Author's Notes:The song Because You Loved Me is by Celine Dion. All other notes and stuff are in the first chapter.
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I�ll be forever thankful baby
Without a word, Gil opens the door wider and allows me to enter. I feel more tears come to my eyes at his immediate acceptance of my apology. After all the things that I had said to him, he forgives me the moment I ask him to. I owe him so much.
You�re the one who saw me through
Through it all
I turn around to face him and, noticing that I'm crying again, he immediately wraps me in his arms and allows me to cry.
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn�t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn�t see
You saw the best there was in me
Pulling away, I again wipe away my tears while I try to speak, to explain and apologize. Grissom shakes his head and replaces my hands with his own, and continues wiping the tears from my face. "It's fine, everything's fine now."
Lifted me up when I couldn�t reach
You gave me faith �coz you believed
I�m everything I am because you loved me
I look at him, and I believe what he's telling me. Everything's alright because he's still here, standing with me, and as long as he does, everything will always be alright.
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
Eventually, Grissom pulls away from me and heads further into the house. "I'm guessing you could use a drink", he calls back to me. Shaking my head, I follow him into the house. "Yeah", I chuckle.
I lost my faith you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
He hands me my drink and joins me on the couch. "So where's Lindsey spending the weekend?"
"Gil, about before..." He shakes his head. As far as he's concerned, the past is in the past. He's ready to move on. I swallow the tears that are once more threatening at his unwavering acceptance of me and manage to answer him, albeit a little wobbly. "I've got her. I thought I'd take her to the zoo on Saturday, since I have that evening off."
I�m grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don�t know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
He nods his head, "Sounds fun. Any plans for Sunday?" I shake my head. "Why don't you two come over and I'll make breakfast?"
I smile, "that sounds good".
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn�t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn�t see
You saw the best there was in me
I look down into my drink. A thought that had run through my mind earlier won't leave me alone. As difficult as it's going to be, I know that I need to give it voice. "Gil-" I break off and look up at him. He looks back at me, waiting patiently for me to be able to continue.
Lifted me up when I couldn�t reach
You gave me faith �coz you believed
I�m everything I am because you loved me
I take a deep breath and start again. "Gil, how much do you remember?" He looks at me with confusion in his eyes. He gently takes my hand is his, "how much do I remember about what?"
"How much do you remember about... about that day?" I know that I don't need to tell him what day I'm referring to.
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You�ve been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
He withdraws his hand from mine and stands up. He begins to pace back and forth as I watch. "I remember everything, why?"
I flinch at the pain in his eyes as he speaks. I had put it there. "I'm sorry", I whisper.
He stops his pacing and stands in front of me, "You told me that in the hospital."
"I don't think it's something I could ever say enough."
Gil kneels down in front of me and again takes my hands, "As long as you keep your promise to never do it again, what you've said already is enough."
"I won't, I promise."
"That's all I ask."
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn�t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn�t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn�t reach
You gave me faith �coz you believed
I look at him and know it's true. That's all he would ever ask of me. I could do what he asked. I smile. "Okay".
I�m everything I am because you loved me
TBC
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