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| May 8, 2001 |
| Ok, I know I said I would be better about updating, but life has been way too busy!!!!!! I've been fighting bronchitis and a sinus infection. I've been so lucky because I haven't really been sick since before surgery. I don't know if it's because I'm doing more or what, but I haven't been to see my general doctor in a long time. It's kinda nice actually because before I felt like I was ALWAYS in there for something. Now if I could just shake this crap, I'd be alright. My foot is FINALLY starting to feel better. It's still pretty sore, but it's not quite a bothersome as it was when I first put the shoe on. I think next week I'm going to try working out again. As of May 7th, I'm down 117lbs, which puts my weight at 290lbs. Pretty damn awesome if you ask me :o) I tried on a pair of size 26 jeans the other day, just for shits and giggles. You know what, I could ALMOST get them buttoned!!!!!!!!!! I ran into my sister's room screaming and about gave her a heart attack!!!!!!!!! You do not have any clue how awesome it felt. I thought I had a pair of size 28 around here, but I looked and could not find any. It's been almost 8 years since I wore jeans. Tomorrow I think I'm gonna go see if I can get a pair of size 28. I don't know if I'll buy them, but I'll see what happens. That would be too awesome if they actually fit!!!!!!!! We'll see what happens :o) |
| May 14, 2001 |
| Well gang, sorry I haven't been very good about updating. I'm in the process of moving out, so I've been a bit preoccupied with that. I'm really excited though. I finally feel like I'm going somewhere with my life. It's a small step, I know, but I feel really good. I'm so upset though. This weekend I stopped at Lane Bryant while looking my mom's Mother's Day present. I decided to try on a pair of size 28 jeans!!!!!!!!! Well I got them on and buttoned, but I couldn't get the damn things zipped. Very close, but not quite. I was so upset that I almost started crying. I'm frustrated as hell. I don't want to think about a tummy tuck, but I know I'm going to have to. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY CAN'T I BE NORMAL????????????????????? I thought losing weight was suppose to make things less complicated, not more. What world am I living in, huh :o) I knew going into this that different problems would arise, I'm just frustrated, that's all. I don't have any new numbers today. I was going to weigh this morning, but I forgot. Maybe tomorrow. |
| May 17, 2001 |
| Today I did something that I've been meaning to do for a while. I told some of my good friends that I have talked to in a while about my surgery. I just sent the email, so I haven't had any repsonses yet. I hope no one is upset with me. I mean, I'm glad that I had the surgery and I would do it again in a heartbeat. I know it doesn't matter what everyone else thinks, but I do care. A lot of these people have been in my life for a long time and I don't want them to feel that I was hiding something so important from them. I'll just have to wait and see what happens. I weighed this morning and my weight is still the same. I'm not majorly upset because I've been snacking quite a bit. I need to cut back and get back on track. I'm gonna try to start exercising again. I'm worried about my stupid toe though because it's been really bothering me lately. Sometimes I just wish he would have cut the stupid thing off!!!!!!!!! Patience, patience, I know. I'm getting better. Anyway, I need to go pack. The joys of moving......UGH!!!!! |