Do You Know Me?
If you do, tell me a bit about myself
I used to know exactly who I was, what I wanted, and where I was going to be in 10 years. Gee, that's great right? Right. Before i realized how mixed up my life was going to be, these were some of the ideals I held close. Knowing who i was had importance. Now I find myself being defined by others and shaped in the light others cast upon me. Woa, almost sound like a semi social person when one looks at it that way.
Well, a bit of info for those who just MIGHT on the off chance be reading this for some. I'm 20, birthday is 3 days after christmas 1979. I have dark hair, usually, also a fairly dark skin tone. I like my eyes, as they change with my mood. Most often than not they'll be hazel or flat out brown. When I'm happy, rare these days, they'll be a very nice shade of green. I stand somewhere in between 5'11 and 6'2. I'm not exactly sure where because i haven't been properly measured in about 3 years. Pictures are given freely as long as you're not stalking me and making shrines, those types always put me on edge.
At the moment I'm single, I tend to be overly co-dependant, so when i end up in relationships, I think i frighten people away by being too conforming to their needs. Go figure, i know people who would bend over backwards to have a guy that would do just about anything they were asked to do. Too bad they all have guys that talk with me and learned the lesson of how to get brownie points from that. If you read my history page, that'll soon be changing or at least added to, I mention towards the end a girl that i had a relationship with. We were together for almost 4 years, then i moved, got scared, and broke down and went mental on her. I'm sorry that happened the way it did, and i am glad that we're at least talking with each other now after the fact of life has moved beyond us.
I have 2 people that make the best friends list, and of which i'm constantly doing things with. One is Morgen, she and i have been friends since we were 4 and i intend to keep her friendship until the day i die. (since i'm older i'll go before she does anyhow) The other is Jason, he and i go back a few years and i find that he exemplifies the qualities of life and living that i wish i held up higher. A great friend in both of them. What a large list of people to keep me sane, eh? I know many other people. A large number of them online and probably not too pleased with me for past actions. I say to them, if you are my friend then you can look past and forgive, if not let me know and i'll be sure to apologize to you and move on with my life, hope you can do the same some day. But i also hold a lot of close friends over the net. It'd take a much longer time than i care to at the moment to list out all the wonderful people i know and keep in touch with here, so know that i know who you are and you do as well because i tell you how grateful i am that you listen to me when no one else does.
I also have this bad tendancy to fall for people that i get to know much too quickly. As a friend put it "Your only character flaw is that you put everyone else's feelings above your own". In retrospect she was right, i do have that "ability" to not think about my own well being in the least. Yes, sometimes it definately is a flaw.
So back to useful information to black mail me with. I'm taking the Microsoft Certification for a Systems Engineer and hope it will get me a nice job someplace in the next few months. I drive a ash grey volvo, my whole family has a volvo to their own, we're strange like that. But it has my stereo in it, so i'm happy. I live on my own, cook, sometimes clean, and pay bills like the rest of middle America. Oh by the way i live in Washington in the Puget Sound area. I drive when i get pissed off, i drive when i get bored, and i don't drive when i don't have gas money. That sums it up nicely.
Hope someone finds some of this useful to stalk me later, otherwise it was a large bit to think up for just the people who want to make sure i'm not a pyscho.
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