B'Elanna's Honour

I spent a year concealing how I felt,
A lone, dishonourable year of doubt.
Unspoken truth consumed me from within,
No love, but anger, visible without.
Through walls of ice, impossible to melt,
Constricting, crushing, stifling my heart,
I played a game impossible to win,
That held him distant, keeping us apart.

Great changes rarely happen in a day,
So when, at brink of death, my heart confessed,
My love for him no longer kept at bay,
He gave no answer, heartless like the rest.
I felt betrayed, discarded like a toy - 
Another day, he filled my life with joy.