Till You Let Go
Chapter 4 & 5
The tour was set to begin in just two days, and JC was a wreck. Even though
Anna was doing a little better, he still didn't want to leave her side.
He knew he couldn't disappoint the guys, so he reluctantly agreed to go.
He still loved performing as much as he did before, but now that Anna was
sick, he didn't want to leave her, afraid that something would happen.
What if he got a call saying she had died? He knew very well that he wouldn't
handle it very well.
But Anna was right. He had to go. She had Elizabeth, and he trusted Elizabeth.
If something was wrong, she would call him so he would have time to fly
down.
Justin, on the other hand, was acting very strangely. The last few days
he had been acting totally different from his normal self. He kept on coming
home late, as in four or five am drunk. And Elizabeth had never seen him
drunk before, so when she tried to talk to him, he would just snap at her
then fall asleep on the couch.
She was finally fed up with him not talking to her. He barely would say
a word to her in the morning, and he usually went out for the day and didn't
come back until early in the morning.
Finally, she was totally fed up with his actions, and when he walked into
the apartment just after two am, she slammed him against the closed door.
"What the hell is your problem? Don't you know how to pick up a phone?"
Her face was full of anger. He could tell by her eyes that she had been
crying.
"What are you talking about?"
"What am I talking about? Damn you, Justin. The last week you have been
going out for hours, and come back drunk! What is going on with you?" She
let go of her grasp on him and pulled back to listen. She was just so angry
at his recent behavior.
And not only that. He wasn't even talking to her anymore like he used to.
He barely said one word to her anymore, and she felt like they were slowly
drifting apart.
"Nothing's going on," he said. "I didn't know it was against the law for
me to go out and have a little fun." Justin rolled his eyes and walked
into the kitchen and poured himself some coffee.
"Don't give me that shit."
Justin turned around abruptly and looked at her. He had never heard her
swear before. She always said that there is never any need to use vulgar
language. But this was a time Elizabeth felt like she had to put her foot
down and demand some answers. And if swearing at him got it done, then
so be it.
"What did you just say?"
"You heard what I said. Now tell me what the hell is going on? You've been
acting so strange. We don't even talk anymore." Elizabeth's voice was quieter
now as she sat at the kitchen table. She folded her hands in her lap and
sighed. "I don't want to lose you, Justin. If we don't keep the lines of
communication open, we could lose everything."
"You think I want that?" he snapped. He slammed the cup down onto the counter.
"You think I like this distance between us? Maybe if you paid a little
more attention to me and our relationship, you would see what's going on."
"What's that supposed to mean? Are you saying that I don't pay attention
to you? If this is because of the time I'm spending at the hos..."
Before she could finish her sentence, Justin was on her again with his
hot temper. "This isn't about all the time you've been spending with Anna,
if that's what you're thinking." He tried to soften his voice, but everything
had been bottled up for so long, he couldn't stop it. "What I don't get
is how Anna is so blind."
"Blind? What on earth are you talking about?" Maybe he really was drunk.
Maybe he had no idea what he was really saying.
"To the fact that her husband and her best friend are having an affair."
"JC, this is insane. The doctor said I couldn't leave the bed."
JC was leading Anna through a dark room that was lightened by candles.
He had her blindfolded, like the time he had proposed to her. "Don't worry,
baby. I discussed this with the doctor."
"How come you can persuade people so easily?" Anna tried to watch her step
as JC lead her through what seemed like an obstacle course. "And where
are we anyway?"
JC smiled. "You're about to find out." They took a few more steps, then
he untied the blindfold. He couldn't wait to see her face.
"Oh my God." Words couldn't describe how she felt when she saw the scene
before her. They were in their brand new house, just inside the door. She
couldn't believe it. She took in the surroundings that she knew she would
probably never see again. She looked around the living room, hardly believing
her eyes. "I can't believe you brought me here."
"This is our dream home," he said, taking her hand and leading her up the
stairs. He showed her all eight rooms that were upstairs, then stopped
abruptly at the door at the end of the hall. Anna took one look at him
and knew what it was.
"Our baby's room," she said quietly.
JC just nodded, knowing if he said something, she might start to cry. He
knew he was about to. "We don't have to look at it. I haven't even been
in here," he said finally after she told him to say something.
"Let's go in," she said.
"Are you sure? I mean, we don't have to." Anna let go of his hand, and
pushed open the door. "Baby, I don't think this is such a good idea." He
tried to stop her, but instead she grabbed his hand and pulled him inside.
The moment he looked around the room, he knew it was a mistake. It was
the most beautiful room in the house, he thought, looking at it. The wallpaper
was a light blue. They had both badly wanted a baby boy. There was a crib
by the window, with a blanket and stuffed animals inside of it. JC looked
across the crib by the windowsill and saw the tiny dresser and matching
lamp.
"This is..." Anna tried to search for the words, but they wouldn't come.
She just held on tighter to JC's hand and smiled up at him. "It's beautiful."
JC's eyes were tearing up, and now he couldn't do anything to stop them.
"I always wanted to have your baby," Anna said, tearing JC out of his thoughts.
He pulled her into his arms. "I always wanted you to." He kissed the top
of her head. "Come on, let's go downstairs." JC took her hand, and they
walked back downstairs.
He showed her the rest of the house, then they walked back to the living
room where JC had set up a blanket on the floor with a picnic basket and
a bottle of wine. He helped her sit down on the blanket. She had said she
felt fine, but he didn't want to risk her falling down and hurting herself.
It didn't matter if she was here tomorrow or not. It didn't matter if she
lasted another day. All that mattered to Anna was that she was here right
now with JC, who she loved more than anything in the world, and they were
together as long as it would last. Anna watched as he poured them each
a glass of wine, then she watched as he filled two plates with the food
he had prepared earlier that day. She realized now that he had never cooked
for her before.
They ate in silence, and every few seconds they would look over at each
other and smile. And after they were done eating, they pushed the plates
away and JC pulled her into his arms so she was laying against him. "I
couldn't ask for a more perfect night," she murmured, reaching up to give
him a kiss.
He hated saying goodbye to her before he left for tour. But it was different
his time. This time his wife was sick, not healthy. This time he would
be leaving knowing he might not ever see her again. But lately he'd been
thinking positive, and he was convinced that Anna was going to make it
through this.
"Me either," JC said. "I'm going to miss you so much."
"I'll miss you too." She looked up at him. "And try not to worry so much.
I'm feeling better, and the doctor said my chances are getting better and
better everyday." She moved her hand ontop of his. "And it's all because
of you."
"What did I do?"
"You did what you always do. You were there for me. You've been my rock
the last few months. I would have given up a long time ago if you weren't
there." She leaned up and kissed him. The kiss turned more passionate,
but he stopped and pulled away, and rested his forehead against hers.
"I love you too much to just give up on you. I promised you for better
or worse. I'm never going to leave you. Ever."
That brought tears to her eyes. She pulled JC closer. "Why is it that just
when we've found each other, something like this had to happen?"
"I don't know, baby. I don't know."
At that moment, everything seemed so right. It didn't matter that he was
leaving in two days. It didn't matter that in a few hours she had to go
back to the hospital. All that mattered is the moments they were sharing
right now in each other's arms. The moments they would cherish no matter
what happened in the future.
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