| >st anger< u make me mad so friggin mad how am i meant to cope with your problems as well as my own messed up life no wonder i roll my eyes no wonder i ignore you i cant stand you any longer just shut up for a while or maybe eterity think about someone else you're not the only screwed one maybe i shouldn't care maybe i shouldn't love maybe i should harden my heart forget about life above then i'd have nuthin to lose nuthin to worry about i wouldn't have to put up with you i wouldn't care if you hurt me i'd probably join you nuthin is worth anythin anymore i dont care my heart is raw whats the point of livin to live u need a life whats the point of diein im already dead inside |
| having said that i now feel so bad i feel so cruel hearted but hey maybe i am i got nothin to love nothin but friends who leave you out cold in earths deep ends so maybe my anger will melt away but it comes bak stronger each fkin day ya kno what im not wantin attention i wanna be forgotten ive woken up to reality and its hard to cop but ive lost self respect so wut u exspect? ive been neglected and thrown away but who gives a damn ...life is gay |
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| ending people used to wanna be like me now they advoid me but i don't blame them i sometimes scare myself time rolls by i wallow in melancholy empty days and nearly empty nights so why do i keep puttin up these fights? id turn on myself id do it right now but deep down somewhere somehow i kno theres a reason for my being but do i really care? wuts the point in seeing ive been toying wit magic my endin shall be tragic i wanna leave this pain ive missed salvation i face eternal damnation |
| running don't lead me to my death oh Lord out here in the dark it's cold, my heart is thumping blood's rushing to my head looking over my shoulder is that You? or another assasin i gotta calm better breathe i'm lying out here in the open eyes staring i can feel them looking at me but all i can think about is survival when i don't wanna survive so don't lead me to my death let me do it myself i want the world to know what they've done to me i'm feelin sick there's nuthin i can do 'cept cry out to you cus all alone i'm helpless don't lead me, forgive me and save me from my death. there's scales on my eyes somethin's wrong wit mah head it's blank i aint watchin where i'm goin all i see is a tunnel and a pond of murky water it dont make no sence what my world needs is You Father God i'm walkin up the highway why don't you jus hit me? go on, i dare You i beg You i've become the monster i now know what it's like i can see my feet moving but i don't seem to have any feet i hear noises but the trickling it haunts me but it calms me wake me up and save me from the dark |