| Chapter Ten |
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Hello? ��������������� Can
anyone hear me? Can I hear me? Where is everyone where did they take me? ��������������� Was that
your voice I heard (dimly) through the cage, this morning? Is it a cage? You
were shouting�who were you yelling at? The sentinels? Were you trying to make
them set me free? ��������������� Am I
not free? ��������������� I
don�t feel free. ��������������� I
can�t even move my legs. My arms. Hell, I can�t move anything or see anything
or breathe and I wonder how in God�s name I�m still alive. Maybe I�m not alive. ��������������� I
can�t remember anything. ��������������� My
life� I have a life, don�t I? ��������������� My
name� ��������������� ��������������� �What
is your name?� ��������������� My name
my name my name my name my name my name my name MY NAME!? ��������������� All
I can remember is you. ��������������� You�
my Idol. You don�t know how I worship you. It�s the only reason I�m holding on.
I need to see your face. I need to -touch- your face. I need to know that you�re
never going to leave me again. I need that reassurance. I need you to hold me
and hide me away from everything and above all� I just need you to hold on. ��������������� I
know how hard it must be. ��������������� I
want to come back, so bad� but I don�t know how. I don�t even know if I can. ��������������� Sometimes
I can feel them close to me� I don�t know who they are. Strange people I�ve
never felt before. They come in sometimes, right when I feel like I can move my
legs and break free from this white fog. Then I feel a sting or a bitter taste
in my mouth� then everything just fades. ��������������� I
miss you. ��������������� I
miss me. ��������������� Once
I�m back, I won�t be the same. I know it. ��������������� Will
you still love me when the smoke clears? |