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HAPPY 2001!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope everyone had a wonderful New Year's. Mine wasn't too bad. I went to a party one of the girls I work with was throwing. I really didn't have too much fun and ended up being home before midnight. Pretty sad I know. I guess I just thought that I'd have a special guy to ring the New Year in with this year. I really think I underestimated how far along I'd be with my weightloss by now. What I mean is that I really didn't

realize how short a time the holidays really were from my surgery date. I guess I'm just impatient. I did weigh today and I've lost another 6lbs. That puts me at 328lbs. SOOOOOOOOO close to the 300 mark. I think I may have a HUGE party when I hit that mark :o) Anyway, my New Year's resolutions this year are to 1) Start exercising more, 2) Go back to school, and 3) Be better about updating my journal. I've gone through too much and have come too far just to stop now. I wanted to be done with college in 4 years, but obviously that hasn't happened. I will get through if it kills me though. I also haven't really been "exercising", like going to the gym. I have been doing more, but now my body is starting to get use to it and the weight loss is slowing down a little. Anyway, I promise to go more into details on my next entry, but I really have to run for now.

Well I don't know what to do. My feet are killing me!!!!!!!! Well not my feet, but my shoes are killing my feet. I figured that my feet had changed shape since surgery and all my old shoes were worn differently, so I got a new pair of shoes for Christmas. Well those also hurt my feet. I don't know what to do. I have tried so many different pairs of shoes and they all hurt my feet. I want to go out and do stuff, like shop, but I can't because my shoes kill my feet. I don't know if I should go to the doctor. I never had any problems before surgery. I wonder if this has anything to do with the problems I had with my feet during surgery. I think I told you all that when I woke up from surgery, my feet were killing me. My feet hurt worse than the incision itself. The doctor said it was just from the pressure of my standing upright for so long from surgery. (Apparently my doctor puts all his patients in a semi-upright position during surgery to avoid leakage.) My surgery was about 6 to 7 hours and normally someone doesn't stand in one position for that long. He said that the numbness and tingling would go away, which it has. But now all my shoes hurt me feet. If anyone has any suggestions, it would be greatly appreciated.

Ok I said one of my New Year's resolutions was to be better about updating my journal. I need to get my butt in gear I guess!!!!!!! I've just been working and I really haven't been doing too much else. I also haven't been very good about taking my vitamins lately, so I got one of those little pillboxes. The one I got has a morning, noon, evening, and night slots and it goes for 7 days. Each individual row for each day pops out. So I when I take my morning vitamins, I pop that day's row out and put it in my purse. It seems to be working well. I went to my primary doctor last Tuesday regarding my toe. He thought maybe I had a stress fracture and took an x-ray. The x-ray came back normal, so he is sending me to a podiatrist (foot doctor). I see him tomorrow morning at 9:30 a.m. I really hope it's nothing too serious. I just want to get it taken care of so I can start exercising and get rid of this stupid weight!!!!!!! My friend Dottie, who had surgery in April 2000, gave me a bunch of her old jeans at our last support group meeting. I've been kinda scared to try them on because I didn't want to be disappointed. Well the other night I got kinda bold and tried. As I suspected, they did not fit. I still have all this weight in my belly. That's the place where it's not shrinking as fast. I need to be able to start exercising so I can get rid of it. I just hope there is nothing seriously wrong. I really don't want to have to go through another surgery again. Two major surgeries in one year is enough for me!!!!!!!!!!