What am I gonna do if she winds up dead?
I never though I'd say those words
To hear them echo sounds absurd
Tomorrow is the day I contemplate about
I'll start to realize what I'm without
Those solitary moments that flash before your eyes
The agnonizing minute right before you die
I'd like to know exactly what she saw
Did it have to do with me at all?
I regret not always being there
Putting up a front like I didn't care
It's the truth that reallly hurts
For me there is no comfort
The truth is I loved her more than one should dare
She was my one and only Kare-n-bear
I can't pay back for one thousand meals
Nothing can replace one million tears
Her words were my refuge
To listen to me she'd never refuse
She was my second mom
Always there when he wouldn't call
Talked me out of my bad dreams
Tucked me in before I went to sleep
She knew never to leave me alone
I used to be at her house more than my own
Nothing can mend the hole in my heart
The tissue is spread too far apart
How do you retribute someone's life
Unless you take your own with a knife
Letting the bloodshed symbolize tears
To pay her back for all those years
What do you do when it doesn't seem enough?
Cutting so deep but finally giving up
Putting flowers on the coffin and crying at the grave
Watching over her is where I wanna stay
She did the same for me and so much more
It's all I can do for her while in this world