It maybe bad, but it's written by me and felt by me.
Well, it's eating me inside.
Take back your fucking gift,
Because I'm not your martyr anymore.
Cry because it hurts
Scowl because now you understand
I'm talking to You.
Listen, and look at my reflection,
Yes, this is for You.
Cartharsis hurts, doesn't it?
But you're so blind,
You didn't notice my back breaking.
Your anger is a gift,
And you can keep it.
Liquid Love
I'd pour myself into you,
If it just meant I could get a little closer.
I'd tell you every single thought I had,
If I thought it'd make you understand.
I'd take all you offered,
If I thought we'd be forever.
Our liquid love flows further, not away,
Contained within our embrace,and flowing far and wide.
The emptiness that is filled in a moment,
"I love you, I love you".
Gave me the pretty thing in a plastic box,
And I cry with guilt; I am not enough.
If I was I could forget,
The pattern on your chest.
The razor sliced through my memory,
The bloody tissue still in my hand,
The pretty thing smudges down my face.
The box didn't need a better use,
It needed no use at all.
I'm not ungrateful; I'm just not enough.
I'm the scars on your arm,
I'm the tears on your cheek,
I'm the ugly within the beauty box.
Curl and twist around me, Love
you are under my skin,
and I am beneath you. Love,
seeps into me and my essence.
My Fading Beauty wraps around me. Love,
like vapour I fear if I try and touch,
you will slip away, Nothing.
I will keep you cold, my solid,
my rock, My Love.
I will not let you fall and fade.
Or let me boil and our bodies twist and curl together.
Love,you won't disappear and be lost. My Love.
Catharsis
The perennial silence numbed the mind
No tears were seen
No cries were heard.
The congealed mess, dark and dying,
As it fought to save itself,
A painful reminder;
the trembling hands clutching desperately
as all thoughts slipped away.
Eyes blurring, blinking, focusing, blurring.
The body atrophy, the inside dilapidated.
Blood red flesh, violent and serene,
Self-inflicted desecration.
Numb. No I won't feel the guilt,
This body was never sacrosanct.
Far Away Days
That far away day when you gave me yours,
And I slowly gave you mine,
Cautious because it was so fragile,
Once broken, we knew, it would never mend,
A promise was made, Love.
That far away day my scars vanished,
My tears dried up and you would never be alone,
An embrace that would last forever,
Through the darkness, out of the abyss.
Heaven was of no consequence, Love.
That far away day it was strong enough,
Until you could hold it in no longer,
You were too heavy, your beautiful soul,
Could find no place on this earth,
And I knew it would never, Love.
On this empty, cloud filled day,
My cluttered self collects in a pool of tears,
The heavens freed you, my only consolation,
In this lonely life, my essence gone,
I bleed because we belonged, Love.
