| I will become my disorder Until I understand the pain and agony I will go into numbness thoughts racing through of food, food, food food will take away my pain or will it just numb my agony and pain until I find a different way to cope problems will never go away if I just stuff it with food get rid of it by purging laxatives always there when I need it never gone when I feel full it'll take away my mistakes should I trust it to help me with my problems or let my friend go to the trash it has become I will never know for I think I am going to call my friend back for more assurance that my problems will go away with just a slip up -Mar 9'98 |
| I hate my life want to die agony and pain becoming my soul thoughts brinking in and out should I listen food binge purge so easy get it over with desperate for attention disappear fade away |
| into darkness blackness into my soul dark hole in pit of stomach fill with food get rid of purge so easy yet so hard a cycle ready to take over my soul -Mar 9'98 |
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