I can laugh about it But I don't want to anymore It's just not funny I'm out in the cold Destroying myself And pretending I'm enjoying it Why must I do this to hide the pain? Why can't I show the pain? Because it makes things worse in the end It makes me look like I can't cope But dammit, I can't help what's true I can't cope I need help And I'm getting help but it's causing even more pain Because other things have to suffer At my going under Why can't I stay strong? Why can't I just deal? Because I can't There is no reason I just can't