| Goddess Trixie |
| Finally the general came back. He asked me some more questions which I answered. He asked me to tell him again everything from the beginning of the arrest. I told him everything. I didn�t care anymore. I put my life into this general�s hands. If he can not help, I thought, then who will. I might as well finish it here and be ready for what was coming to me. There was a silence and it made me really nervous. I was ready to fight or run, I don't care for I said to my self "They can�t have me without a fight" or �Some have to die if I have to die. I will bring some with me.� I sat there facing the General, not moving, waiting for the sentence that he would speak and command. But what happen, surprised me and I could not help myself from crying. I think he just let me cry and cry. He just sit there and let me cry. Then when I calmed myself down, he told me that is late to bring me back to Candon, the little town where they picked me up. It happened to be where he lived with his family and where his father and forefathers lived. He told me that people there usually are not bad and there lots that are good. But he also knew that previously the foreigners used to own almost everything. We talked more and more as he seemed to like me and respect me and was going to let me GO. We even started to laugh at how silly the circumstances were and he said that I was very BRAVE to have faced this ordeal. �An ordinary girl won't last,� he said. He also told me, that he would dealt those that treated me badly, even his officers, as well as with the girl who falsely accused me. I was just so happy. I could not believe that my prayers had been answered. I hugged him and told him that I was thankful for his understanding. He said I am just a little girl. I told him also why I happen to come to their little town. I told him every thing. The next day, very early in the morning, the same convoys and armoured cars took me back to Vigan. When we arrived, there was already people on the street. I was wondering what is going on. The General didn�t tell me what's going to happen to me. I saw our mayor, he was one of the people that seemed to be waiting for our arrival. So many high dignataries as well. And there, I also saw the officers who arrested me and the girl standing next to her boyfriend. I thought here we go again. I thought the General lied to me. He made me believe that I am free but why all these people and why are they there so early in the morning. I don't know So I sat there next to the general, not saying anything. I am scared of what's going to happen next. But the surprise came. The General called the officers and the policeman in the city hall and the girl. Right there, the General asked them to step forward and they did. The mayor was standing next to me. I don't know what the big deal was, why can't they just get on with it if they are going to hang me, Why this preliminary.I could barely take any more, but I just stood there. I felt numb, I couldn�t feel anything anymore. As if my spirit had left me. I thought this must be how you feel when you are ready to die. You can't feel anything, no more life in you, as if your life has left you all alone to face the Judgment Day. I wasn't listening to much of what the General was saying, only after the �Mayor� congratulated me for exposing those officers and he said, they got rid of the girl, as she was being removed from her nursing school. All of them had been dealt with and congratulated me for being FREE. I was released and FREE, but still numb ? I didn�t know what to do, when the ceremonies were done, I went back to the restaurant where I worked, only to find out that I lost my job and no one wanted to take me back or give me a job again. I had paid the price and yet I was ALONE with no place and now no job. I had only a little money that I saved form my tips. It kept me awhile but the ordeal hadn't left me. It haunted me for a very long time and it�s still there. When I look back, sometimes I wish I was dead. I have so many nightmares and it seems that it won't ever leave me. Only the Lord has not left me but all those people that I thought were my friends were no longer there. They all forsook me. I guess, we all get what we deserve in life. I did not mean for those people to lose their jobs or for the girl to lose her schooling but it happened. It was out my control. But the haunting memories still invade to my memory. Only Jesus kept me and helped me to keep going. Only He did not forsake me, He's stuck with me and I in Him. I asked myself why I went through this, and all I can think of is that I learned to give it all to the Lord and I learned that no matter what events come into my life and our lives, He will always be there for us. He will not forsake you nor leave you. I needed Him and He didn�t leave me. He helped me through and delivered me from prison and from death. I owe Him everything God bless you all. LOVE in His NAME Trixie |
| Delivered from Prison |
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| PART TWO |