He paused looking around her living room but his eyes found their way right back to hers, "But I know what you heard that night and that wasn't anything close to what I feel. Rell made me see that if I go on worrin about my playa esq. status I was gonna miss out on what I really wanted and after seeing T and O together this morning and Rell was talkin about Brittany I knew this was exactly what I wanted."
Brittney took in a deep breath and finally spoke, "You wanna know what I think?"
Druex waited for a moment not knowing whether or not he wanted to hear this, "What?"
"First time I saw you at your locker, I thought 'Jerome Jones All Over Again', but then you smiled and I said damn. And ever since you had me up against that door, my insecurities have been eating at me. And they only intensified as Rome and I broke up for good. Then you had another chance to kiss me...but you didn't and my brother had that talk with me. And I decided giving up all hope was best, but Saturday you proved me wrong." Brittney said looking away what she kept in her mind brought tears to her eyes. He reminded her of every insecurity that had ever crossed her mind, she had a lot of self doubt behind that smile, but he never had to know that. Jerome knew them all back and forward, and she knew his, but worst of all he knew how to make her forget hers and Druex didn't.
Drueux sat up and laid his elbows on his knees sighing, "You don't understand, on the outside I look so confident, but inside every other thought is a doubt. Like the last time it almost happened I thought if we started something it wouldn't work, I even told Rell I wasn't good with sweet girls. Almost if I didn't deserve what I so badly wanted, you know."
Brittney laughed bitterly and sat up near him their hips touching, "I don't understand? Druex asked Jerome I constantly doubt myself and my worth, insecurity is probably my biggest problem. It's like the world wants to mold you into their view of perfection and beauty, when you know full well what it real beauty and the ironicalness of perfect and flaw."
Druex smiled understanding her last comment, his grandma used to talk about perfection and flaw like it was the bible. The exact phrase he couldn't recall but the message was bright and clear, 'The grass isn't always greener on the other side.'
"My moma and my mema always told me and Isabelle that, 'the problem with perfection was that it was flawless and the problem with flaw was that it longed to be perfect.' The ironic statement hit me hard and as I got older the insecurities invaded my every day life, so I do understand Druex." Brittney replied pushing her hair out of her face.
"Look I know I wanna be with you, and that's all I care about, fuck what people think, fuck my playa status, would you be my girl if I put all that behind me?" He asked looking her right in the face a braid threatened to fall over the beautiful eye that Brittney was staring into and she lightly pushed it back, her fingers lightly hit his cheek and his body shuttered with need.
Brittney kept her fingers lightly on his cheek doing much of nothing just laying on his soft cheek waiting to answer him, she could feel him shake under her gentle touch. She was going to answer when the phone rang, and he let out a loud sigh.
"Hello?" Brittney said answering with her own pout, wanting to answer him, making her mind linger.
"Hey Brittney, this is Mario." He said smiling, not knowing that he had just interrupted something very important.
Brittney's eyes widened, "Hi, Mario." Druex looked up confused and shrugged her shoulders, he then went back to running his fingers over his face.
She turned from him as Mario began to talk, and looked at her from behind, and he knew that everything he said was right. For once in his life he felt that nothing in the world could be anymore right. He was sure he didn't want to learn the hard way about true beauty, especially since it was right in front of him. He had a sudden impulse to get up and go rap his arms around her.
"Mario, I don't think that's a good idea. You know what? How about we forget about this I think I'm going to hook up with someone else." Brittney replied trying to be gentle, she didn't know if she and Druex would go to that level yet, but she didn't want Mario ruining that for her.
Mario breathed out deeply, "Yea, I kind of figured that was gonna happen since Druex spent lunch talking about you to us. Chub said something about him bein in 'face love' wit you or something." She smiled and realized it was true, they both were in 'face love', they both fell for each other's smile.
