You'd think I would have learnt
Time and again
I keep letting them in
I open myself to the world
Hoping it will be better
Or at least different
My mind holds me up
Frees my fears
Lets me be
And I am destroyed
I'm too young
Too old
They love me
Then they hate me
I'm never good enough
I keep wishing
And hoping
Wondering where I
mislead myself
But it's pointless
They'll end up hating me
In the grand finale
And I'll be shoved back here
Where I started
I'll hide away for a while
Wait for my wounds to scar over
Then I'll reapproach the world
And wait for them to laugh
and push me away, one more time
Back
.