Author�s Notes: Crash and Burn is by Savage Garden.
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I gently shake Catherine�s shoulder as she starts tossing and turning in her hospital bed, crying out in her sleep. �Cath, come on Cath, wake up.�
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
She finally wakes up with a start and I rock her back and forth as she sobs into my chest.
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
She�s been in the hospital for two weeks, and she�s been having these nightmares for the past week and a half. And there�s nothing I can do but make sure I�m there when she wakes up.
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
I continue to rock her back and forth until she cries herself back to sleep.
When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
A week and a half later
After she�s said good night to Cath, I put Lindsey to bed and tuck her in. I�m at the door and about to go back to Cath�s room when a small voice stops me. �Uncle Gil?� I turn back around to face Lindsey. �You�ll still take care of Mommy, even though she�s home now, right?� Unable to get any words out past my suddenly constricted throat, I simply nod and leave, closing the door quietly behind me.
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
I stay with Cath until she falls asleep, then head to the living room to sleep on the couch. I lie there for awhile, just thinking of all that had taken place in the last month or so. Randall Quincy had been declared DOA and cause of death listed as shooting by cop. I had been given the mandatory five day suspension, but hadn�t gotten into any trouble. I�m pretty sure Brass had something to do with that. Upon a search of his home, police had found evidence linking him to the murders of 10 women in the Vegas area, and we�re pretty sure he was good for at least another six or seven. I�ve spent most of my time the last few weeks with Cath, only going to work when necessary, doing most of my administrative duties by phone, leaving most of the day-to-day stuff with Warrick. I am suddenly startled from my thoughts by Catherine screaming. I bolt up off the couch and run to her room.
You're not alone
She�s sobbing and clutching her stomach when I enter the room. I quickly go to her and wrap her in my arms.
And there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
I rock her back and forth and whisper what has recently become my mantra, �It�s okay. It�s over, it�s over. Everything�s going to be okay.�
You'll breath again
When she�s calmed down, I lie down with her and continue to stroke her hair as she falls back asleep.
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart
Things have been getting worse, lately. The nightmares have come more often and with more intensity. And at the same time, she has begun to withdraw from me. I know she feels like a burden, but she�s not. All I want to do is be there for her.
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
I know she must have so many thoughts rattling in her head, so many demons that come out to play when she�s most vulnerable, but she won�t tell me about them.
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
I just wish she�d talk to me.
If you need to crash then crash and burn
I want to help.
You're not alone
TBC
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