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�I declare I don�t care no more.I�m burning up and out and growing boredin my smoked out boring room my hair is shagging in my eyes,Dragging my feet to hit the street tonight,to drive along these shit town lights.I�m not growing up, I�m just burning outAnd I stepped in line to walk amongst the deadApathy has rained on me...Now I�m feeling like a soggy dreamSo close to drowning but I don�t mindI�ve lived in this mental cave throw my emotions in the graveHell, who needs them anyway...
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�I�m taking all you down with me, explosives duct taped to my spineNothing�s gonna change my mind,I won�t listen to anyone�s last wordsThere�s nothind left for you to say, soon you�ll be dead anywayWell no one here, is getting out alive.This time I�ve lost my mind and I don�t care.So close your eyes and kiss yourself goodbye,and think about the times you spent and what they�ve meant.To me it�s nothing...I�m losing all my happiness,the happiness you pinned on my loneliness still comforts me.My anger dwells inside of me. I�m taking it all out on youand all the shit you put me through...So...Do you ever think back to another time?Did it bring you so down that you thought you lost your mind?Do you ever want to lead a long trail of destructionand mow down any bullshit that confronts you?Do you ever build up all the small things in your headto make one problem that adds up to nothing?...
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��I don�t know you, but I think I hate you.You�re the reason for my misery.Strange how you�ve become my biggest enemyAnd I�ve never even seen your face.Maybe it�s just jealousy, mixing up with a violent mindA circumstance that doesn�t make much sense or maybe I�m just dumb.You�re the cloud hanging out over my head.Hail comes crashing down welting my faceMagic man, egocentric plastic man,yet you still got one over on me...
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��Sit around and watch the tube but, nothing�s on.Change the channels for an hour or two, twiddle my thumbsjust for a bit, I�m sick of all the same old shit,in a house with unlocked doors and I�m fucking lazy...Bite my lip and close my eyes, take me away to paradiseI�m so damn bored I�m going blind!!!� And I smell like shit.Peel me off this velcro seat and get me moving.I sure as hell can�t do it by myself, I�m feeling like a dog in heatBarred indoors from the summer street,I locked the door to my own cell and I lost the key......I got no motivation, where is my motivation?No time for...Smoking my inspiration...Sit around and watch the phone but no one�s calling.Call me pathetic call me what you will.My mother says to get a job, but she don�t like the one she�s gotWhen masturbation�s lost its fun you�re fucking breaking......And loneliness has to suffice......Slipping away to paradise. Some say, "Quit or I�ll go blind"But it�s just a myth...
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��Dear mother, can you hear me whining?It�s been three whole weeks since I left your home.This sudden fear has left me trembling,Cause now it seems that I am out here on my ownAnd I�m feeling so alone...Pay attention to the cracked streets and broken homesSome call it the slums...nice...I want to take you through a wasteland I like to call my homeWelcome to paradise...A gunshot rings out at the station,another urchin snaps and left dead on his ownIt makes me wonder why I�m still hereFor some strange reason it�s now feeling like my home...And I�m never gonna go......Dear mother, can you hear me laughing?It�s been six whole months since I have left your home...
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��I�m all busted up, broken bones & nasty cuts...Accidents will happen, but this time I can�t get upShe comes to check on me, making sure I�m on my kneesAfter all she�s the one who put me in this state...Is she ultra-violent? Is she disturbed?I better tell her that I love herbefore she does it all over again.� Oh God, she�s killing me!!!For now I�ll lie around. Hell, that�s all I can really doShe takes good care of me, just keep saying my love is true......Looking out my window for someone that�s passing byNo one knows I�m locked in here, all I do is cry...
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��Do you have the time to listen to me whineAbout nothing and everything all at once...I am one of those melodramatic fools, neurotic to the boneNo doubt about it...Sometimes I give myself the creeps,sometimes my mind plays tricks on me...It all keeps adding up, I think I�m cracking up...Am I just paranoid?� I�m just stoned.I went to a shrink to analyze my dreamsShe says it�s lack of sex that�s bringing me downI went to a whore, he said my life�s a boreSo quit my whining cause it�s bringing her down......Grasping to control, so I better hold on...
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��She screams in silence , a sullen riot penetratingthrough her mind, waiting for a sign to smashthe silence with the brick of self control...Are you locked up in a world that�s been planned out for you?Are you feeling like a social tool without a use?Scream at me until my ears bleed.� I�m taking heed just for youShe�s figured out all her doubts were someone else�s point of viewWaking up this time ...
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��Roaming �round your house, wasting your time...No obligation, just...So why are you alone?......When you could be with me...I�m a waste like you with nothing else to doMay I waste your time too?...Warding off regrets...Smoking cigarettes...I�m just a parasite...Applying myself to ...
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��I heard you crying loud all the way across townYou�ve been searching for that someone,and it�s me out on the prowl...As you sit around feeling sorry for yourselfDon�t get lonely now, dry your whining eyesI�m just roaming for the moment...Sleazin� my back yard so don�t get so uptightyou been thinking about ditching me...No time to search the world around,Cause you know where I�ll be foundWhen I come around...I heard it all before so don�t knock down my doorI�m a loser and a user so I don�t need no accuserto try and slag me down because I know I�m rightSo go do what you like, make sure you do it wiseYou may find out that your selfdoubt means nothingwas ever there...You can�t go forcing something if it�s just not right...
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�Seventeen and strung out on confusion,Trapped inside a roll of disillusionI found out what it takes to be a manMom and Dad will never understandSecrets collecting dust but never forgetskeletons come to life in my closet......What�s happening to me...coming clean for the first timeI finally figured out myself...
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��I saw my friend the other day and I don�t knowExactly just what he became...It goes to show it wasn�t long agoI was just like you and now I think I�m sick and I wanna go home.How have I been?, how have you been?It�s been so long, what have you done with all your time?And what went wrong? I knew you back when, and you...you knew me...Anybody ever say no?Ever tell you that you weren�t right?Where did all the little kid go? Did you lose it in a hateful fight?And you know it�s true...
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�All brawn and no brains, and all those nice thingsYou finally got what you want, someone to look good withand light your cigarette. Is this what you really want?I figured out what you�re all aboutAnd I don�t think I like what I see so...I hope I won�t be there in the end if you come around.How long will he last before he�s a creep in the pastAnd you�re alone once again? Will you pop up againand be my "special friend" �till the end? And when will that be?...
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��Something�s on my mind, it�s been for quite some timeThis time I�m on to you so where�s the other face?The face I heard before your head trip�s boring me...Let�s nuke the bridge we torched 2,000 times beforeThis time we�ll blast it all to hellI�ve had this burning in my guts now for so long...My belly�s aching now to say...Stuck down in a rut of dislogic and smutA side of you well hid when it�s all said and doneit�s real and it�s been fun. But was it all real fun......I�ve felt this burning...You�re just a fuck,I can�t explain it �cause I think you suck.I�m taking pride in telling you to fuck off and die......to sing, I�m taking pleasure in the doubts that may still growSo listen up cause you might miss it......I was alone, I was all by myself.Now I was lucky, I was thinking of youOh yeah, did I mention I was all by myself......I went to your house, but no one was there.I went to your room...We had such wonderful timesWhen I�m all by myself...
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