It felt like my emotions were caged
No matter how hard I tried to let them out
For some reason it wasn't being allowed
My blood ran cold and I started to shake
Heart began racing, quite a scene I was starting to make
I became weary and frustrated at the same time
Why couldn't I control these functions of mine
Wanted to make the beating cease
Anxiety from my heart needed to be eased
I was scared and didn't know what to do
The symptoms worsened, I hadn't a clue
Layed on my bed to settle down
Left my friend to worry for now
I'm not sure what causes these attacks
Almost feel as if my control lacks
Don't know how to stop them from coming
All I can do is keep on running
Fleeing from the problems in my head
Things that don't exist and have never been said
I don't understand why I enjoy it so much
Making up problems, miseries and such
Put these horrible ideas in my mind
I guess I want someone to be kind
I like it when people show they care
They make me feel as if I'm really all there
I've realized people don't like me sad
People dislike it when I seem mad
I've had this problem since I was a kid
I believe the problems made up in the blink of an eyelid
Thinking something is actually wrong
Let's it alright to release feelings pent up for so long
Can't cry or let out feelings when I want to
My emotions don't occur on cue
When I have to loosen this lid clamped down so hard
I have to make up things to get a start
Having something to think about that's sad
Even though it's not true, makes letting go half as bad
I vent my emotions on something other than my real focus
That way the tension is relieved without all the ruckus
Never have to think about what's really bothering me
But I can still refresh myself emotionally
Probably not the best way to deal with it
Too bad, that's house I do this shit