Author's Notes: I Believe is by Diamond Rio.
Every now and then soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you come back again
And it's like you haven't been gone a moment from my side
Where am I? It's dark and I can't see or hear anything. Is this what it's like to be dead? I feel tears roll down my cheeks. We were so close. Gil was right there. If I could have just lasted a few more minutes until the ambulance came. But I just wasn't strong enough.
Like the tears were never cried
Like the hands of time are holding you and me
For a brief moment, when he opened the door, I didn't feel any pain. All I was aware of was him. He had come, just like I knew he would. But it was too little too late.
And with all my heart I'm sure we're closer than we ever were
I don't have to hear or see, I've got all the proof I need
There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, I believe
But at least I can feel this peace, knowing that at least he knows what happened. And I know he will be there for Lindsey. He'll watch over her just like he's always watched over me.
That when you die your life goes on
It doesn't end here when you're gone
The tears begin to slow. I might be dead, but I'm not gone. As long as there are people who still remember me, who cared about me, I will never be truly gone.
Every soul is filled with light
It never ends and if I'm right
Our love can even reach across eternity
Gil will never let my memory die within him. And he'll never let it die within Lindsey, either.
I believe, I believe
I know that.
Forever, you're a part of me
Forever, in the heart of me
And I'll hold you even longer if I can
I'm ready to go now. I don't want to, but I'm ready to.
The people who don't see the most
Say that I believe in ghosts
And if that makes me crazy, then I am
There's a white flash of light, and I see a figure approaching. At first I can't make him out, but then I can. It's Eddie. I don't know whether to laugh or cry. So much for heaven. He stops a ways off, then looks at me. "Go back". I look at him in confusion. He waves me off, "Go back. You're not done yet. Go back".
'Cause I believe
"Lindsey still needs you. Go back".
I shake my head, "I can't".
"Yes you can Catherine!", his face softens. "You're stronger than I ever was. I see that now."
There are more than angels watching over me
"Go back."
I believe, I believe
He begins to fade away, and I am left once again in limbo. But at least now I know what I need to do.
Every now and then soft as breath upon my skin
I slowly become aware of a steady beeping and people murmuring. I am suddenly conscious of somebody holding my hand. Even barely coherent, I know who it is. I will always recognize him.
And I feel you come back again
I force my eyes open and find myself staring into Gil's worried face.
And I believe
TBC
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