Don't throw it back at me You've already forgiven me So don't bring it up again This is still fresh in my mind I don't think you understand Just how deep this goes I'm not allowed to feel I'm not allowed to grieve I'm not allowed to be the way I need to be You of all people should know how that feels I'm not taking anything out on you I'm not wanting to put you in the middle I'm trying to make you understand Even if you don't talk of him You still talk of the other And in the circumstances They are one and the same I only ask for understanding Stop forcing me to move on I need time That's the one thing I'm not getting From you or from anyone If I had my way, I'd say goodbye to you all But I'm not that selfish And even if I did say goodbye There's the small matter of a debt to remind me Just what I had and lost So don't tell me that you're hurting just as bad I'm crippled for a good number of years