It's all out in the open now, except for one person I can't even remember it all Most of it is hazy I remember pieces here and there I can't quite put it all together I know you were there I know things were happening But I don't know what I know that my mind won't let me remember It knows what you said was true It just won't let me remember It says to me that if I do remember, I'll want to kill myself But I already want to do that I'm in too much pain to handle any more of this I have to say goodbye to you both I don't deserve either of you I have to say goodbye to everyone My head feels fuzzy and my mind feels weak And I know my future looks far too bleak