| Monday March 22, 2004 -- 4:45pm I'm having an I Suck And I Do Everything Wrong/Don't Know What I'm Doing sort of day today. And my boss gave her notice today. I don't know if that's good or bad. I honestly don't. It could go either way, or just be completely neutral. I'm jonesing for a good therapy session or two, but that's not a possibility at the moment. Worse... I'm jonesing for the museum! It's bad. I should probably make it a point to stop in there sometime soon, so that I can feel outraged and betrayed, get all emotionally entwined and twisted, and get back to feeling glad that I no longer work there. I miss it, and I hate that I miss it. And I know I can't go back, because it would be too hard to accept the changes - particularly the changes in my role. Somebody slap me, please! Did I mention that I got the 8 millionth flat tire of my life the other day? Hey! Maybe I have a new List for the Home Page! Hahahaha Sunday March 21, 2004 -- 9:30am Happy Birthdays to my brother! Bob! and Angie! and Johann Sebastian Bach! As usual, I am a huge jerk and didn't manage to gets cards out to any of them. Sorry loves! I'm thinking of you! Well, yesterday Steve and I finally ventured into the used record store. We got away fairly unscathed, having only dropped $30 and aquired 4 cds. Steve picked up a Cat Stevens collection and something by the Dixie Dregs, while I found the Squirrel Nuts Zippers album I've wanted for years and a strange thing from Tricky - It's sort of like Tricky put together a little mix cd of his favorites for me. Interesting. Pretty ecclectic mix. My mind is reeling with all of the music I want to buy. Yesterday I kind of just stood there, overwhelmed and flipping randomly through the stacks, figuring I'd come across something definite eventually. I've decided that I'm going to finish entering the text of the Newfoundland Journal without the photos. I'll go back and add them in later, and I'll mention something in here about it, in case anyone's interested in seeing them. Unfortunately, I seem to have lost some of them during the whole Virus Ordeal, plus they are scattered over a bunch of floppies and generally have become an all around pain in the ass. But I'll get them there! Also, Stick Figure Theater really IS coming soon. Wednesday March 17, 2004 -- 6:30pm Happy Saint Patrick's Day to everyone. I guess I had a tolerable one myself, aside from a flat tire and the fact that I may have got another bug of some sort on my computer. At least I know the ultimate cure now. It's prevention I don't seem to be as good at. I've been feeling very uncreative and non-visionary lately. I haven't done anything artistic or musical or writerly. I'm not even keeping up on email, phone calls, or anything else! I feel scattered and disorganized. Unfortunately, these things seem to be side-effects of general happiness for me. I guess it could be worse. I could have gas. Friday March 12, 2003 -- 4:30pm Well, I didn't end up bringing Minnie in with me today, because I ran out of time this morning. I also had a bad dream about her getting her paw snapped in one of the mouse traps upstairs. Now I'm here in the office all alone at 4:30 on a Friday. What to do, what to do? I am thinking about walking laps around the office, since I am getting rather girthful around the bottom recently. I could leave, I guess. Ho-hum. Thursday March 11, 2004 -- 9:30pm Yea, though I suck at my job, tomorrow shall be a good day, as my cat shall accompanieth me to work and chaseth the mice therein! It is amazing what a hit my job-related confidence has taken in the 10 months since I left the museum. When I was there, I knew what I was doing - even though I couldn't possibly get it done. I felt like I could handle anything. Give me a couple of months of boredom at the new job, and it was all down the crapper. Suddenly, I am scrambling to hide just how utterly unqualified I am to do my job, and how minimally I do any of it. The museum was my life. That was a sad thing - that it was my life - but now I'm a little bit at loose ends. Tuesday March 9, 2004 -- 9:10pm Today the director of my agency actually requested that I bring one of my cats in to work with me. It's like a dream come true! (Yes, I am Crazy Cat Lady.) Obviously Bennett could never handle all the trauma and socializing, but Minnie would adore it. Of course, she'd have to work too. There are mice in the attic and they are pooping on our very important documents and giant Monopoly piece cut-outs. We need a cat to scare them off. Minnie's just the gal for the job too. She smells very much like a big scary mouse-eating cat, but is probably too plump to actually catch mice... unless they are very stupid, slow mice, in which case that's their own damn fault. Saturday March 6, 2004 -- 9:30pm Hey! Tonight I baked my first ever loaves of bread! And it doesn't suck! I only had wheat flour, so I made wheat bread, and it doesn't even remotely resemble the delicious, invariably perfect loaves my grandmother used to churn out at alarming rates... but it doesn't suck! And the whole yeast/growing dough thing only freaked me out a little bit. Oh. And... um... Art. -- 3:15pm All vital installations (you know... AIM, sound card drivers...) are complete. Now it is time for updating hoopla! -- 9:15am I'd like to thank the Academy... Actually, I'd like to thank Steve, my dad, Paul from work, and Cousin Dan who all helped me get to this moment of computer functionality. Oh! And Shah, the guy who brought me back to Internet connectivity, despite my inability to understand him through his beautiful, lyrical accent. Now, if you'll excuse me, there is much re-installing to be done. Wednesday March 3, 2004 -- 10:10am I made a discovery this morning, a glorious discovery indeed. To fill my 12 ounce coffee mug at Stewart's costs only 80 cents!!! Whoa boy. This is an especially glorious discovery, since I have recently stopped liking Dunkin Donuts coffee, for no apparent reason other than it just doesn't taste good to me anymore. It costs less than half at Stewart's! Glorious! Of course, I just (without going into TOO much detail) backed up the toilet here at the office and had to face my toiletphobia and plunge the sucker. It was very gross, but I am getting better at this toilet thing. Next, I conquer FEET! Friday February 27, 2004 -- 10:30am Belated Happy Birthday to Dad Noel! Not that he'll see this, or that he has a computer, or anything like that. But it was still his birthday yesterday, and I feel you all should be informed of these things, in case you are looking for a reason to party. I went in for my B-12 fix this morning. Such lovely stuff, that red elixer of life. Coffee's not bad either, but I don't recommend taking that via needle in the arm. Not until it cools down anyway. The computer at home still isn't working right, but it did manage to stay running and even open programs for a little while last night. Maybe I'll try some crazy stunts, like accessing this web page, from home this weekend. The Newfoundland Chronicles have been in limbo for too long. Tuesday February 24, 2004 -- 1:50pm Ok. Here's the quick version: My computer at home caught something (probably V.D.) when I inadvertantly - really - uploaded some naked women doing filthy things. I tried to make it go away and probably deleted essential files in the process. Whatever. Most things still work. However, it absolutely positively refuses to let me open this program. So I can only update from work until I get the stupid machine straightened out. I'm thinking about sending it to a school for children with behavioral problems. Seriously. Steve says someone he knows there can fix it if all else fails. Thus, if I seem distant lately... it's not you. It's me. Actually, it's not even me. It's my computer and it's naughty habits. My Life Really Quickly: Sima = good, B12 = good to have, Happy Pancake Night! Watch your teeth. Friday February 20, 2004 -- 9:20am This is one of those I-Don't-Have-Kids-But-I-Still-Know-Everything rants that people with kids just love. Just to warn you. Does it trouble anyone else that children are now expected to know their letters and numbers before they are considered ready for Kindergarten? I'm pretty sure that's what we learned in Kindergarten! Two of my co-workers, whose children attend the same daycare, are upset because their 4 year olds spend the bulk of their days playing rather than learning how to write their names. Forgive me for being pompous here, but isn't playing how 4 years old learn what's important for 4 years olds to learn? Their little brains aren't ready to comprehend abstractions like letters and numbers. Those things have no meaning for them at that point. They are supposed to be figuring out things like: Scissors can cut you and that hurts. Pushing people isn't nice. Naptime is good. Gross motor skills. I know life is getting more and more competitive and all that, but there's a good chance we acheive the opposite results from what's desired when we rush kids through the basic important stuff... like learning how to play nice. Maybe I'll change my mind if I have my own kids (you know, on the farm) and I fully expect my mother to retort with a list of the full-length novels I read while in Nursery School, but ... um... well, that's about it I guess. Thursday February 19, 2004 -- 9:00am No, I haven't died. My computer did for a brief while, and ... um ... there were these alien dogs, see, and they ate my homework, then Ninja terrorists attacked and I had to use my super-powers to rescue the governor. So, you see, I have a perfectly reasonable explanation for not updating. Actually, my computer did have a small episode recently. It's still not 100%, but it's much better than it was. Apparently I aquired a mean little parasite of some sort. I've mostly gotten rid of it, but there are still a few quirks - including some that I probably caused by deleting things I shouldn't have. Heh. Also, you'll be glad to hear that I am officially mono-free. Unfortunately, I also seem to be Vitamin B12-free, which has a result remarkably similar to mono. You know what this means, don't you? Yes! I have to eat lots and lots of ice cream! And go for shots a lot. I already feel more energized though, and I have high hopes for the near future. Thursday February 5, 2004 -- 7:25pm Argh. There are few things as annoying as writing a brilliant (Brilliant, I tell you!) 'blog entry and then having your computer experience a complete mental breakdown before you've saved it. Trust me. It was brilliant. And I'm not just saying that because you'll never know. On the bright side, there is the spectacular Miss Sima Rae Miller, who went home with her Mom and Dad this week. Here is a picture stolen from her website. Wednesday February 4, 2004 -- 10:10am After a surprising victory at this year's Superbowl, Janet Jackson stuns the country with another record-setting showing at several primaries! Exciting stuff! Monday February 2, 2004 -- 10:05am In celebration of Groundhog's Day, Steve and I have both turned over a new leaf. Steve quit smoking, and I... well, I overslept, had a cookie for breakfast, drank a large amount of really strong coffee while driving too fast up the Northway and have spent the first hour of work avoiding anything actually resembling work. So, actually, only Steve has turned over a new leaf. I never liked groundhogs anyway. Awesome Superbowl game last night - with a favorable outcome even. Today I will celebrate by writing numerous boring reports and having 2 stressful meetings. Go, me! I should probably get started. Friday January 30, 2004 -- 4:20pm I don't regret leaving the museum. I know it was the only thing for me to do. I do, however, miss a lot of things about working there: - working with such cool, smart, silly, fun people - feeling so passionate about my job - always learning new, interesting things about the world - all the exercise I got running around the place - cool toys in the gift shop - left over birthday cakes Mostly the first one... especially when it's after 4:00 on a Friday and I'm feeling like the stranger in the building. On the bright side, the director here just ran up the hall and yelled, "The bug guy's here! You all have to leave early!" We tried to reason with her, we begged her to let us stay - it being Friday and all - but she's insisting we leave, so I guess I shall. Wednesday January 28, 2004 -- 2:40pm Well, don't you know we had to cancel the afterschool program again today and I could have stayed home! On the bright side, I did get some work done, and I didn't use up a personal day. -- 10:15am Can I go home now? The ride in to work today was ass. Complete ass. Stupid school districts! They cancelled activities yesterday afternoon, when the roads were fine and not a flake was falling. That meant I had to cancel my after-school program. Lame. But today, when the roads are (as previously mentioned) ass, they stay open! So, good little worker bee that I am, I opt not to give myself a snow day. I would have been on time to work, except that traffic came to a halt somewhere in Clifton Park and didn't exceed 5 miles per hour until Rexford. What normally takes me 15 minutes took almost an hour. If it hadn't been so close to work, I would have turned around and driven home. This is the second day in a row this has happened. I just looked at a map and there is no convenient route around the mess either. Apparently, there's some bridge off to the left that always has accidents on it. So I get stuck in the 15 mile long line of traffic waiting to turn left onto that bridge at the light. Grrrrr. The good news is that a lovely human being cleaned the snow off of my car and started it up for me so it was all nice and toasty warm by the time I had to get in it. Also, the Superoo continued to be the Godess of the Northway as we drove past other traffic at the reckless speed of 45 mph this morning. I'm not quite sure what to do with myself today. Or in general, for that matter. Friday January 23, 2004 -- 3:05pm Today our server only works when it feels like it, the toilet overflowed and flooded the place, and I discovered termites. Is it 5:00 yet? Puh-leeeease, can I go home??? Because I am bored and have been slacking off here, I will now do the Birthday Greetings Make-up Dance: Happy Birthday Pat! Happy Birthday Jay! and (early, because otherwise you know I'll do it late) Happy Birthday Kai!!! |
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