in the beginning? I don’t know, I really don’t know. These questions had been bothering me ever since that day when my mum asked me whether Toshiya looks like my brother and it had been a month now, I have been avoiding Toshiya.

 

Toshiya was finding all sorts of excuses for me, making both of us to feel better, but I understand clearly that I was hurting him day by day. He tries to act normal in front of me, smiling to me and joke around with the others but I have notice many times that when there is no one around, the sad expression on his face was obvious.

 

 

I was doing some paperwork during the lunchtime; actually I was trying to avoid Toshiya who is sitting quietly at the other corner. He was fixing his bass but not really seem like he was really fixing to me, I had notice that he had been stealing glance at me. I did not want to have eye contact with him and had been keeping my eye on the paper until I heard Die.

 

“ What happened to our dear Totchi?” I looked up at them; Die was standing in front of Toshiya now.

 

“ I’m taking this to the office.” I say before Toshiya had, and walk straight out of the studio. Toshiya was looking at me, which I have no doubt about it. “ You have finished the schedule?” Die asked and I nod without looking back at them.

 

The door had closed up lightly behind me and I was stilling standing in front of the studio. I have not really finish the tour schedule but I just wanted to get out of the room where Toshiya was in. I sighed and walk away slowly, our practice will be everyday, am I going to do this everyday?

 

 

“ What’s wrong with you?” Die seated down and asked, hearing Toshiya sighing. “ You weren’t yourself recently.”

 

Toshiya sigh again. “ Nothing, I’m just tired.” Toshiya simply answer and wanted to get up while Die pulled him back suddenly. Toshiya did not protest when he sees the serious look on Die.

 

…

 

“ What! Kaoru and you are lover?” Die was extremely mystified and excited at the same time. Die starts recalling the time when Kaoru was asking him all sort of question regarding about relationship but he never suspect Kaoru was actually asking for himself. Though Die understand how sad the bassist was feeling but he just could not held his laughter when he think of Kaoru falling in love.

 

Toshiya pouted when Die start laughing. “ I shouldn’t have told you.” The bassist was getting angry now thinking that Die was making fun of the situation where he and Kaoru was in. “ Just don’t tell anyone else.”

 

“ Wait.” Die pulled Toshiya back as the later was leaving. “ I’m sorry, but believe me, I was laughing because I just could not imagine Kaoru falling in love.” Die wanted to laugh out again but he held it this time. “ I can help you.”

 

“ Help me?” Toshiya seat back down.

 

“ Yes. I’ll make sure Kaoru would tell you how much he love you when my plan work.” Die know clearly that his plan would work because he know Kaoru do love the bassist from the question Kaoru had used to ask him, it just that Kaoru does not understand his truth feeling toward the bassist, well maybe.

 

Die was thinking that this would be fun. A workaholic man first time in love plus an innocent and almost foolish man are in love… Die giggled. “ Just leave everything to me.”

 

…

 

Why did the time passed so fast? I asked myself when the lunch time is finally over, meaning that I would have to go back again. Maybe I should wait a little longer for Shinya and Kyo to return so that we can start practicing immediately? I keep muttering to myself and was turning circle, properly looking like an idiot now.

 

“ Kaoru?” Someone called me suddenly, scaring me like hell.

 

Shinya and Kyo had just returned I think. “ Okay, let start practicing.” I was not really hearing what they was saying, and the three of us return to the studio, which I expect to see Toshiya sad face again.

 

I heard laughing sound inside the studio as I was nearer and nearer, was now sure that the laughing belonged to Die. Shinya did not wait and he opens the door. “ We’re back.” He said.

 

I was still thinking what had made the gloomy Toshiya smiling again.

 

Kyo was yawning.

 

Shinya dropped his bag.

 

Kyo mouth was kept opened.

 

I saw Die and Toshiya was… “ What going on?” I frown.

 

“ We didn’t meant to mess up the room, it was just…” Die had not finished when Toshiya yelled and jump onto Die back. “ It’s there!” He exclaimed pointing to something.

 

“ Cockroaches!!!?” Shinya yelled and jump onto the sofa, I mainly walk away trying my best to remain clam, which I was actually scared like hell.

 

“ What’s the big deal?” Kyo walk over to the small thing and pick it up. “ It was so cute…!” And there goes the poor thing life as Kyo tear it up.

 

Shinya had seat down onto the sofa after the alarm.

 

My heart was beating fast as I walked beside Die, trying to keep away from Kyo, who’s know he would throw that thing to me? Okay, I know Kyo would not dare but I just do not want to test my luck.

 

Die was laughing, properly at the alarm the cockroach had given us. “ It’s death, can you get off me now?” Die smirk, referring to Toshiya. I help Toshiya down from Die, and all our common reaction was keeping our eyes on Kyo.

 

WHO KNOW HE WOULD THROW THAT THING TO US!

 

Right, I admit this cockroach did give us an alarm, when I come to realize, I was still holding onto Toshiya hand. “ Throw it away!” Toshiya sound begging and Shinya nod with agreement. Toshiya had not realized it I think and I let go of my hand before he does.

 

The practices went on quite smoothly after that and ended few hours later. As usual, I would expect Toshiya to be waiting for me, hoping that I would talk to him or ask him out which I have not done so till now. He knows I wouldn’t but he still wait for me everyday, he would stay back after practices and pretend doing something. Everytime, everyday, he would wait until I left, and he would leave sadly, he did not know that I was actually hiding out there looking at him.

 

I hurt him badly.

 

“ Are you really to go?” I heard Die speaking and was surprise when Toshiya eventually left with him today. I looked at them leaving, which I have eye contact with Toshiya finally after avoiding him for so long as he did glance at me before the door close.

 

Do you want me to say anything?

 

Do you expect me to do anything?

 

I was wondering… because there was nothing in his pair of beautiful eyes, except sadness.

 

I did not do anything; I lowered my head and continue with my load of paperwork. Where my heart had gone…

 

 

 

Toshiya was still standing outside the shut door. This is just a piece of wood but why is he feeling so far away from Kaoru? Somehow he felt sadness overtake him and before long he felt his eyes was wet.

 

“ Let’s go.” Die pulled the bassist behind him, knowing that Toshiya was crying. Kaoru is his best friend, Toshiya was also an important bandmate to him, he know he would do anything he can to help the two. 

           

 

 

Die and Toshiya were having their dinner together, and Toshiya weren’t putting in much attention at all. He was now thinking whether Kaoru had left the studio, whether he have had his dinner and all sort of thing regarding Kaoru. Die sighed, he had been talking all the while but still could not get the bassist attention. In Die conclusion, Kaoru and Toshiya would make a good pair if they were to clear up their doubt, and the problem falls on Kaoru.

 

“ Toshiya?” Die pouted; it had been the third time he’s calling the bassist without any reply. “ It’s Kaoru.”

 

“ Where?” Toshiya was fast in respond this time, was now busy looking around for his target.

 

Toshiya pouted upon knowing that Die was making fun of him. Okay, he admits he was wrong for not paying attention to Die but he felt like struggling Die now for using this joke.

 

“ Okay, let me tell you this plan.” Die changes the topic. “ I want you to corporate with me in order to get the plan work, is it all right with you?” Die starts telling his plan without waiting for the bassist to agreed, as he knows Toshiya would.

 

After Die had finish, Toshiya face blushed slightly. “ Do you think it work?”

 

“ Of course! Just believe me.” Die giggled.

 

 

 

 

Part seven

 

I was having a bad mood for the past week. There was loads of thing for the band to do before the tour starts and there was even more thing for me to complete before the others can continue with it. I had my work done slow this time, I admit there was other thing bothering me and I have keep it to myself. Our practice was being affected as well and I was worried that it might affect our tour.

 

“ This is the tour schedule.” I passed the papers to the rest of them and stole a glance at Toshiya then to Die

 

These entire problems occur because of my personal matter and I admit to it although the other did not say anything about it. How should I say about it? My mind was not with me whenever the band is together and this is totally because of my doubt for Toshiya and Die. Since that day when Toshiya left with Die, they had been leaving after the band practice everyday and I had notice that Toshiya had not been paying much attention to me where he used to.

 

“ Is there any problem?” I was getting impatient and sound harsh somehow.

 

I stole another glance at Toshiya, he was discussing something with Shinya and they seem to agree with it. They passed it to Die where Toshiya start discussing with him. I felt my temper rise when I saw them laughing at each other. I know this is nothing special for bandmate to be chatting and laughing with one another but the thought of them together was somehow driving me mad.

 

Am I jealous?

 

“ If there is no problem, let start our practice.” I sound shrieking, properly I was trying to break the good atmosphere between Toshiya and Die, which it work I think.

 

Just this morning, I saw them getting here together. I was at the hallway where I saw Die car driving into the carpark and Toshiya was with him. Why is Toshiya with him again? This is the question that came into my mind. Nothing special actually but I admit I was jealous to see them together.

 

Die love woman and I know this fact well. What I just could not understand was what the two was doing together for the past week. What had causes Toshiya to change so suddenly? Had he given up on me because I had been ignoring him all this time? Had he been following Die around and mix with all those women with thick perfume and make-up?

 

“ Let’s start now!” I ordered.

 

The practice went on for quite some time before it finally ended. Everyone was packing their belonging and Die approaches Toshiya again when he finishes his. They exchange some words and Toshiya starts laughing, I just did not know what was going on with myself as I felt my temper rise.

 

What the hell was Toshiya sticking to Die all day long!?

 

I was staring at them, where I had not even noticing it myself until Die look at me and gave me a smile. I felt myself tensing up and this sentence just came out of me. “ Stop bringing Toshiya to fool around with you!” When I realized, everyone was looking at me with surprise. “ I mean the tour is near so stop fooling around and effect the tour.” I added, trying to stay calm after what I had brut out earlier on.

 

“ Hey we are not fooling around!” Die protest. “ We had been staying at my house.”

 

Staying at your house? What the two of you was doing in Die place? I wanted so much to ask Toshiya but I did not, maybe I felt I do not have the right to interfere Toshiya.

 

“ See you guys tomorrow.” Die had pulled Toshiya out before I had a chance to say a thing. “ Bye!” Toshiya added before the door close behind him.

 

It was obvious this time; Toshiya was glancing at me with his usual sad expression where I had not see it for the week. “ Toshiya?” I muttered.

 

Maybe I had not realized that for the past week, what was bothering me was only concern on what is going on with Die and Toshiya, and I had not realized that another matter that was bothering me all the while was not even in consider by me now. I had forgotten totally about was Toshiya a lover or brother to me.

 

If I were to realized this fact earlier, maybe this would not happen later…

 

 

 

“ Do you want Kaoru to open the door and ask you why are you still standing here?” Die was getting impatient when Toshiya was stilling unwilling to leave the studio. “ Come on.” He pulled Toshiya with him before the others came out of the studio.

 

“ Do you think we shouldn’t choose this time to force Kaoru?”

 

Toshiya had starts to regret; especially when he sees what they are doing now was affecting Kaoru. Toshiya admit that he was happy when he sees Kaoru getting upset by Die and himself but at the same time, he was worry about Kaoru. Toshiya was unhappy too, he had listen to Die and had force himself to stay away from Kaoru.

 

“ Didn’t you see how Kaoru react when he heard that you had been going to my home?” Die seems excited. “ He was acting wired now, his temper was big and he had neglected his work. Don’t you understand what all this had prove?”

 

Die was trying to force Kaoru into admitting his love for the bassist where it seem to him that his plan was working and he was confirm that Kaoru would goes crawling to the bassist and tell the bassist how much he love him. Knowing this, Die would not allow his plan to stop half way. “ Just relax, the tour would be fine.” Die pat Toshiya, comforting the bassist.

 

This is just the first plan and Die believe that Kaoru would admit his love toward Toshiya when his other two plans went on successfully, it just the matter that Toshiya would cooperate with him.

 

 

 

Die car had just driven off and my lover was sitting in that car. I pull out a cigarette and light it up, blowing a puff to the air. Die love woman! I keep telling myself this but why am I having this feeling that Die was after Toshiya? What would Toshiya do if it really so?

 

I was feeling so regret now as I finally understand I cannot lose Toshiya, he is an important person in my life. “ Hey where are you going?” I heard Kyo yelling behind me but I ignored him and rush to the carpark.

 

I was speeding on the road toward Die apartment when I finally caught sight of Die car; I step on the oil and drive nearer to them. I assume that Die had saw my car approaching and he stop his car at the side, a while later, I was behind them.

 

“ Gosh, faster than I expected!” Die was grinning and Toshiya blushed hard.

 

“ Toshiya!” I exclaim when I walk to Die car, they were staring at me, it seem that they are waiting for me to say something.

 

“ Wah what’s going on to have you chasing behind us like that?” Die smirk. “ Looking for Toshiya?”

 

Toshiya was staring at me with his big round eyes, waiting for me to say something to him.

 

“ Ehh… it was… actually… I…” I did not know what happening to me as I start to get nervous and was speechless somehow; all I did was staring back at Toshiya who was still waiting for me to say something. “ Just… just that I came to remind you guy that there is practice tomorrow.” I exclaimed, it was the most nonsense thing I had say.

 

I admit I had really anger Toshiya this time. Who on earth would go chasing after a car and tell them that there was practice tomorrow when it was a compulsory practice and everyone had known about it.

 

Toshiya frown.

 

I think Die must have been driven crazy by me.

 

“ Kaoru.” Toshiya spoke suddenly. “ YOU FOOL!”

 

He yelled at me and order Die to drive away where Die follow as order, leaving me standing in front of my car stun, cursing myself for what I had done. Now I had make thing worse, didn’t I?

 

 

 

Die was too so mad at Kaoru stupid act and he knows how angry Toshiya was now. “ He was a fool!” Toshiya muttered. Die did not say a thing after that, as he knows the bassist was now crying. Who would expect Kaoru to destroy this wonderful chance to get his lover back and worse of all, he had ruined it with his stupid act.

 

“ It’s alright Totchi.”

 

…

 

Die was comforting the crying bassist.

 

“ Die, do you think Kaoru really love me?”

 

Tears drip down from Toshiya beautiful face.

 

 

 

 

 

Part Eight

 

 

Thing was getting worse between Toshiya and me since that day I make a fool of myself in front of Die and Toshiya. Till now, I was still cursing myself for saying that load of rubbish to Toshiya. My courage seem to disappear the moment Toshiya was in front of me, I did not understand why is it so? Thing was not right now, Toshiya really seem to avoid me and his action was obvious.

 

We were having our last rehearsal before the tour start tomorrow. It was a light practice today and all of us was in our top condition, which I believe the tour were be a successful one though so much problem had occur in between.

 

“ How about dinner together?” Shinya suggest when we were having our break. “ Then have an early night.” Die added for Shinya, knowing the drummer would always have this suggestion whenever there is tour to make sure that all of us would get home early and have a good rest.

 

Shinya glared at Die.

 

Die giggles and turn to Toshiya, whispering something to him. I pretended doing something, keeping myself busies before all the wild thinking comes into my mind again. Just seeing them talking was enough to drive me mad recently, I just did not understand what is keeping me to tell Toshiya that I love him.

 

I put the papers into the file and take them out again; I straighten the papers again and put them back into the file. My hand was moving, making myself seem busy but maybe none of them had notice that I was actually glancing at Toshiya. “ Toshiya!” I exclaim before I realize I was shouting at him.

 

The others stop what they are joking about and turn back staring at me in curiosity, especially Toshiya; he was staring at me in doubt. “ Yes?” He asked.

 

I curse myself at this moment. Why did I shout Toshiya name just because I see him laughing at Die? Yes! It was because Toshiya was smiling to Die with a smile that I had not see for a long time, the smile which he would only show me in the past.

 

I was jealous at the moment, I admit.

 

“ Kaoru?”

 

I rubbed my temple. “ Sorry, nothing Toshiya.” I was like a fool again?

 

They return to their jokes and laughter was being heard again. I was glad that they did not go on further asking me what is going on. I seated back on the chair, Toshiya was still looking at me…

 

Sadness in his beautiful eyes again.

 

~~~

 

Toshiya was lying on the sofa when Die comes out from the kitchen with two can of drink. He passed one of it to the bassist and takes a seat on the single sofa. “ Aren’t you afraid your tummy would show?” Die teased. “ You just have your dinner…”

 

A bag goes flying toward Die, hitting him on the face.

 

…

 

“ Don’t you think Kaoru was wired during and before the dinner?” Toshiya weren’t in the mood to play with Die who was now rubbing his face, protesting somehow to the bassist for hitting him with the bag.

 

“ He had been avoiding me all this time but he called me just now and for no reason…” Toshiya sit up from the sofa. “ Then he apologize and keep quiet throughout the rest of the practice and during dinner.”

 

Die was still stroking his face, smiling somehow. “ Isn’t it obvious?”

 

“ Huh?”

 

“ Just follow what I tell you to do tomorrow during the concert.” Die throws the bag back to the bassist.

 

Toshiya sigh and lay back on the sofa, wondering how long must he wait until Die plan would work on Kaoru. Does Kaoru really love him? “ I know he does… I hope…” Toshiya muttered slightly as he soon fall asleep on the sofa.

 

Die finish his drink and goes into his room, taking out a blanket and cover it on the bassist. He look at the sleeping man, a smile appear on his face, “ Silly, isn’t it obvious that Kaoru love you…” He says to the sleeping man.

 

…

 

The crazy screaming and yelling from the fans was loud enough to be heard by us, the concert was half way through now and thing was going on fine. We went onto the stage again after a short rest; Shinya was behind me where Kyo had already gone onto the stage. I take another look behind where Die and Toshiya was whispering to each other, they did not notice me. What are they talking about?

 

My heart was not feeling right… it was like something was squeezing my heart…

 

The drum starts and we follow by, fans were yelling like crazy at each of our name. Just as we start moving around, the yelling sound increases suddenly. I looked up and nearly get my line wrong when I saw Toshiya bending down in front of Die and was actually licking his guitar! I know there would be fan services but it not supposes to be them doing it this time!

 

I don’t care about what fan services it would be but not this guitar-licking thing.

 

I get my line wrong again where Kyo had noticed it; maybe all of them had notice about me making the mistake continually. Anyway I admit the action was driving me mad, I was glaring at them for the time being until the song ended, I believe.

 

Toshiya walks back when the song ended, we have the first eye contact today and we avoided each other. All I notice was he wasn’t that happy to what I think at first, there was somehow sadness in his eyes. He lowered his head and stand quietly behind me as the next song started and for the rest of the concert.

 

 

 

“ Toshiya!” Toshiya storm passed me and Die was yelling and walking after him as soon as we return to the backstage. It was quite wired that Toshiya was the first one to return backstage and why is Die running after him?

 

Shinya was staring at me then to Kyo, there was no answer.

 

I was bother by it… what the hell is going on between Die and Toshiya? Something bad flooded my mind… is there something between Die and Toshiya? I always believe Die loves woman and only woman.

 

It can’t be…

 

 

 

“ Wait!” Die finally gets hold of the bassist. “ What’s wrong and why did you…” Die was in doubt too because it was not his plan for the guitar licking fan service. He was also surprise when Toshiya bend down and lick his guitar earlier on.

 

Toshiya finally stopped. It wasn’t supposed to be like this, Toshiya was feeling extremely upset after what he did on the stage. He felt disgust at himself. It was true that Die had asked him to went sticking around him during the concert in order to make Kaoru jealous but Toshiya just could not understand what he is thinking at the moment when he actually lick Die guitar.

 

Die was panic when Toshiya starts to cry out of a sudden, he immediately pulled the bassist to a corner before other people start-saying thing about them. Die just stands still, letting Toshiya resting his head on his shoulder.

 

Toshiya was gripping onto Die hand. “ I’m sorry… I just didn’t know why I did that and now I felt so disgust by it…”

 

“ It’s okay, I’m just worried cause you looking so upset out of a sudden… though you felt disgust but it’s great.”

 

“ Huh? Great?” Toshiya looked up at Die. 

  

“ Kaoru was jealous… sure he is this time.” Die holds Toshiya face with both his hand. “ He’s making mistake continually in a song.” Die squeezes the bassist face. “ Didn’t he?” Die smirk.

 

Toshiya was struggling to get off Die grasp on his face. Die laughter get louder when he see the cute look on the bassist while trying to get off his grasp before he decided to let go, and Toshiya was now holding onto his face, protesting at Die for ‘torturing’ his face.

 

Toshiya finally smile.

 

 

 

I did not know what they were talking about.

 

I stood here watching them, crying and laughing…

 

They did not see me, not noticing my existing…

 

Toshiya…

 

 

 

I did not want to admit but…

 

Die, are you in love with Toshiya?

 

TBC~