Shadow


There are many explanations for who I am
Reasons why I am the way I am
I lived a complicated life in a simple way
I don't know how I ever did
I tortured myself in silence for acts I committed
And the little girl in me screams in pain
To be allowed to live again
Because she was suppressed so long ago
She speaks in riddles
Her words get in my way
Because of evil acts of abusive hatred
How can anyone ever truly get over that?
How can a girl shake that demon?
There's nothing anyone can do to help
I'm beyond the aid of the world
I'll be haunted forever by this ghost of lifetimes past
But surely my scars will have healed by now
Because I've learned to accept what's been done
No one will ever know
I, myself, will never know
Because the pain will only follow on
Casting a continuous shadow over me



© 12th August 2004
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