I can't believe it's come to this I can't believe I contemplated what I did last night Painkillers Too much pain All I wanted was for all this mess to go away You made me promise If I broke the promise, you'd push the dagger into your very soul If I broke the promise, he'd follow me I'd kill so many people by killing myself But I take other people's feelings into account with everything that I do When can I just sit down and say "I'm going to do this just because I want to And because it's the best for me"? That day will never come because I'm too nice Other people will always come first That's why I can't choose That's why I want one, but not the other, but still can't choose That's why I'd rather have neither Because I can't take one and hurt the other No matter which one I'd choose, I'd still be hurting the other Why can't it be simple?