Till You Let Go
Chapter 11
The house was empty when Justin and Elizabeth got back from their date.
It was a little chillier inside than it was when they left, but neither
seemed to notice. Elizabeth looked around the living room, and found no
sight of Anna. She called Anna's name, but still no response.
"Wait. I think she left a note." She grabbed the piece of paper off the
coffee table and picked it up, slowly reading it over. What she read was
almost unbelievable. Honestly, she wasn't that surprised.
I left with JC. Don't worry, everything's okay. If you need to reach me, we'll be at our house. Thank you for everything, you guys. I'll call you later and let you in on what happened.
Love, Anna
"Looks like they got back together," Justin said from behind her. He took
the note from Elizabeth's hands and scrunched it in a ball and threw it
across the room. "Can't say I'm at all surprised. I knew he could get her
back."
"But I don't understand," Elizabeth said. "That girl---"
"Ended it with her last night," he told her.
"I'm glad." She was. As mad as she still was at JC, she was glad that he
and Anna were back together. From the moment she had seen JC and Anna together
that first night, she had seen that they really loved each other.
They'd been both worrying about Anna the last few days, and Justin just
wanted to get back to him and Elizabeth. They had just gone out for a nice
dinner at a local restaurant, but it seemed like they hadn't been alone
for days. He pulled her into his arms and nuzzled her neck, placing delicate
kisses along the skin there.
Elizabeth just closed her eyes and enjoyed the feeling of having Justin
in her arms again. His kisses were causing her to feel weak. She held onto
his shoulders for balance and tried not to groan as his mouth moved up
to her lips. He claimed her mouth in a soft, but heated kiss. She grasped
his shoulders tighter as the kiss deepened. What was he trying to do to
her?
Justin hadn't had a moment alone with her without someone looking at them,
or without someone asking for an autograph. They're relationship had just
been announced to the media, and even though Justin had warned her about
the attention their relationship would get, she was shocked to see that
everyone was interested how they met, how long they'd been together, and
what she was like. Dinner had almost been a disaster. Justin had gone out
in a pair of dress pants and a plain white shirt. And still with his glasses
hiding his identidy, a few managed to recognize him. And they didn't wait
to disturb their dinner and ask for autographs. Elizabeth had felt totally
out of place. The whole time at the restaurant, she just sat there and
picked at her food.
"I'm sorry about what happened at dinner," he apologized. "Sometimes the
fans can get a little..." He searched for a word. "Crazy."
Elizabeth had easily waved dinner off. All she cared about was right now,
being alone with him. "It's okay. I'm just glad we can be alone for a change."
Justin smiled. "So am I. It's nice to have you all to my self for a little
while at least." Not that he had been paying much attention to anyone else
all night. At the dinner, all he could do was stare at the beautiful woman
across from him at the table.
"Hmmm," she murmured when he kissed her again.
"Hmm?" he said, pulling away. "I hope that's a good thing."
"Hmm." Elizabeth laughed and wrapped her arms around his waist. "It's a
very good thing," she confirmed.
"That's good to know for future reference."
She stared at him. They hadn't talked about what had happened at her cousin's
house since they got back. She wondered whether he ever thought about it.
"You okay, baby?" he asked, seeing that she had zoned out.
"Yeah," she said. "Just thinking." She looked back at him.
"About what?" he asked, though he could guess what she'd been thinking
about. He'd been thinking about it a lot, too.
"Do you ever think about what our lives would be like if we never met?"
Her question surprised him. "No, of course I don't. Why, do you?"
She shrugged. "Sometimes. Just, since we left Mark's, I can't help wondering
what my life would be like. Sometimes I wonder if you would have ended
things with Meg if I never came into your life." She hoped it wouldn't
get mad.
"I had enough people telling me to get rid of her. I would have done it
even if I never met you," he said. "But you definately moved my decision
along. But why think about the past when we think about our future together?"
He pressed his lips to her forehead. "I've never been so happy since you
came into my life. I didn't know I could love anyone as much as I love
you."
Tears glistened her eyes. "I didn't know I could love anybody again after
Thomas," she admitted. "But you changed all that. I thank God everyday
that you came into my life."
He sighed contently. "I love you too." He lowered his mouth down and claimed
hers possessively. The next thing Elizabeth knew, she was backed up against
the wall. She loved how he was taking charge of the situation they were
in. She had wanted to tell him last night, but still being worried about
Anna, she just couldn't. Now seemed like the right time. Especially when
she wanted him right now as much as she did.
"I want you," she whispered, pulling her mouth away from his.
He gulped. "I want you, too." He was a little unsure what she meant by
that. He wanted her in everyway that you could want the person.
"Right now," she said, then crushed her mouth to his again. This time she
took charge and ran her hands through his hair as they moved towards the
bedroom. He was totally taken aback by the way she was acting, but he wasn't
about to complain. He knew what she meant when she looked up into his eyes.
He could see it in those deep shades of brown. She wanted him. God, and
he wanted her, too.
"Are you sure about this, Lizzy?" he asked quietly.
"I've never been more sure about anything. I want you to be my first."
She looked up into his eyes. "My only."
His heart softened at her words. She trusted him enough with something
this precious, he could very well do the same. She was the only one he
ever wanted to make love to. Though he had never told her, she would be
his first, too. Many people believed that he slept with a lot of women,
but in truth he'd never even thought about it till he met Elizabeth. Even
with Meg he couldn't force himself to. He had always wanted to wait for
the right girl. And now that he'd found her, he was ready to give her everything
he had.
"I want you to be my first too," he said quietly. When she looked at him,
he smiled. She had been surprised, but happy to learn that he'd never been
with a woman before. "My only," he whispered in her ear.
"It seems like I've waited my whole life to love you," she said. "I don't
want to waste another minute."
"We have our whole lives together." He took her hand and led her the rest
of the way to their bedroom. For now they could forget the tour, the constant
disturbances in their lives. For now they could just love each other, and
forget everything and everyone around them. Tonight they would make a world
of their own.
She felt stupid feeling so nervous. She wasn't sure what to do, and she
wondered how Justin was staying so calm. This is crazy, she told herself.
He's not a stranger. You don't have to be scared.
Elizabeth looked over at him when she heard him calling her name. "I'm
sorry. What were you saying?"
"Baby, are you sure you're ready for this? We can wait."
She looked around the room and noticed that he had lit two strawberry scented
candles that were sitting on their dresser. Man, she thought, you think
too much. Just enjoy the moment.
"No." She touched his arm. "I'm sure about this, Justin. I was just thinking,
that's all."
He smiled. "You really should stop doing that so much."
"I'll try." She laughed nervously. What was she supposed to do? They were
just standing there, smiling and grinning at each other like they normally
do. Suddenly, she relaxed when she felt his lips on hers. Then, he scooped
her up in his arms and layed her down on the soft white sheets on their
bed. She watched him from partially closed eyelids and he hovered over
her.
"You know," he said, "I always dreamt about what our first time would be
like."
"I did too." She was glad she wasn't the only one who did. She opened her
eyes completely and laid those loving eyes on him. "But then again, nothing's
better then the real thing."
He leaned down and started to attack her jawline with his mouth. Her breathing
was getting heavier. She had never felt anything like this before. She
wanted him more than she ever did. His kisses slowly moved down to just
below the collar of her old gray sweatshirt that she was wearing. He looked
up into her eyes for permission to remove it. When she nodded, he slowly
raised his hands and lifted the garment over her head and tossed it to
the floor. As he kissed down her stomach, Elizabeth suddenly wanted to
touch him, too. She lifted his chin with her finger and smiled sweetly.
"Are you okay?" he asked, worried that maybe she didn't like what he was
doing.
"I'm great," she said. "I just...." She smiled sheepishly, her cheeks growing
a rosy pink. "I want to touch you."
"Oh." He laughed. "I thought you were going to say you hated what I was
doing. I thought that maybe you were going to push me off the bed or something."
She laughed and shook her head. Though they were entering a new level in
their relationship, she felt totally relaxed. She thought that maybe it
would feel weird considering they'd never been this close to each other,
just a few articles of clothing seperating them.
When he started to unbutton the shirt he was wearing, Elizabeth put her
hand on his stopping his actions. "Let me," she whispered, and he moved
his hand down to his side. He groaned silently as her fingertips came into
contact with his skin. She didn't need to know quite yet how she effected
him. Elizabeth wouldn't have noticed anyway. She loved touching him. She
had always to, but she had always been scared. Maybe he didn't like her
touching him that way, or that it would feel too weird and she would never
feel comfortable around him again. But now she thought she would die if
she never got to touch him like this again. His shirt was tossed right
on top of her sweater on the floor, and Elizabeth resumed running her hands
up and down his stomach. He tensed a little when she pressed a few light
kisses in the spots where her fingers had been. She noticed this, and looked
up at him. But Justin's eyes were closed, and his whole body was shaking
from pleasure.
When Elizabeth stopped, causing Justin to open his eyes, he groaned. "Why'd
you stop?"
"You had your eyes closed."
"Only cause you're driving me crazy," he admitted. "I was enjoying it."
He could sense that she thought that maybe he didn't like it. Oh boy was
she was far from the truth. God, he thought. Why didn't we do this sooner?
He never thought it would be so good.
She started to place delicate kisses all over the skin revealed. She moved
up his body till she reached his mouth and kissed him hungrily. "I love
you so much," she whispered, afraid that if she didn't tell him, he would
never know how much she loved him.
He was deeply touched by her words. "I love you too. If only you knew how
much." He ran his fingers through her brown locks, that were still up in
a pony tail. He took care of that himself and took it out so he could run
his fingers through it all. "You're so beautiful," he whispered, before
claiming her mouth again.
What was the guy trying to do to her? She couldn't speak. All she could
do was kiss him, as her body shook as for the first time, she came into
contact with his lower body. Now she could barely breathe.
He pulled away when he saw the look of alarm on her face. "What is it?"
he asked.
"Nothing," she said. "I just never realized I could want somebody so much.
Why is it that it took so long for me to realize it?"
He smiled. "I don't know. But you know, I would like to show you just how
much I love you."
As a response, she grinned and licked her lips. "Then please, go on," she
said.
"You gotta let me know if I'm going too fast. If you want me to stop, just
tell me okay? I don't want to hurt you."
She nodded, unable to speak. He slowly unhooked her string on her pants,
and the next thing she knew, they were on the floor along with the other
clothes. She was completely naked in front of him, and he still had his
pants on. How unfair, she thought with a grin.
He saw her grin and couldn't hide one himself. "What?"
"Do you realize that you still have clothes on and I'm laying here with
nothing on?" she asked.
"Why don't you do something about that?" he said, in a husky voice.
"Maybe I will." She reached her hand out and reached for the belt loop
of his jeans. When she found it, she slowly undid it with unexperienced
and shaky hands. Once it was gone and his pants were kicked off the bed
by his foot, they both looked at each other. No more words were said as
Elizabeth went straight into Justin's arms. He rolled on top of her and
stared at her.
"You're so beautiful. I'm the luckiest guy in the world to have you as
mine."
She gulped. Closed her eyes brieftly, then opened them again. "And I'm
lucky to have you as mine. I don't know what I did to deserve you."
"I'm sorry for all the mistakes I've made," he said softly, running his
finger down her cheek. "But I promise, you're never going to regret taking
me back." And then he slowly slid inside her. The sudden contact almost
caused Elizabeth to jump, but because Justin was holding her, she didn't.
She always felt safe in his arms.
There was a little pain, but once she got used to his size, Elizabeth was
pulling him closer, begging him to go faster. As he thrusted deeper inside
her, he knew that this was it. This was the night they would both remember
for the rest of their lives. This was the night they became one. He was
sure of it when he yelled out of her name as he emptied into her. And when
he pulled out of her and pulled Elizabeth to his side after wrapping the
covers around their bodies, he knew that without a doubt it wouldn't be
long before he would want her again.
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