Author: Cat
Email: [email protected]
Rating: PG-13
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Dedication: To Jules, for being the best beta ever. To Rachel, because she supports me in everything I do and I will always put her name on every single dedication.

Still jealous because it didn't work out between you and me?

What an asshole. Me, jealous? In his dreams. Should I remind him that I'm the one who dumped him? Guys tend to forget that. Especially guys like him. I don't think his ego could get any bigger. I'm glad we're over. I knew back then what I know now, guys like Vaughn just don't stick around, always near some girl, trying to get lucky. He sure got lucky with me. I can't believe I fell for it. I was so stupid. I think he got me at hello. There's just this thing about him, every girl falls for it. That's exactly the problem, every girl falls for it and he takes advantage of that. Who cares that he has a girlfriend? Why would it get in the way with some 'innocent' flirting with a freaking groupie? It's not like it matters, right?

Well you know what? It mattered to me. Was I not good enough? Not smart, pretty, funny, or happy enough? What could he want from others than he couldn't get from me?

ARGH! What am I saying? It was NOT my fault!!! It was his fault. Not mine, his.

Okay I gotta calm down.

I think I loved him. Maybe I didn't. Or maybe I still do. I don't know. It's confusing. I liked him a lot, and for a while I felt that we were so close. We had the same goal, ambition, dream. We wanted the same. We were the same. Now, things have changed. We're friends. Can you be friends with someone you are really attracted to? What am I saying? I am not attracted to him anymore. I know him too well now. I know how he is. I know he talks while eating. I know he burps his fast food like a pig. I know he snores at night. I know he's self-centered. I know he's egotistical.

I know he's manipulative.

Jane, me and her�we're just friends�

Friends, my ass. I was an idiot but not that much of an idiot. To him, if there's no sexual contact, it's not cheating. It's just flirting, no betrayal whatsoever. Well I felt betrayed. I could not even trust him. There wasn't anything left between us. Except physical attraction. And that doesn't count when it comes to love. Love is about two people caring for each other. Two people who are committed to each other. I know it wasn't like that. I know he wasn't like that. And I know he was just an asshole.

But he was my asshole.