| Soul Searching and Star Gazing |
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��������������� The waves crashed over the rocks down below the cliff,
a calming litany that soothed ����������� She loved this, her end of the day
ritual, more than anything she could remember. This was her spot�well, hers and
Darrien's she supposed, but that was neither here nor there. Right at the
moment this place was hers; she was alone with her journal and her thoughts. ����������� "What is perfection?" she
murmured aloud, her question heard only by the sky overhead. The sky held no
answer. With her pen, she answered herself. ����������� 'Perfection�'
she wrote, 'According to any dictionary,
perfection is the freedom from fault or defect, to be flawless; saintly. I
don't believe in it for a moment. There is no such thing as perfection and
those who seek to find it only find the imperfections in themselves and the
world around them.' ����������� She paused for a moment then began once more. 'My parents are mad at my brother again; it
is more of the same as always, just on a different day. They don�t agree with
the choices he's made in life and have yet to realize that he is 22, a grown
man. They wanted him to be perfect and take it as a slap in the face that he
has chosen any path other than the one they had marked for him�the path of
normalcy. Darrien, instead, has chosen happiness and
love, and I am so proud of him for it. ����������� 'But
now, it seems, their focus has fallen
upon me and I must bear the burden of their scrutiny. To ease the
disappointment of their son's supposed shortcomings, they now prey upon the
daughter. Figures, doesn't it? I am far from perfect and refuse to make any
attempt to be so. They won't be too happy when they finally figure this out. My
mission in life is not to be the most perfect wife, mother, businesswoman,
daughter, and citizen the world has ever seen. I want to carve my own path,
find my own happiness, and to hell with all the rest! Perfection is a joke, but
my parents aren�t laughing. ����������� 'My dreams are
my own; my life is my own, and when I finally graduate from my accursed high
school, I am going to leave this place and finally live my life as it is, in
fact, mine to live. I will make my way in this world as my brother has; only my
choices and paths will be different from his. I will live; I will make it; I
will be fine. And I will have more than just the contentment I find up here on
the cliffs�' ����������� The
pen grew idle again as the sun slipped below the horizon and darkness began to
descend. ����������� The moon rose, darkness settled, and
more stars scattered and sparkled in the indigo sky. Where sky ended and the
sea began, it was hard to tell; the reflection was so perfect. Here, up on the
cliff side high above the beach, things were simple; here life was beautiful;
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