The abuse hits me again Just like it does every time I feel hurt There is no release There is no gateway to peace
It keep coming back Each time I see a change Each time you say a word That used to mean something to me But it still means that something Although I'm not allowed to feel it
I'm not allowed anything Not you, not your friendship I'm not even allowed to know your well-being The isolated feeling arises once more
I'm being shut out Closed away And the one thing keeping me company Is the abuse No one thought that would happen Because no one ever thinks about me