Silence.....
Darkness.....
I sit in a room devoid of all content
Contemplating my existence.
Who am I?
Why am I here?
A swirling light grows in the center of the room.
A crimson red fire
Consuming the air around it
An awful noise of a thousand claws
Ripping, rending flesh from bodies unseen
Can be heard from the void.
Hatred
All thoughts race through my mind.
What can this be?
The noise intensifies
Thoughts of violence rip through me
Like physical beings ripping my flesh
Flames intensify around me, encompassing my being.
Soon I can no longer think.
I run, the void draws to me.
It is like the sun of the dead.
Now it glows green.
Tears
Sorrow
Suicide
I stop running, finding it futile.
I feel tired, but not all physically.
I feel everyone looking at me.
Laughing.
Laughing at the mistakes I make.
They push me, and I can't push back.
I feel like I am on a ledge.
How easy would it be to jump?
To end the laughter?
As I finally find strength to lift my head,
The void changes.
Now it turns dark.
Sickness
Starvation
Decrepification
Waves seem to be coming from the sun
Pushing me back
I feel weak, Like my body is spent
I look at my body
I am old, wrinkled and dying
Thin and brittle
I am being pulled into the earth
I can't seem to move
I start to cry
Is this how I will die?
The void slowly moves into my fading view
Everything seems to go darker around it
My vision is slowly dimming.
The void changes.
Now it turns bright.
Youth
Strength
Invigoration
Heat seems to wash over me
Not the heat of flames
But the heat of life.
I hear laughter
Not at my mistakes, but joyous
Children.
I feel like I am on a carousel
Giggling happily, carefree
I feel alive
Smiling, I look at the void
The void changes.
Now it turns yellow
Happy
Carefree
Praise
Applause can be heard.
I feel a strong sense of accomplishment
Like my life matters
Once again I am on a ledge
I now have no need to jump
I lean over the edge, and spread my arms
I fly away from all of life's problems
Feeling the warm air beneath me.
Glancing up, I see the void
The void changes.
Now it turns bright blue
Love
I look beside me to find the woman I love
Sleeping silently in the beautiful morning
I slowly put my arms over her
I get a feeling that all is right in the world
I wouldn't change anything.
I feel truly happy.
All the light turns dark, as I am snapped back.
I am once again in the dark room, the void spinning uncontrolled
Color spits from the core
And as it dies, it rushes into my head.
I hear a voice.
This is why you are here
This is who you are
Embrace it all
Once again
silence
