He'll Never Love Me...

Elijah walked slowly down a path, that winded it's way through the woods behind Orlando's house.

It had been about two hours since he had walked in on Orli and his girlfriend making out on the couch and left.

"I shouldn't have left." he said quietly to himself.

The memories of earlyer that day still replay themselves in his mind.

***Previously***

"Orlando? I brought the script to 'The Return of the King' over. I thought you might want to ..." Elijah stopped midsentence at what he saw. "Or...Orlando?" he studdered.

Orlando's head shot up, as the girl he had been making out with hurried to re-button her shirt.

"Lig.... I REALLY didn't expect you soo soon."

Before Orlando could stop him, Elijah threw the stack of pappers he had been carrying onto the floor, causing them to scatter mindlessly, and left the house quickly. Slaming the door behind him.

***Back to the Present***

"I think I really messed up this time." The young star said as a lone tear made it's way down his cheek. "I knew Orli wasn't gay, but I still had my hope. I mean before I could always dream like some love struck school girl, but now I can't. Face it Elijah. Orlando just doesn't think of you that way."

Uncounsicously, he drew out 'Elijah Loves Orlando' in the dirt next to where he sat.

"But Orlando doesn't love Elijah does he?" Elijah said to a bird that perched in the near by tree. "You don't mind if I tell you my problems, do you?"

"Chirrrrp! Cheeeeeeeeep!"

"That's good. I was getting lonely out here." he mumbled. "I guess I could start from the begining? Ey?"

He signed and blew his now shoulder length, dark brown hair out of his face.

"Well birdy, this is my story." the heart broken nineteen year old actualy laughed at the fact he was talking to a robin. "I met Orlando 'through the buisness' as one in my line of work might say. I was attrackted to him almost instently and have caught myself stairing at his full lips and smooth chest every moment I've had alone. I mean WoW! I even spend many hours day dreaming about what life might be like if I just had the guts to tell him how I felt.

"Of course, I never actualy thought, for a moment, that he would ever feel the same way. I mean, Come on! The guy came in every Monday talking about the girls he picked up over the weekend!

"Then today... Birdy! It hurt me soo bad inside to actualy see him with a girl! I just wanted to fall to my knees right there and start crying, but I didn't. I didn't want him to see me cry!" Elijah was now crying full force. "He just had to have a girl over when I came in... He said I was early, but I wasn't. To tell you the truth, I was twenty minutes late... "

Pulling his kness up to his chest, Elijah rocked back in forth for sometime shaking.

The tears no longer flowed, but he couldn't find the strength to stand up. Going back to his car right now just didn't sound like a good idea.

"I ought to just stay out here for the night. Make Orlando worry when I don't come back for my car." he said as the sun said it's finnal goodbye to that side of the word. "I might as well just stay out here untill some kind of wild animal eats me, I don't see why I shouldn't. Even my birdy's diserted me now."

Shivering in the night air, Elijah pulled his jacket tighter around him and fell asleep, leaning on a dead tree for suport.

***The Next Morning***

'Where am I?' Elijah thought as he opened his eyes.

He was in someone's bedroom and Orlando was laying next to him!

"Morning... Lijie." Orlando looked over at Elijah, worry was writen all over his face. "Are you ok?"

"How'd I get here?" Elijah mumbled, stretching.

"I went out looking for you when it got dark. I brought you here since you were asleep."

"Ohh... "

"Lij... about those things you said out there..."

Elijah's head jerked up.

"You were listening to me!"

"I know it was wrong, but I couldn't help it. You look soo cute and innocent when you cry. I just wanted to hold you and tell you everything was going to be ok."

"Orli... do you mean..." hope shown in Elijah's eyes.

"Before you get your hopes up... I'm not attracted to guys..."

Elijah felt like his heart had been ripped out and stepped on.

"... only you, lij."

With that said, Orlando leaned over Elijah slowly, and pressed his lips up to the younger boys and kissed him like Elijah had never been kissed before in his life.