In the darkness of this dream I can see myself in a silent scream
Waiting to hear the silence give,Waiting for a heartbeat that says I still live
The room spins and my stomach turns,The wounds are so fresh and the pain burns
What I would give to just say it will soon be done,What I would do to feel the warmth of the sun
To never again lay awake in fear of my dreams,To not feel my soul breaking apart at the seems
To kill the girl that sits with her hands over ears,Shouting at the gods in her silent screams..
Lost
Faded
Remorseful
Jaded
In the of Madness all is lost, Darkness devours
Once my head was filled with the images of a life
I would never attain. Those images faded, replaced
with an eerie stillness. All that is left are the echoes
of my cries. Words that don't know to form, remorseful
sobs of decisions made wrong. What is real? What is not?
Have I died and just not realized my passing? Are these
memories false? PLEASE!!!! I beg I have made it all up.
Someone tell me that in my Madness I conjured all this
nightmare that has left me jaded. Within the box, within my
mind, I have trapped myself. My own hand unkind.
Reaching through the cracks in every corner, seeing light
that truly surrounds me in this darkness. Even at my
strongest moments I can't find the way, can not pull
the strength to fight my way out of a wet paper bag.
Poor poor pitiful me, I chose the path of brown bagging and crumbs....
The lunch buffet sitting before me, yet I decline. Happiness
in Misery. Every choice making the task more difficult.
I can't just hang myself with a nice soft rope. Oh noooo
I complicate the noose with barbed wire. I can't just
swallow the smooth,small, happy blue pills, I must digest the razors.
Pooor pooor Pitiful me.
Within this box I hold a girl, I taint her with my whisper. Inside this
box she holds her head, trying not to hear me. Her words come together in tortured pronunciation........
SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU STUPID BITCH!!!!!!!!!!
