Never give out your password or credit card number in an instant message conversation. David Gareau says: Can you forgive my lateness please? Emese says: Hi there! Emese says: Your not late...didnt you get my message taht I will be late also... David Gareau says: Sorry I'm late, I couldn't sleep last night and the alarm clock didn't work. Emese says: Its okay Im glad that you are here David Gareau says: So, how was work today? David Gareau says: How was you reading session last night. Emese says: I was writing the letter for you Emese says: Good...is was sitting in my bad with my book and a big jar of cacao David Gareau says: Mom, Dexter and I went out for dinner last night to Olive Garden, and then we watched a movie at my mom's place.... Black Knight with Martin Lawrence. It was fun. Today Dexter skipped school so we can spend the day together, I think I am taking him to a stripclub. David Gareau says: a jar of cacao? Is that chocolate milk or what? Emese says: Have fun...lucky for him that he hes such a perv old brother David Gareau says: It was funny, he was so happy to have a guy to talk to, and he said, I'm like his dad, ya know, advice and all that. Emese says: Yes, sort of. David Gareau says: fuck you Emese says: Ah this is what I have missed all day David Gareau says: just wait till I see you again.....you'll get it.... David Gareau says: again, and again and again. Emese says: Your dirty mouth I mean David Gareau says: I know what you miss, my sweet little nympho....... mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa David Gareau says: David Gareau says: Damn, I am tired as shit. David Gareau says: Damn, you type slow. David Gareau says: Damn, I want some coffee. Emese says: Wait a second the phon is ringing David Gareau says: Damn, I'll be right back David Gareau says: ring David Gareau says: ring David Gareau says: ring David Gareau says: Allo, szia person..... Emese says: Im here so where were we...I think you went for coffee David Gareau says: so, you can still write me nice little perverted things. David Gareau says: Fuck Emese says: What? David Gareau says: Fuck, my mom doesn't have real coffee, just decaf.... so I am going to have some hot chocolate.... David Gareau says: I think I am going to go. David Gareau says: Bye. Emese says: Thats good I like it..I had a lot of hot chocolate this winter its good when is cold outside Emese says: Why are you leaving? Emese says: You went to the kitchen or you went out to Wawa or something for a hot chocolate!?! David Gareau says: goodnight honey David Gareau says: mwaaaaaaaaaaaa Emese says: Are you kidding me? David Gareau says: JUSTKIDDINGILOVEYOUSOOOOOOOOOOOMUCHHONEY David Gareau says: CANIHAVEABIGKISSANDAHUG? Emese says: Did you get my letter? Emese says: Yes you can have I sent some Emese says: Are you at your Moms place? How much time you have for me now? David Gareau says: NO, CAN YOU RESEND IT Emese says: I've sent it to both of your addresses Emese says: Im gonna resend it on your iridius address now David Gareau says: Nope, didn't get it will you resend it please....no...i'm just kidding David Gareau says: I got it.. I didn't realilze that you could resend it, so I just wanted to see if you would retype it. David Gareau says: Sorry, i'm lying so much this morning David Gareau says: do you still love me Emese says: Ive got it on a disk so now chance to full me...anyway did you already read it David Gareau says: It's long, but I am going to wait until I am not talking to you to read it. David Gareau says: this way I can have Emese-All-Day Emese says: Thats why I was asking how much time do you have for me...I really would like you to read it and Emese says: so that we could talk about it...maybe... David Gareau says: okay, give me an hour or two, I'll be right back. Emese says: It takes only ten minutes most David Gareau says: well, 5 minutes.... go to the bathroom, smoke a cigarette, get a coffee, get a quickee I'll be right back. Emese says: But its okay lets just talk, you'll read it later David Gareau says: nope, I'm going to read it now... David Gareau says: now i'm curious Emese says: Okay Ill wait... David Gareau says: I love you David Gareau says: You beautiful little pessimist...mwaaaaaa Emese says: I'm glad that you think so David Gareau says: I know things are really hard right now, but it's only because you are lonely and worrying about the little things. Emese says: was my letter chinese? I hate to write these kind of things in English David Gareau says: I was so sad and depressed and worried as well, when I was by myself bicycling, and stuff. Emese says: Little things...if you say so. They are preatty big for me. David Gareau says: No, it was a beautiful letter, I love to read your letters, the truth is that you explain your feelings better than most American people do in English. David Gareau says: Things always seem bigger when we are alone without anyone to really share them with. David Gareau says: I don't mean to belittle your feelings. David Gareau says: But you know my theory of life is that there are no "big things" Emese says: I know I just dont think that they are here just fo rthe moment David Gareau says: Except maybe if someone is going to die if you don't do something. Emese says: Nice theory...I envy you for that David Gareau says: What do you mean, you think that they (the things) are going to haunt you for a while? David Gareau says: Well, let's break it down. Emese says: Everything I've wrote you about in my letter is in me all the time, they will not vanish for tomorrow David Gareau says: First thing you mentioned, was about your ex... thank you for being honest... Emese says: You have been honest too... David Gareau says: Second, about your friend that is really nice but fell in love with you, well... I'm sorry that you might lose a friendship that was important to you because of this.... but if he is a true friend he will still be real.... and if not, I promise you will find more, if you want to. David Gareau says: Third, you love me, but all we have is email... Well, I am in America again, so we can talk on the phone too, plus we have MSN messenger now.... Plus, I am going to be taking a class on mental telepathy, so soon I will be able to read your mind and send you telepathic messages magically Emese says: I know how is to be next to a person who you love and he or she doesnt love you...so I dont want to aspect anything that would hurt him. I want to let him go and find the right person for him, not to be chained next to me by his feelings David Gareau says: seriously I know the fact that we are in no way close to each other sucks. But we are a real relationship, we do have love... which is more than most people that live together have.... so we are like already on third base (baseball) now when we are living together again we'll be like a homerun... get it... . we're past the hard stuff. Emese says: When we are going to live together? When you come to Budapest? David Gareau says: He is an adult (or at least I hope so, I don't know what kinds of perv things they do out there in theEast) and honestly honey he is responsible for his own actions, it sucks to love someone you can't have, but on the same token it is better than not loving anyone, I went through that once, and honestly I preferred that the girl was honest, and a friend. David Gareau says: When I go to Budapest, or I drag you down here. David Gareau says: In the fall David Gareau says: Mid-October Emese says: Where do you want to drag me? Emese says: I think (I hope) Im gonna be in school from September David Gareau says: Fourth, about you wanting to travel and all. We will travel. Honey, most of the people I traveled around with were older than me.so, we have plenty of time, I promise that we will go to many different places together. David Gareau says: Well, you gotta tell me your plans, so I can plan too.... we'l figure something tout David Gareau says: something out. David Gareau says: But I don't plan to stop traveling, even after I get married and have kids. David Gareau says: I met so many families that travel together. Emese says: Honey Im just not seeing myself traveling with or without family because I dont see any possibility for it... Emese says: I mean I told you I hardly have enough money to live David Gareau says: Lastly I know you have a lot to do, "my work, my studies, my legal status here in Hungary" I know these are important issues, and they deserve your undivided attention, but that doesn't mean you can't continue to dream. David Gareau says: Stop dreaming and you die... not physically, but emotionally. Emese says: So it is a bit hard to believe in things like that ...based on what sould I think that in a short time Im gonna be able to afford all this...right know I can go to the school I want to just because I cant pay for it...Im living with a girl who I hardly can bear just because I have no money to live elsewhere ...should I tell you more!? David Gareau says: Tell me everything Emese says: somewhere else David Gareau says: You can live though... right. Right now, you are surviving, and soon we will be together and I will be able to help you cause I can make good money. David Gareau says: I ain't rich but I will help you of course. David Gareau says: And then we can spend more time together and join forces and conquer the world. David Gareau says: Ya know, if we get married then you can get US citizenship.... David Gareau says: Then you can get over here and work and make mucho dinero. David Gareau says: You don't have too much to say... David Gareau says: Emese says: You think you can make enough money to come and live here for a while? David Gareau says: Here's a David Gareau says: David Gareau says: Yeah dogggggggggg, plus, I can work in budapest... David Gareau says: Selling my body, teaching english... Emese says: Thank you for your presant David Gareau says: There are no such things as mistakes,.... there's what you do and what you don't do. David Gareau says: Your entire life is this moment right now. Emese says: You see thats the problem... David Gareau says: This moment you are talking to somebody you love and someone that love you. David Gareau says: a lot Emese says: I think I dont live my life the way I should David Gareau says: So, how is that a problem. Emese says: I mean time just flows and Im sitting here dreaming and waiting for a wonder David Gareau says: Well, what do you think you "should" do, what will change your sadness or situation. David Gareau says: One year, is not your entire life sweet princess. Emese says: Just that this isnt my first year with this feeling and the way it looks like it wont be the last David Gareau says: So, what option do you have? What can you do to make more money, or change these feelings? Emese says: I cant make more money that I earn with my work...I just have to fit my dreams to my budget. Emese says: You see...I never worked seriously because I wanted to keep my freedom, sort of, but you cannot live from freedom David Gareau says: Well, than you can make enough money for now, until we can get together. David Gareau says: And live our dreams David Gareau says: What do you want to do? Emese says: You know Im a bit surprised that you mentioned marriage ...I remember you were the one who's last thought was marriage... David Gareau says: Will it help you to forget about me, like you think your friend should do wiht you.? I don't think that will help you. Emese says: No probably not...just that oh, Honey I dont know, if I knew than I wont talk so many stupid things David Gareau says: But I want to help you, and honestly you are my Messy girl, and I know that even if it didn't work out, yyyou would still be my friend and you would be better off, so, the only problem is that I am not ready for true marriage, and actually I think marriage is just sort of a made up thing, the real test of a relationship is how much you love each other, but if I can help someone I love by saying David Gareau says: "i do" then I will do it in a sec. David Gareau says: They aren't stupid. Emese says: Its gonna be a storm outside...perfect weather for my mood...only that Im gonna get all wet if its gonna rain David Gareau says: And you're damn right it won't fucking help... David Gareau says: Besides you could never forget me..... David Gareau says: Honey, I love you.... snap out of this bad mood shit...... You are one of the few people that has sooooo much.... Emese says: Dont misunderstand me...I dont want you to ask me to marry you Ijust thought its strange yo hear you talking about it David Gareau says: maybe you aren't rich, but you have enough food, you have a house, you have a brillant mind, you are gorgeous, you have a guy that lives on the other side of the lake that is crazy about you, a guy that thinks about you non-stop, that carries around a picture of you all the timejust so he can look at you say szeretlek and kiss you... I shit you not, I kiss a fucking picture.... imagine that. Emese says: Your right I know... let life do the rest David Gareau says: So, you haven't travelled around the world yet, you will, only about 1% of the world ever leaves their home country ever. David Gareau says: I love you sweetness, I hate to see you so sad, about transitory little things ..... Emese says: I'll stop... David Gareau says: You have a good life, you're gonna have a great life... All those dreams of yours will come true. And I will be there right next to you when they do, so I can say "I told you so" David Gareau says: Don't stop on account of me... stop thinking that sad shit.... Honestly, if you are sad, talk to me about it.. I like it when you share your feelings with me. David Gareau says: When you tell me that the world isn't as perfect for you right now... so I can try and make you see just how wonderful everything is. David Gareau says: David Gareau says: Princess what time is it there? David Gareau says: What time are you going to bed tonight? David Gareau says: I'll call you later on, so you can listen to my annoying voice a little bit, what do you think? Emese says: Its 16:30 and I dont know when Im going to bed David Gareau says: Why do you type so little. David Gareau says: Are you getting your freak on in the principal's office? David Gareau says: Sweetheart, I have to go, I am going to go out with Dexter, take hime to the movies or something.... David Gareau says: I love you. Emese says: You always can call me till 11:00 p.m which is 5:00 for you. I mean for me its okay if you call me whenever you want but I dont want to bother Judith. Im at home usually from 7 p.m David Gareau says: Give me a big hug.... and a kiss.... and a smile.......... Emese says: Okay, have fun. David Gareau says: I love you sooooo much.... have a great night.... Emese says: Big hug...kiss...and David Gareau says: Still haven't answered why you type so little, are you still working? Is there someone there... tell them David says to get lost.... Emese says: I dont type a litle Im just a bad secretary who cant type David Gareau says: MWWWWAAAAAAA David Gareau says: oh okay.... Emese says: Thanks... David Gareau says: Well, I love bad secretaries..... bad bad bad secretaries...... I'll talk to you soon....... szia\ Emese says: Bye