Head Above Water


Tired of not knowing the reasons
For my discomfort
I cannot break through this barrier
I cannot escape anymore
I fear I cannot weather
This storm a-brewing
Who will stand here next to me?
I have no choices
But the ones I left behind
I will not heed the warnings
I will not break free from torment

Hey you, why are you sad?
I'm waiting for the blade
And I'm not insured
Just think, we'll be together soon
That much I know
But it's not enough
Just tell me that you love me
And that should be enough
To keep my head above water

And the simple thought of drowning
Brings comfort to my tired mind
I cannot dance in his light
I cannot bask in his presence
I am not getting away with
Being all messed up
I feel like nothing I've felt before

Am I ready for what's to come?
I'm aching for the grave
It's not okay, because I'm unsure
I can't breathe
I just can't breathe

I'm out in deep water
Unable to swim
But I'm floating anyway

Don't know how, but I guess I'll survive



© 21st December 2004
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