Author's Notes: The song Watch Me Bleed is by Tears for Fears.
Heaven comes to he who waits
But I know I'm getting nowhere
"Put your hands up!" I don't, but I don't move either. Instead, I juststand there, weighing my options. I need to make a decision.
And all the deeds of yesterday
Have really helped to pave my way
Although, really, there's only one decision to make.
Though there's no one near me now
I make a grab for my gun. I want it to be known that I went down with mygun in my hand.
How come everyone can touch me
Except I never get to it. In an instant, I feel pain like fire rip throughmy chest.
You see the torture on my brow
Relates to neither here nor now
I lie on the ground, my hand still inside my jacket, where it had gone toget my weapon.
Watch me bleed
Bleed forever
I hear footsteps run by me and am able to lift my head up just enough tosee Mr. Grissom run by me and to the car.
Although my face is straight, it lies
My body feels the Pain and cries
Here the table is not bare
I am full but feeling empty
For all the warmth it feels so cold
For one so young I feel so old
I keep a straight face as I feel my life seep out of me. I don't flinchwhen I hear him call to her. They will not know what this does to me.
Watch me bleed
No one comes to help me. I can hear people calling for medical attention,but no one comes to my aid.
Bleed forever
They're just going to let me die. After all, I tried to take out one oftheir own.
It's not allowed to be unkind
But still the hate lives in my mind
If only they knew that I have succeeded.
I'll make no noise
I'll hide my pain
I'll close my eyes
I won't complain
I'll lie right back and take the blame
Everything is blurring, and I can tell I don't have much time left. But Iam aware enough to hear Mr. Grissom's anguished shouts for help. With the last of my strength, I smile. This was always just a game to me.
And try to tell myself I'm living
And I won.
And when it's all been said or done
Where do I go?
Where do I run?
What's left of me or anyone when we've denied the hurting ?
TBC
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