I feel much more confident with the computer than I have ever felt in the last three weeks of working on this class.  I feel like the work I am doing has been beneficial because I have been exposing myself to more information both technical and theory oriented.  I feel like one of the main weaknesses I had during my six months of teaching was that I did not have a structure to put my lesson plans and curriculum into that fit me.  I spent the majority of the time fulfilling my obligations to the state in a very cold and formal manner in order to be a successful teacher.  In addition to this class I am taking the effective teacher training and between the two classes I have different visions of what is an effective teacher.

    It is clear that without control of my classroom there is no way for me to be an effective teacher.  I think control of the classroom is more than a discipline plan, intentions focused solely on the classroom, and making sure the state curriculum is taught.  I know that all that is important and I am not undervaluing the role of those things.  I guess the reflective part of me was believing that teaching was going to be something more that following an outline and orchestrating it.  I guess that is why I am wondering for myself if I had this technology we are learning now would I have had more interest from my students and a better form for their learning. 

    There is a lot of emphasis in this course about expanding and being willing to change to become an effective teacher in the classroom.  I think the dangers of education at this time is that there is a belief that if you just do the formula of being a good teacher you will be a good teacher.  I don't believe that.  I think that all of the skills that are needed to be a good teacher are real and are skills, but I feel like that the value of a person as an individual gets lost in the lists and the narrow expectations of the community.  I do not believe that you can be a teacher and not perform like a super human while playing this role because there is more than you can possibly do to be done.

    Time management was one of the things discussed in my other class, and the basics were either be a good time manager or you can not be successful because you are cheating your students.  Okay on the surface I agree with this.  If you are using your time for personal pursuits instead of the well being of your children then that of course is cheating your kids out of you.  I guess my desire is not to have my time used eronously rather what I am looking for is a way to use it valuably.  I do not want to become a robot to a schedule and I do not know that this in any way helps children.  How do I as a teacher create a schedule with flexibility?  How do I as a teacher create an alive learning environment verses a dead methodical one?  How do I as a teacher think outside the boxes that I am being given and find myself instead of living the ideologies of what is perceived to be the truth?  In a sense I am a very revolutionary person, so how do I make that work for the good of my classroom?

    In thinking about the process of questioning and moving forward, I know that students are not going to be successful as autobots in the working world.  I have worked in the working world, and it requires a great deal of comprimise, flexibility as well as a positive attitude.   How do I as a teacher make my students work productively not just work automatically?  I am exploring this week my inner confusion about the differences between working my students and giving them busy work.

   In conclusion,  I am happy with the progress my web page is making and I am excited to see myself evolve as a more computer literate person.